Well, just to let you know last night's site, anybody was hardly there and they had Extra Pads There Too !!!! I was shocked !!! Well, the main reason was that the previous night, everyone was told that ONLY FAMILIES Were going to be accepted for the nights shelter and there is only 35 total slots available and there is about an average of 70-80 homeless!!! My guess was that everyone knew the odds were wayyy against them so they didn't even "try" to go there..... thuuuus, I was expected around at least 50-60 people outside and when I got there there was only about 10 !!!! I said, "Where is everybody" ??? So, bottom line we had an Amazing Dinner !!!! with Desert, ohhhh my it was absolutely Amazing !!!! and Amazing Good Nights Rest !!!!! and I got a Very Nice Shower today !!! See, you get to appreciate the finer and little things in life !!!!! the Universe gets you more to be Grateful and Thankful For !!!!!!!! I see it through Me !!!
Well, I Exactly Know What I Need To Do !!!!!! It Seemed that the Universe Was Just Rubbing My Face Into It !!!!! About Not Getting Help After This Last "Help" !!! Well, last week Rob from the Veterans Assistance Deal saw me at the Pads HQ and we talked for a bit about "What Happened" ???? yada yada !!!! All Good !!! I was expecting it....All Good, there going to "help" me by paying for my Car Insurance and health and maintenance for the car (Brakes and a Full Tune Up, Gas Filter, Spark Plugs, The Whole Shabang !!!!! Yes, they did try to pay the $125 fee for the BA Cert...but Rob said, Negative, all good, I understand, but the Ins and the work repairs they can do !!!! All Good 10-4 I feel that this is my 2nd Run Through !!!! and I knew it was going to up to me to really Get That "JOB" and to SHAVE !!!! it hasn't been a yr since I used them for any heavy help !!! When I went to see Rob, a lady from the Dept. of Employment which I had worked with before.... Ohhhhh Brother !!!!!! You know where I'm going with this one !!! OMG !!! the Universe couldn't write a better script !!!! Haaa, she was in the waiting area on working on something on the table there and I walked it... I was there to see Rob.... and I was sort of forced to talk with the "lady" don't get me wrong, all she wants to do is Help !!! Truly Honestly Help Me !!!! But, deep down I know whats best for me and working for a Pest Control Co. is Not It !!! I know whats best for me !!!!!! See, I'm going to take advantage of my "Home Freedom" to get in the Best Shape in my life !!!! it's All Starting Sept !!!!!! see, I was all saying this mentally, as I gave her my email and cell number and she basically told me that I must check my email at least 3 times a week !!! Say What ??? Mentally I was saying only if you really knew !!!! How I'm Not Going to Check My Email !!! I'm trying to be Off the Grid for a While like 3 + months !!! you know what ???? Fuck It !!!! I'm going to Canada !!!!
Yeah, even though her intentions are Well meaning and that she is just trying to Help !!! See, I know what's best for me... and it's not "Shaving" My Beard and working as a Pest Control Agent !!!! Yeah, I just played the game !!! I knew My Ass WILL NEVER SHAVE MY BEARD to a Clean Shaven Baby !!!!! NEVER !!!! I would rather be Homeless !!!! Haaaaa I'm Already there mutha fucka !!!!! Wha-Wha !!!!!!! then she was asking if I had any white dress shirts, black slacks, and a suit coat !!! I said, I used too !!!! I donated it all !!!! I had about 6 dark blue and black suit coats !!!! Done-Done !!! and I through out or Donated them to Goodwill my black church interview shoes !!!!! They Sooo Want Me to "Look" the part by Shaving and Get a Job !!!!! My Job is Me right now !!!!! Ya know !!! and plus I love Being Homeless !!!! Haaa !!! Right !!! I'm soooo Freaking Free !!!!!! and then when I get paid which should be tomorrow because the 1st is on a Sat !!! So I usually get paid on Fri !!! Ok, after I get the insurance and the auto repairs brakes, and the Full Tune Up !!! oh yeah, this Sat Morn I'm going to get my Oil Changed for Free !!! the Dealership that donated the car to me, also gave me 2 certificates for a Free Oil Change..... I have used one of them already... Wow !!! Whooo needs money right ???? I just really want to take care of my Student Loan which is $27,000 I have been grossly neglecting my loan debts and I really want to start with something to pay that off..... ok, don't know how I got there but, it's Ok, I'm just goin with the flow right now with my writing here... So, after those 2 big things, Ins and the brakes, tune-up and oil change, I want to go NORTH !!!!! I was google mapping Canada, how many hours it would take for me to get to a certain Forest.... there's like I'm think more like Michigan/ Canadian Border area..... just to get away be alone before I drive back !!!! I want this trip to be cooler with less people !!!! and to make sure I have gas $$ to get back !!!! I can deal with the gas when I get back... you know what ??? I'm thinking of working just PT Cash for either Maple Pub or Brauer House in Lombard, IL I'm going to see my contact when he comes back on tour !!! He's Awesome !!! I love him !!! Eric Starkill look him up !!!!!! ok, got to get going....
