YOU KNOW WHATS BEST FOR U !!!!!!!!

Well, just to let you know last night's site, anybody was hardly there and they had Extra Pads There Too !!!!  I was shocked !!!  Well, the main reason was that the previous night, everyone was told that ONLY FAMILIES Were going to be accepted for the nights shelter and there is only 35 total slots available and there is about an average of 70-80 homeless!!!  My guess was that everyone knew the odds were wayyy against them so they didn't even "try" to go there..... thuuuus, I was expected around at least 50-60 people outside and when I got there there was only about 10 !!!!  I said, "Where is everybody" ???   So, bottom line we had an Amazing Dinner !!!!  with Desert, ohhhh my it was absolutely Amazing !!!!  and Amazing Good Nights Rest !!!!!    and I got a Very Nice Shower today !!! See, you get to appreciate the finer and little things in life !!!!!    the Universe gets you more to be Grateful and Thankful For !!!!!!!!   I see it through Me !!! 

Well, I Exactly Know What I Need To Do !!!!!!    It Seemed that the Universe Was Just Rubbing My Face Into It !!!!!  About Not Getting Help After This Last "Help" !!!  Well, last week Rob from the Veterans Assistance Deal saw me at the Pads HQ and we talked for a bit about "What Happened" ????   yada yada !!!!   All Good !!!  I was expecting it....All Good, there going to "help" me by paying for my Car Insurance and health and maintenance for the car (Brakes and a Full Tune Up, Gas Filter, Spark Plugs, The Whole Shabang !!!!!   Yes, they did try to pay the $125 fee for the BA Cert...but Rob said, Negative, all good, I understand, but the Ins and the work repairs they can do !!!!  All Good 10-4 I feel that this is my 2nd Run Through !!!! and I knew it was going to up to me to really Get That "JOB" and to SHAVE !!!!   it hasn't been a yr since I used them for any heavy help !!!  When I went to see Rob, a lady from the Dept. of Employment which I had worked with before.... Ohhhhh Brother !!!!!!   You know where I'm going with this one !!!  OMG !!!  the Universe couldn't write a better script !!!!  Haaa, she was in the waiting area on working on something on the table there and I walked it... I was there to see Rob.... and I was sort of forced to talk with the "lady" don't get me wrong, all she wants to do is Help !!! Truly Honestly Help Me !!!! But, deep down I know whats best for me and working for a Pest Control Co. is Not It !!!  I know whats best for me !!!!!!   See, I'm going to take advantage of my "Home Freedom" to get in the Best Shape in my life !!!!   it's All Starting Sept !!!!!!  see, I was all saying this mentally, as I gave her my email and cell number and she basically told me that I must check my email at least 3 times a week !!!  Say What ???  Mentally I was saying only if you really knew !!!! How I'm Not Going to Check My Email !!!  I'm trying to be Off the Grid for a While like 3 + months !!!  you know what ????   Fuck It !!!!   I'm going to Canada !!!!

Yeah, even though her intentions are Well meaning and that she is just trying to Help !!!  See, I know what's best for me... and it's not "Shaving" My Beard and working as a Pest Control Agent !!!!  Yeah, I just played the game !!!  I knew My Ass WILL NEVER SHAVE MY BEARD to a Clean Shaven Baby !!!!!   NEVER !!!!  I would rather be Homeless !!!! Haaaaa I'm Already there mutha fucka !!!!!  Wha-Wha !!!!!!!  then she was asking if I had any white dress shirts, black slacks, and a suit coat !!!  I said, I used too !!!!   I donated it all !!!!  I had about 6 dark blue and black suit coats !!!!  Done-Done !!! and I through out or Donated them to Goodwill my black church interview shoes !!!!!    They Sooo Want Me to "Look" the part by Shaving and Get a Job !!!!!    My Job is Me right now !!!!!  Ya know !!!  and plus I love Being Homeless !!!! Haaa !!! Right !!!  I'm soooo Freaking Free !!!!!!   and then when I get paid which should be tomorrow because the 1st is on a Sat !!!  So I usually get paid on Fri  !!!  Ok, after I get the insurance and the auto repairs brakes, and the Full Tune Up !!! oh yeah, this Sat Morn I'm going to get my Oil Changed for Free !!! the Dealership that donated the car to me, also gave me 2 certificates for a Free Oil Change..... I have used one of them already... Wow !!!  Whooo needs money right ???? I just really want to take care of my Student Loan which is $27,000 I have been grossly neglecting my loan debts and I really want to start with something to pay that off..... ok, don't know how I got there but, it's Ok, I'm just goin with the flow right now with my writing here... So, after those 2 big things, Ins and the brakes, tune-up and oil change, I want to go NORTH !!!!!   I was google mapping Canada, how many hours it would take for me to get to a certain Forest.... there's like I'm think more like Michigan/ Canadian Border area..... just to get away be alone before I drive back !!!!  I want this trip to be cooler with less people !!!!  and to make sure I have gas $$ to get back !!!!  I can deal with the gas when I get back... you know what  ??? I'm thinking of working just PT Cash for either Maple Pub or Brauer House in Lombard, IL I'm going to see my contact when he comes back on tour !!!  He's Awesome  !!!  I love him !!! Eric Starkill look him up !!!!!!    ok, got to get going....

Soo, that's what's been going on here !!!!  just Laser Beam Focusing and Fine Tuning !!!! on Knowing What I Don't Want !!!!!!   Yeah, I'm going to have to Not Answer My Phone and Not Check My Email...... and just go to Canada for a couple weeks !!!!  I haven't found out whether or not I was accepted or not for the VRAP Veterans Retraining Assistance Program, I know I should be finding out very soon !!!  but, I know not to hound the manager !!!!!

ok, got to go now.........