Wow !!!! I'm Getting Clearer & Clearer Every Moment !!!!

Body,  Mind, Spirit, Total Human Metamorphosis Extreme Boot Camp

Metamorphosizing Into:  Divinitus Warrious Universalis 

8/13/2012 to 8/13/2016

4 Years

1st Year:  Body

2nd Year: Body + Mind

3rd Year: Body + Mind + Spirit

4th Year: Body + Mind + Spirit + Infinite Divine Universe

The Time is Now for me to go through with my metamorphosis.  If I can serve 4 1/2 yrs in the Marine Corps I can serve 4 yrs for me !!!!  I know what I must do.  I know what is key for me and that is 2 the Extreme  !!!!   Total Immersion inside the Infinite Divine Universe Cocoon !!!  without any form of Media or contact.  Just straight Native American Style, just Me and Infinite Divine Universe that is it and that is All !!! 

I'm ready, It's PDT !!!  Perfect Divine Timing for me to go under baby !!!!  Going under the knife of Infinite Divine Universe !!!!!  IDU is my Surgeon !!!!  and I'll be under for a while. 

This is for the ones who asking "What's Goin On With Oscar ??"  well, this is what's been going on....  I kept the Oscar Zepeda FB Page for a reason and that was to have you be able to find me, not the Old Oscar Shit I don't know if I should post some Old Oscar Pics !!!! I think I should, to show you the Old Self the Before !!! Where I'm Not Proud of Being, Where I'm Embarrassed  of what I had become with my life thus far, to humble myself and to let you know that I've been there !!!!  I've Sooooo Been There !!!!  and I want to Change !!!!  I want to Change NOW !!!!!   NO IFS &'s or BUTS !!!!!!  well, let's get these pics over with !!!   I would like to thank my former roomy Eric for taking these pics, for I had zero rememberance of anything that night/morning !!!!  and couldn't believe what I've seen and ultimately what I had became in my 39 yrs of life !!!!!!    ok, I just want to get this shit over with for me to own up to it, I'm glad nothing Life Threatening Had Happened to me or anyone else !!! Thank You !!!! Thank You For Humbling Me, Where I know I'm Not Perfect, Showing Me where I might need some improvement !!!!   Haaa, A Lot Mutha Fucka !!!! Thank You Infinite Divine Universe for my humbling beginnings...Thank You !!!   Here they are: 

Ok, there it's done !!!!   it does look pretty funny !!!!  I like Tony's Face !!!!!  trying to keep my ass up !!!!   and here I was outside of the Lodge apparently I went through the garbage can grabbed some of this To Go Containers and used them as a Pillow !!!!! WTF !!!!!!!  Holy Shit !!!  I did not remember any of this at Freaking All !!!!   it actually scared me, I definitely blacked out that night.... again, I'm sooo glad nothing Life Threatning happened to myself or anyone else !!!!  Whewwww.... Wow !!!  I'm ready for change !!!  I know the Universe Really Wanted Me to Make Sure That I Truly Wanted My Metamorphosis !!!!   and deep down I knew this was coming !!! Something Drastic and Extreme Had To Happen !!!!!  to make sure my ass was Serious !!!!   I'm Done-Done !!! I've Had It !!!!  FOR GOOD !!!!!!!!!    yes, it takes something like this to wake myself up !!! WTF am I doing here ??? WTF is Going On With Me ???  This is Not The True Me !!!!  This is Not How I See My Life !!!!  This is Not What I Want My Life To Be !!!! 

One Key Thing I learned About Me Already is the "ENVIRONMENT CAN MAKE YOU OR BREAK YOU".    Environment is soooo key with me !!!!   Yeah, not saying I'm blaming anybody or anything, it's just that if it's In Your FACE Day in and Day out, !!!   So, I had released my place of residence and my place of employment... // couldn't take it anymore !!!  being surrounded, being pressured, tempted, working at a Bar/Dance/Pub/Band ......C'mon !!!  Oscar !!!!  Take A Shot !!!  Take A Shot !!!  C'mon ....You Pussy !!!!  I know their intentions are good !!!  I know that !!! I'm just done with that whole Scene !!!  Done-Done !!! and this night was the exclamation !!!!  point !!!!  it was Eric's son's birthday party !!! outside of the Lodge in Four Lakes, IL and I felt a bit guilty that the past years I've always missed his birthday bashes and he just so happened to see me that day !!!  So, he knew I was around !!!!  I know I'm not making excuses for the ending behavior that I had done.  It's just that Environement Is Key !!! I Must Be Around the People and Beings that I want to become !!  I needed and wanted a More healthy, mind, body, spirit conscious environment that is helping to better me and my well-being.  This will 4 ever be imprinted in my mind, I was working at the Lodge and a drunk ass scrawny reeked of straight up nasty alcohol breath with slurring and spitting, hugging my shoulder yelling, "Let's Take a Shot !!- Let's Take a Shot!!- Let's Take a Shot!!"   Enough Already and Get the Fuck Off Me !!!!   I was literally Done-Done !!!  and yes I did have some assistance in becoming Done-Done... I thank Willie !!!   he does a bad-ass Crip Walk Dance !!! but, his people skills are straight up nasty... well, I'm not going into details here, let's just say, he definitely helped me release the job that wasn't serving me anymore !!!  I was done-done !!!  also the emps too !!!  getting drunk on their day off and purposely causing fights and telling us (bouncers) to kick them out !!!  It was more of a Drunkin Stupid Power Trip !!!!  and it was All Her (emp) Fault !!!  I seen it happened !!! 