Soo, that's what's been going on here !!!! just Laser Beam Focusing and Fine Tuning !!!! on Knowing What I Don't Want !!!!!! Yeah, I'm going to have to Not Answer My Phone and Not Check My Email...... and just go to Canada for a couple weeks !!!! I haven't found out whether or not I was accepted or not for the VRAP Veterans Retraining Assistance Program, I know I should be finding out very soon !!! but, I know not to hound the manager !!!!!
ok, got to go now.........
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Here We Go !!!!! What An Amazing Week !!!! & Sept 1st is Right Around the Corner !!!!!
Wow !!! I'm still in grateful appreciation and gratitude for the Ancient Wisdom I had crossed paths with !!! Wow !!! it's in relation of what was presented in the episodes of "Ancient Aliens" all the series and all of the episodes.... I couldn't believe what my mind was seeing !!! All these years !!! Wow !!!! Now Is The Time !!!!! This past year, I've been feeling and sensing that something is going on !!!! Something Very Very Big Is About to Happen !!!!! I think it might be in relation to the Annunaki (the Ancient Aliens) and the absolute truth on how our Human Species Happened !!!! this was a Big One !!! Wow !!!!! Well, I'm only giving you my reaction to what I have seen and the documentation that was brought forth..... well, I did have that episode on my Divinitus Warrious Universalis Blog, Ancient Aliens and the Creation Theory something like that !!! it turned my whole Paradigm about what I thought happened and how could it happened... Well, all I ask you is to have an Open Mind and to Watch and See for yourself the documentation provided on the Ancient Aliens Program . What I'm talking about how the Annunaki the Ancient Aliens used gene manipulation and cross bred with Neanderthal and Alien (Grey) or other Higher Evolved Humanoid which created the 1st test tube baby Adam. Yes, I know it's very very shocking and controversial !!!! I was in disbelief myself, until I watched all the episodes of that program which really had me thinking and grasp on how could this happen..... Soo, this is quite Amazing actually !!!!
They even said, "Ancient Alien" Program that the aliens did some trail and error and some experiementation, don't we do the same thing now !!!!! with rats and animals ?????? we cloned a sheep back in the early 90's !!! We Do The Same Exact Thing !!!!! Hey, I'm not here to Preach to Teach, I teach by example and I'm just giving you my True Self Honest Opinion about all of this... All of this !!! Seems like there is Soooooo Much that we don't really know..... it seems like the "other" 3rd & 2nd World Countries Truly knows what's had happened and what is now happening !!!! for example in Ecuador their Government has Absolute Transparency when it comes to UFO Sightings from Government Officials and Pilots, and Military Personnel !!!! I shared it on my blog !!! the South American UFO Disclosures Are Happening !!! something like that !!!! That was an amazing video clip !!! Haaa, Wow !!! I was in complete Amazement at the quality and the Wondrous maneuvers that the Alien UFO can do !!! Haaa, not only that but, the HUNDREDS !!!!!!! MASS Sightings !!!! Over Sacramento !!!! I used to live in Sactown !!!! and then Roseville, CA where me and 2 others saw a UFO !!!! it was in a undeveloped area in Roseville, CA in 1990 where our intention was to see UFO's, in HS and early 90's I was Very Very much into UFO's and Aliens..... but, lost interest when I wanted to make $$ or Get Rich !!! haaa, it was during the time of the Tom Vu Seminars !!!! and the 1st Tony Robbins Infomercials !!!!! 89-90's !!!! oh yeah !!! then the Robert Allen No Money Down Seminar !!!! I actually went to that training and that's when I met Joshua Day who was working with Bill Gouldd's Marketing Company AMS Advanced Marketing Seminar with a Water Filter Company haaa with NSA !!!! National Safety Associates !!! Wow !!! those were the days !!! then later Bill Gouldd created Equinox International and eventually was cancelled or no longer in business. Ok, I don't know why I'm saying all of this misc. right here right now !!!! I'm just typing in the flow, whatever comes I type !!!
Wow !!! it's Aug 29, 2012 Wed, and the Shelter Site tonight is only going to hold 35 people, and that is the only site that's going to open tonight, so alot of people are going to be without a Pad tonight... I'm thinking about going, just to experience it, there will be a lottory system... to all that gets in...... Well, the game plan if I don't get in, is to go to Target use up my gift card to get some Starbucks and go to COD (College) to do some reading and writing !!! and planning out !!! Well, I did have a thought on another Road Trip !!! NORTH !!!! to Canada !!!! Another Attempt !!! Ha !!! We'll See, I don't know though, I'm playing the waiting game with the VA VRAP program to see whether or not I will be accepted... I'm definitely not going to Hound the Manager !!!! aka Universe !!!! the Boss of All Bosses !!! ok, it's about that time now for me find out, I have about 1 out of 55 chance that I'll get in for a Pad, I just want to experience a lottery system like this, where the odds are not in my favor, with all the families going in for the Shelter Site, there will be only about 15 Pads Left !!! with about 60 people needing or wanting a Pad for the night... so, I'm going to get going now..... that's the deal, if so great, if not great, I'll be at the college writing my book, reading ACIM and Sipping on some Starbucks Coffee !!!!! until about 2am then crash out right next door !!! Llove my life !!! Thank You !!! ok, got to get Cracka lackin !!!!! Peace and Forever Much Love !!!!! DWU
They even said, "Ancient Alien" Program that the aliens did some trail and error and some experiementation, don't we do the same thing now !!!!! with rats and animals ?????? we cloned a sheep back in the early 90's !!! We Do The Same Exact Thing !!!!! Hey, I'm not here to Preach to Teach, I teach by example and I'm just giving you my True Self Honest Opinion about all of this... All of this !!! Seems like there is Soooooo Much that we don't really know..... it seems like the "other" 3rd & 2nd World Countries Truly knows what's had happened and what is now happening !!!! for example in Ecuador their Government has Absolute Transparency when it comes to UFO Sightings from Government Officials and Pilots, and Military Personnel !!!! I shared it on my blog !!! the South American UFO Disclosures Are Happening !!! something like that !!!! That was an amazing video clip !!! Haaa, Wow !!! I was in complete Amazement at the quality and the Wondrous maneuvers that the Alien UFO can do !!! Haaa, not only that but, the HUNDREDS !!!!!!! MASS Sightings !!!! Over Sacramento !!!! I used to live in Sactown !!!! and then Roseville, CA where me and 2 others saw a UFO !!!! it was in a undeveloped area in Roseville, CA in 1990 where our intention was to see UFO's, in HS and early 90's I was Very Very much into UFO's and Aliens..... but, lost interest when I wanted to make $$ or Get Rich !!! haaa, it was during the time of the Tom Vu Seminars !!!! and the 1st Tony Robbins Infomercials !!!!! 89-90's !!!! oh yeah !!! then the Robert Allen No Money Down Seminar !!!! I actually went to that training and that's when I met Joshua Day who was working with Bill Gouldd's Marketing Company AMS Advanced Marketing Seminar with a Water Filter Company haaa with NSA !!!! National Safety Associates !!! Wow !!! those were the days !!! then later Bill Gouldd created Equinox International and eventually was cancelled or no longer in business. Ok, I don't know why I'm saying all of this misc. right here right now !!!! I'm just typing in the flow, whatever comes I type !!!
Wow !!! it's Aug 29, 2012 Wed, and the Shelter Site tonight is only going to hold 35 people, and that is the only site that's going to open tonight, so alot of people are going to be without a Pad tonight... I'm thinking about going, just to experience it, there will be a lottory system... to all that gets in...... Well, the game plan if I don't get in, is to go to Target use up my gift card to get some Starbucks and go to COD (College) to do some reading and writing !!! and planning out !!! Well, I did have a thought on another Road Trip !!! NORTH !!!! to Canada !!!! Another Attempt !!! Ha !!! We'll See, I don't know though, I'm playing the waiting game with the VA VRAP program to see whether or not I will be accepted... I'm definitely not going to Hound the Manager !!!! aka Universe !!!! the Boss of All Bosses !!! ok, it's about that time now for me find out, I have about 1 out of 55 chance that I'll get in for a Pad, I just want to experience a lottery system like this, where the odds are not in my favor, with all the families going in for the Shelter Site, there will be only about 15 Pads Left !!! with about 60 people needing or wanting a Pad for the night... so, I'm going to get going now..... that's the deal, if so great, if not great, I'll be at the college writing my book, reading ACIM and Sipping on some Starbucks Coffee !!!!! until about 2am then crash out right next door !!! Llove my life !!! Thank You !!! ok, got to get Cracka lackin !!!!! Peace and Forever Much Love !!!!! DWU
2012 UFO news coverage MASS SIGHTINGS WORLDWIDE what is going on!
This is Absolutely By Far the Most Amazing and Out-of-this-Universe Footage I've Ever Seen !!!! Wow !!! Whoa !!!!! I'm still in Intense Appreciation and Gratitude for these Amazing Creations !!!! If you're curious and intrigued about the UFO phenomena, I Highly Recommend you Watching ALL of the "Ancient Aliens" Series and Episodes !!!! it was from those episodes that really made me Wonder and Seek Out More Info and Knowledge !!!!! and thus found these incredible video clips !!!! Much Love To EVERYONE !!!!! Something Very Very Very Humongous is About to Happen !!!!!!