Yeah, it was a little bit of everything that finally made me realized that I need to change NOW !!!  I Have To Go Somewhere Far Far Away !!!  Be Around people who are helping me Grow, Learn and Evolve to my highest good !!!   Environment was a Very Big Key !!!!   I'm Done with Alcohol !!!  Yes, I think it would be fair and honest that I am an Alcoholic, that I cannot just have one-two-three beers, I drink till I'm blitzed or blacked out !!! the above pics as an example. Wow !!!  I never thought I would admit that online unto Cyber Space, on my blog,  but, it's true.... and I must make peace with who I am and where I am at..... and I must own up to it....  and to make peace with it... that's it's Ok ... I'll be alright... I'm right in the anticipation of a Humongous Life Altering and Life Transformatinal Event !!!!   I'm about go into the cocoon !!!!   Going IN !!!!  Going In !!!  I'm Going In !!!  I'm Going In !!!   I'm Going In !!!  I'm Going In!!!  I'm Going In, I'm Going In !!!!   and to all of my Spirtual Based Community and Friends, Bodhi Spiritual Center in Chgo, Brilliantly Mad Events, Chi Ka Go (through Brilliantly Mad), Oneness Blessings,

I Will See You Again !!!!!   Soon !!!!  I Must Go What I Need To Go Through !!!  I Love You All !!!!   Just because I'm not physically there doesn't mean I don't want or need to go or I'm Not Actual There !!! I'm there in Spirit and Vibration and in my Energy, Thoughts and my Intentions !!!!

 I Sooooooo Want To Go !!!!  I Want to Go To Every Event !!!!!!   it's just right now I know I must go through my Metamorphosis.... and thank you for all that you do !!!!!   You're Doing Sooooo Much for our Incredible Supernatual Amazing Infinite Universe !!!!!!   Thank You !!!  

I'm Ready.  I'm Going In !!!   thank you for a being a part of my life experience !!!  Thank You for reading these words, !!!  I know you're there, I can sense and feel your presence !!!!  Thank You !!!  I don't have to know who you are, but, I can definitely feel you !!! Thank You !!!!   This Body, Mind, Spirit Total Human Metamorphosis-2 the Extreme will be like no other !!!  and I must do it for me, myself, and I !!!!  and for My Infinite Divine Universe..... Wow !!!! it's finally happening !!!!  I'm just getting these instant directions and instructions on what to do now !!!  I'm lovin it !!!!  thank u.... need to stretch a lil bit, been writing for a bit  now!!!!   i love it !!! What a Day !!!   What an Amazing Day I'm Having Today !!!!  it's 5:30pm now, Friday, and Friday's is my Favorite Day, well, everyday is my favorite day, but, Fridays at the DuPage Shelter Pads... it's in Naperville... this particular church Goes ALL OUT !!!!!  I Never Ate This Good Ever In My LIFE !!!!!   It's Good To Be Homeless in DuPage County !!!!!   I don't think it like that and I hope you don't either, see, I'm on a local road trip !!!!   Sometimes crashing out in my car and sometimes not !!!  ok, 5:39pm now.... Hmmmmmmm any Parting Thoughts ???   Nope... this is it... I'm Ready for My Transformation aka Body-Mind-Spirit Total Human Metamorphosis-2 the Extreme !!!!  4 yrs !!!  and this is Totally It !!! I'm Going In... I'm Going In..... I'm Going In !!!!!   Much Love 4 Ever !!!!  Divinitus Warrious Universalis (Oz)