Friday, August 24, 2012
Just Keeps Getting Better & Better & Better !!!!!!!
8/24/12 Fri COD, 2:14pm , Glen Ellyn, IL
I’m writing this in Microsoft Word 1st
while I’m downloading the YouTube Vid’s, for some reason I can’t write in my
Blog at the same time I’m downloading vid’s on YouTube, I have 2 different
accounts with multiple logins so, I’m just going with the flow it and just write
here first and then when I’m done downloading the vid’s on YouTube, I’ll just
copy and paste it unto the Blog and Bam Publish It !!!!! Wow !!!
What an Incredible Day I’ve Been Having !!!! I love my life !!!! Adventure to the Absolute Fullest !!!! I absolutely making those videos for you
and I !!!! I love it !!! It definitely makes me laugh !!! and I know that I’m a natural !!!!! because I love Nature !!!! to the Absolute Fullest !!!!! Maybe I can have my Own Show On Nat Geo
!!!! maybe down the line !!! Who Knows they can see how much I love Nature
!!!!! and the Universe !!!!!
I called up mom !!! we chatted for a lil bit, she’s doing good
which I knew she is !!!! and I could
sense that we both were thinking about each other !!! it’s all good !!!! I told just a few things about my travels
and with the VA !!!!! So the Ministry
of Hope in Downers Grove, IL was a No Go with the Gas Vouchers, it had to be On
the actual day or after !!! 8/26/12 was
the day which is a Sunday !!! and
they’re close on Sun, Sooooo I can get them on Monday !!! it’s all good
!!! I’ve been in this situation Many,
Many, Many Times !!!! NO GAS & NO
$$$ !!!! and I’m about to hit the E mark
and I want to see my nephews games this weekend !!! Fan = Baseball and Kooks = Football,
sooooooo I’m going to Plato’s Naperville to sell my Sweet Ass Hat !!! and a Shirt aaaand there is a 2nd
Time Weight Equipment shops where I can sell the bars that I have… used for a
weight machine…… I just want about $20 where I can be able to GET There and
Back !!!! and on Mon get the Gas
Vouchers !!!! Whewww… it’s 2:30pm now,
I’m downloading some Amazing Video’s even as I write here !!! So, there, after
that !!! I’m going to go to my brothers
in the morning to see Fan’s game and then most likely hang out the weekend
!!! and see Kooks game on Sun = and
most likely go home either Sun night or Mon Morn ??? We’ll See ??? All is Good !!!! So, there !!!
Life on the Absolute Edge !!!!!!!
Sooo, right after the vids’ are downloaded and copy and paste my words here unto my blog
!!! I’m going to get goin, Plato’s
Closet or the 2nd Wind Equipment and there’s another weights fitness
shop there that I can hawk my wares !!!!!
for Gas to See My Nephs Games Tomorrow and on Sun !!!! it’s On Baby !!!! I love my life !!!! Wooop-Wooop !!!!
C’mon Sept !!!!! At the Same Time !!!!! I’m Soooo Loving the
Now !!! Tonight will be the last night at the Naperville Pads Site, they are
going to be going ALL OUT !!!! I
remember last year, they had large Steaks, with their own band playing for us
!!! It was Absolutely Amazing !!!! and Beautiful and a Beyond Feast !!!!!!! this will be the last night until next year
!!!! I always love being at that site
!!!! I Absolutely Do !!!! Beautiful People and Spirit there !!!! and they goooo All Out !!!! and they have
Very Friendly and quite a bit of Volunteers !!!!! and I definitely want to get there a bit
early just to cherish every moment there !!!!
Wow !!! You wouldn’t expect anyone to say something like that ???? Right ???
it’s a Homeless Shelter Site !!!!!!
ok, the 2nd to the last vid is almost done, so, just an FYI,
Ok, it’s about that time !!! Wow !!! I
was just watching my own videos !!!! I
Absolutely Love Them !!!!!!! and I know You will too !!!!! I
have labeled them yet, another time when I have a lil bit more time, as for now
now !!! I’m about to copy and paste
these words unto my blog and then click on publish and be out !!! to get some Gas $$ !!!! Much Love to You and Every Living Cell, molecule
and creature from the Earth and Beyond !!!!!
Thank You !!! Divinitus
Thursday, August 23, 2012
We All Need To Fully and Totally Unplug !!!!! Someway - Somehow !!!
I knew that when I took out my "car radio" out of the car and thew it out, I knew I was serious about what I put into my Mind !!!! Prior I usually listen to the Classical Station and the Hip Hop/ Dance/Top 40 tunes and there was more than a few times where I was ambushed with commercials, news, updates, etc.... that doesn't serve me !!!! and i said you know what ??? it's not worth it !!!! I'm the Boss, the King, the Master of my Body and Brain and I Choose What I Hear, See, and Listen too !!!! I wanted a Total Mental Detox !!!! a Total Mind, Body, Spirit Detox - Transformation - and Metamorphosis !!!!! and I'm Doing It Extreme Style !!!! GO ALL OUT !!!!! and since then it's been about at least 3 weeks now since I purposely threw out my car radio !!!! I have a portable CD Player and I CHOOSE What Goes Into My Ears, Mind and Brain !!!! I'm the Boss Now !!! Sooo Far, it's Awesome !!! I learned that I get to Appreciate Music when you do hear it !!! from another car beside you, you can listen to the birds sing !!!! the motor running, I can usually feel my baby (car) when she's running smooth !!!!
I definitely wanted to document this experience I had experienced today !!!! Wow !!! I was sooo grateful to have witnessed this !!!! About 2 weeks ago I remembered her, there was an older lady, I'm guessing either late 70's -80's which was her 1st time being homeless and in a homeless type shelter, she definitely is not the Norm Homeless Clientele and I could tell that she was out of her elements, she didn't know what to do, where to go, how to get there, transportation either, she basically had the back of her cloths and a few bags and that was it !!! sort of like the majority of the Homeless Pads Clientele !!!! the fortunate ones have Vehicles to Transport their Misc. Around but, even me, now, coming back from Wright City, MO and my experience with "Steve" met at the Rest Stop !!!! who was schooling me on The Art of Living Out of Your Car !!! the main points is
I definitely wanted to document this experience I had experienced today !!!! Wow !!! I was sooo grateful to have witnessed this !!!! About 2 weeks ago I remembered her, there was an older lady, I'm guessing either late 70's -80's which was her 1st time being homeless and in a homeless type shelter, she definitely is not the Norm Homeless Clientele and I could tell that she was out of her elements, she didn't know what to do, where to go, how to get there, transportation either, she basically had the back of her cloths and a few bags and that was it !!! sort of like the majority of the Homeless Pads Clientele !!!! the fortunate ones have Vehicles to Transport their Misc. Around but, even me, now, coming back from Wright City, MO and my experience with "Steve" met at the Rest Stop !!!! who was schooling me on The Art of Living Out of Your Car !!! the main points is
- to "Appear" Not To Be Living Out of Your Car !!!!
- Have only the bare necessities and the bare minimum !!
- Steve uses a sweater as a pillow, he rolls it up.
- Make Sure his car is clean and shiny inside and out !!! Bottom Line is to look like You're Not Living Out of your car !!!
- have only what you truly need
Ok, didn't mean to get sidetracked like that !!! Yikes !!! Hey, it's all good !!! Everything is Good !!!! this is also my MP's (Morning Pages) so basically I'm just Free Flowing Divine Writing !!! just write !!! the older lady was named Barbara and today we sat next to each other at lunch time.... it was an Amazing Delicious Lunch !!!! Well, let's just say that she knows that her experience there has a reason and purpose in the future, there must be some purpose for me staying here for 2 weeks !!! just prior to lunch, I seen her with a Social Worker from some Dept. and she told me that in less than 24 hrs I'll have my own place !!!! So, this is my last day & night here !!!! She was sooooo Happy and Relieved !!!! She had a wonderful attitude during her stay !!! We both agreed that being in that type of environment with the people there trumps any type of Reality Show !!!! We've Seen It All at the Homeless Shelter !!!! No Joke Baby !!! You Seen the World 100% times over !!!! it's Life on Steroids !!!! you'll hear, see, smell, things that you never thought existed nor imagined and you'll Laugh till your sides hurt !!! at the kind of shit you see and witness !!!!!!! Oh yeahhhh !!!! Life on the Absolute Edge !!!! Extreme Style !!! Well, I just wanted to document Barbara's experience here, very beautiful lady and I'm sooo glad that we both witnessed something Absolutely Amazing !!! her life will never be the same !!!! she's hooked up for the remainder of her life !!! and I'm sooo glad I got to witness that from another person !!! I was sooo happy for her !!! It was a Very Beautiful Moment !!! Also, to my surprise, I ran into Rob with the Veterans Assistance Commission and I explained what happened, (I was the DuPage PADS HQ in Wheaton, IL) that I quit my job as a bouncer / doorman because it was not helping me with my sobriety and my wanting to change my environment. Then we talked about What Do You Need Help With ???? Rent, Food, Gas, then I said, Insurance ??? he said, Yeah !!! and then I said, Teeth ??? he said, Yeah !!! Soo, basically we're going to set up a time and date for me to come in and get all the paperwork and costs !!! Haaa !!! Wow !!! Right !!!! Well, technically I don't have Insurance (technically) but, the Ins Co. gave me a pre-paid Ins Card stating that from 6/2012 through 12/2012 .... So, I got the card stating that I have insurance but, I know that I don't have insurance because I didn't pay it !!! That would help out a lot !!! the Insurance, and then I told him about the VRAP with the VA, he told me straight up that they have been having problems getting paid, on a timely manner... w/ me !!! Honestly the $$ is not the main thing, the majority of the $$ will be going towards my student loan, I just to pursue a Personal Training Career !!! To help people transform their lives !!!!
So, that's about it as of now !!!!! Ohhhh Yeahhhh !!! Sept is Coming !!!! Sept is Coming !!!!!! Sept is going to be where the Rubber Will Meet the Road !!!!! on the Actual Metamorphosis !!!!
Wow !!! I Sooo Cannot Wait !!! ok, well, Actually, Aug 31st, 2012 Fri, I usually get a deposit from the gov on the 1st but, if the 1st lands on a Sat or Sun, it deposits that Friday !!!! Soo, I forsee a deposit on Fri !!! So, My Schedule will be changed Drastically !!!! ok, this is what I forsee my schedule being: I will no longer be sleeping at the sites anymore: Since I truly don't really need a place to sleep, to spend 12 + hrs to sleep 7-8 hrs (reason being, it takes a while to Get Picked, If Picked they sign you in, about 3 hrs total Admin paperwork, waiting with meals, for misc...... and I know I'm going to be Absolute Honest Here I Have Been Eating Whatever they had available !!!! which was good and what the masses might consider not so good, !!! Hey, for me it's All Good !!! Anyways, I want to use that extra time working on me !!!!
Going to Group Exercises at Xsport and working out at Jakked !!! Yes, I'll be finally working out there !!! boy I'm Sooo Looking forward to that !!! That place is Such a Super Hardcore Real Warrior Body Builder Gym !!!!! Boooy I'm Sooo Looking Forward to that !!! Here's the Website !!! Jakked Gym and the Xsports in Downers Grove and Naperville and the Dahn Yoga in Westmont, IL These are the places which I'll be at !!! 24/7 !!!!!! The Time is NOW !!!! I Have Everything I Need !!!!! Food, place to crash and that's it !!! the Rest will be at the gyms !!!! it's Sooo On !!!!
My Schedule will be: I"ll post it up in my comments, I'm actually Scheduling Everything Right Now !!!!
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
I Love My Incredible, Amazing, Supernatural, Magical, Miraculous Life !!!!!!
It seems that it just gets better and better !!! Everyday !!!! Well, yesterday after I got my Gas Vouchers !!! I had grabbed some flyers and info sheets at the Veterans Assistance Commision (where I got the gas vouchers) it wasn't until later that I actually read them and the 2 page flyer that caught my eye was a News Release !!!! about a New Education Benefit for Unemployed Veterans must be between the ages of 35-60 !!!! Haaa !!! Say Whaaaa ??? Haaaaa !!!! just keeps on Getting Even Better Every Moment !!!! Wow !!! So, after I was reorganizing my ride, I gave a lot to my nephew Luke, who is only 13 w/ a shoe size of mens 12 !!! same size as me, so I had about 3-4 pairs of basketball shoes, 2 pairs of which were brand spanking new and they were Badass !!!! with all my "cool" t-shirts, boxers, jeans, shirts for my brother.... Quite a bit of clothes I dropped off at my brothers, after I got the gas !!! since I had some gas I can release what I no longer truly need and just use what I have already !!! I got to see my other nephew "Fan" He's Absolutely Amazing !!!! he met me at his house for me to drop it off.... so we saw each other for a lil bit....
I think it was after I dropped off the misc. and went to the Self Car Wash to org up the car again !!! this time I actually read what the News Release had said, I was Like YESSSS !!!!!!!!!! Beyond PERFECT DIVINE TIMING !!!!! I was truly giving thought on going back to work as a bouncer at the Lodge or Maple Pub for cash only.... if Lodge wouldn't pay cash I wanted to go somewhere that did.... but, I was thinking, you know what ??? it wouldn't be worth it !!! It's not worth being in the environement.... I'm trying to change over here !!! not continue where I left off !!! ya know ?? So, bottom line after I really read the 2 page News Release flyer, I went to National Personal Training Institute which is right here in Lisle, IL !!! and got some info and talked with Marcia Davis, which was the Finance Director there.... I felt good about it, kind of small and no bells or whistles.... at the same time, I want to see what else is out there... since I have the opportunity to take advantange of this opportunity.... so here I am, about to find out other trainings and schools in the area, I'm thinking Personal Trainer, Massage Theapist, Meditation Instructor something along those lines..... I don't know about becoming a Yoga Instructor just yet, I think it would be too much of a jump.... a Personal Trainer I believe would be best !!!!! That's about it !!! today is Wed !!!! the 22nd !!! Wow !!! just imagine if I was still at the Wright City, MO Rest Stop !!!! I would be going Stir Crazy !!!! So that's it for now !!!! Have An Amazing Day !!!! Forever Much Love !!! Divinitus / Oz
I think it was after I dropped off the misc. and went to the Self Car Wash to org up the car again !!! this time I actually read what the News Release had said, I was Like YESSSS !!!!!!!!!! Beyond PERFECT DIVINE TIMING !!!!! I was truly giving thought on going back to work as a bouncer at the Lodge or Maple Pub for cash only.... if Lodge wouldn't pay cash I wanted to go somewhere that did.... but, I was thinking, you know what ??? it wouldn't be worth it !!! It's not worth being in the environement.... I'm trying to change over here !!! not continue where I left off !!! ya know ?? So, bottom line after I really read the 2 page News Release flyer, I went to National Personal Training Institute which is right here in Lisle, IL !!! and got some info and talked with Marcia Davis, which was the Finance Director there.... I felt good about it, kind of small and no bells or whistles.... at the same time, I want to see what else is out there... since I have the opportunity to take advantange of this opportunity.... so here I am, about to find out other trainings and schools in the area, I'm thinking Personal Trainer, Massage Theapist, Meditation Instructor something along those lines..... I don't know about becoming a Yoga Instructor just yet, I think it would be too much of a jump.... a Personal Trainer I believe would be best !!!!! That's about it !!! today is Wed !!!! the 22nd !!! Wow !!! just imagine if I was still at the Wright City, MO Rest Stop !!!! I would be going Stir Crazy !!!! So that's it for now !!!! Have An Amazing Day !!!! Forever Much Love !!! Divinitus / Oz
Monday, August 20, 2012
Created a New FB Profile Page !!!!! for my Post-Metamorphosis !!!
While I'm loading up some pics unto my new Facebook Page !!!! I had decided just to Disable the old profile, let it die off through time !!! and I know the ones who are going to look for me will find me.... but, only for the ones who look, seek, yeah, you could easily find me if you type my old name of Oscar Zepeda, I left some clues like the FB Badge of my New FB Page !!! I also created a new email !!! oh yeah, homey don't play around baby !!! All Out or Nada !!!!! EXTREME Style !!!!! So, this will be the only way to find what's happening !!!! There's a few reasons why I have decided to just create the whole thang brand spanking new for my new life, my new being, my post metamorphosis as being Divinitus Warrious Universalis = Divine Warrior of the Universalis...... I have been all forms of media Free !!!! for a while now, even cell free !!!! this coming week, will be the last of the Sedatary Metamorphosis Stage !!! I haven't done any type of cardio nor using any type of weights or working out whatsoever !!!! Haaa !!! oh yeah !!! Thus why I'm where I'm at !!!! you know what ??? it's Ok ??? and it's Alright !!!
you know what !!! I think I'll just not just Deactivate My Old Self Oscar Zepeda Facebook Page but, honestly I don't miss it at freaking all !!!! I think I'll just POOF !!!!! Disappear w/o a trace !!! Done !!! Pooof !!!! yeah,,,,
I'm releasing EVERYTHING that no longer serves me !!!! I choose what I want to see, read and hear... I will not be Ambushed by anything that is not of for my highest good !!!!! I know what you know what I'm refering too !!! Too much wasted energy on FB !! ok, that was it, I was about to list a whole barrage of examples !!! hey, it's all good !!! I have the control now !!!! you know I think I'll do that right now !!! to delete my old self profile !!! I did have some practice not loging in since it's deactivated !!!! I want to dissapear for a while !!!! and I want to choose who I'm friends with !!! who are on the same Spiritual Path of growth, evolving, learning, being One with the Infinite Divine Universe who are of the Same Wave Length !!!! I'm done trying to filter my words to the ones who are not there yet.... or to have to explain which I already know that they will not understand at all !!!! ya know ??? I think it's better to release the past the Whole Past and to Seek Out Yourself to Choose Your Friends or your Family !!!! Family doesn't mean blood related... to me we choose our family !!!!! I just know that we all going through some type of Life Transformation and Metamorphosis !!!! I KNOW !!!!! and that's why I'm writing and documenting my Own Metamorphosis !!! I watched my 1st video recording of myself marking the beginning of my metamorphosis !!! 10/18/10 !!!!!!!! look and watch it... it's my 1st YouTube clip.. well, it was uploaded about a yr later, but the date of recording was in 2010 !!! it'll be almost 2 Years !!!!! that I've been trying and attempting to Change !!!!! 2 Whole Years !!! Wow !!!!! and I know that Environment and Immediately Close Environment can make or break you !!! I'm deciding to choose who and what I see, hear, and to hang and be around....// the next coming month !!! I'm sooo looking forward Too !!!! I'm finally going to get active and get some major cardio on and to start gradually !!!! I'm here for the long run !!!! oh, yeah, I got some ideas for my "ID's Own" I mentioned on my last post, sort of like the "President's Own" but, for Infinite Divine Universe aka God !!! the Infinite Master Creator !!!! to have group of us, who releases Everything that no longer serves them Extreme Style !!! kind of like what I did !!!! Release It All !!! Work, Family, Friends, Whatever that no longer serves them !!!! and to become what they truly want to become and what the Universe truly Needs for them to become !!!!!
The Time is Now !!! To Live Our OWN Lives !!!! Not what society, friends or family advises us to do or to live or wants them you to do, where to live, Everything !!! We need to live Our Own Lives !!!! because We Know Whats Best !!!! for us !!! I know whats best for me and me only !!!! I'll be turning 40 this year !!! and you know what ?? I'm getting a jump start on Creating My Life On How I Am Going to Live It !!!! I'm Going to Live My Life FOR ME !!!!!! NO ONE ELSE !!!! Haaaa !~!! bout fuckin time right !!! hey, I'm going to do what I want to do and What Makes Me Happy !!!!! You know what I've Noticed ??? Why is it that I'm Sooooo Happy and Joyous and yet I have a Penny to my name ???? How and Why Is That ???? it's Illogical Right ??? (Ill-logical) yeah, when I purposely spent all the money I had on gas and just drove until I ran out of gas !!!!! with 10000% Knowing !!!! that I'll be Perfectly Fine !!!! and Well Cared For !!! How !!!??? because I'm Intertwind and One with the Infinite Master Creator aka GOD !!!!!! and I had the Adventure and Journey of a Lifetime !!!!!! It was the Most Amazing and Incredible Time Ever in my Life !!!! and Miracles Happened !!!! I know we're coming into a new era of beings who are dropping everything to live Our Own Lives for a change !!!! ok, gotsa rock n roll outa here !!! Much love !!! Divinitus
you know what !!! I think I'll just not just Deactivate My Old Self Oscar Zepeda Facebook Page but, honestly I don't miss it at freaking all !!!! I think I'll just POOF !!!!! Disappear w/o a trace !!! Done !!! Pooof !!!! yeah,,,,
I'm releasing EVERYTHING that no longer serves me !!!! I choose what I want to see, read and hear... I will not be Ambushed by anything that is not of for my highest good !!!!! I know what you know what I'm refering too !!! Too much wasted energy on FB !! ok, that was it, I was about to list a whole barrage of examples !!! hey, it's all good !!! I have the control now !!!! you know I think I'll do that right now !!! to delete my old self profile !!! I did have some practice not loging in since it's deactivated !!!! I want to dissapear for a while !!!! and I want to choose who I'm friends with !!! who are on the same Spiritual Path of growth, evolving, learning, being One with the Infinite Divine Universe who are of the Same Wave Length !!!! I'm done trying to filter my words to the ones who are not there yet.... or to have to explain which I already know that they will not understand at all !!!! ya know ??? I think it's better to release the past the Whole Past and to Seek Out Yourself to Choose Your Friends or your Family !!!! Family doesn't mean blood related... to me we choose our family !!!!! I just know that we all going through some type of Life Transformation and Metamorphosis !!!! I KNOW !!!!! and that's why I'm writing and documenting my Own Metamorphosis !!! I watched my 1st video recording of myself marking the beginning of my metamorphosis !!! 10/18/10 !!!!!!!! look and watch it... it's my 1st YouTube clip.. well, it was uploaded about a yr later, but the date of recording was in 2010 !!! it'll be almost 2 Years !!!!! that I've been trying and attempting to Change !!!!! 2 Whole Years !!! Wow !!!!! and I know that Environment and Immediately Close Environment can make or break you !!! I'm deciding to choose who and what I see, hear, and to hang and be around....// the next coming month !!! I'm sooo looking forward Too !!!! I'm finally going to get active and get some major cardio on and to start gradually !!!! I'm here for the long run !!!! oh, yeah, I got some ideas for my "ID's Own" I mentioned on my last post, sort of like the "President's Own" but, for Infinite Divine Universe aka God !!! the Infinite Master Creator !!!! to have group of us, who releases Everything that no longer serves them Extreme Style !!! kind of like what I did !!!! Release It All !!! Work, Family, Friends, Whatever that no longer serves them !!!! and to become what they truly want to become and what the Universe truly Needs for them to become !!!!!
The Time is Now !!! To Live Our OWN Lives !!!! Not what society, friends or family advises us to do or to live or wants them you to do, where to live, Everything !!! We need to live Our Own Lives !!!! because We Know Whats Best !!!! for us !!! I know whats best for me and me only !!!! I'll be turning 40 this year !!! and you know what ?? I'm getting a jump start on Creating My Life On How I Am Going to Live It !!!! I'm Going to Live My Life FOR ME !!!!!! NO ONE ELSE !!!! Haaaa !~!! bout fuckin time right !!! hey, I'm going to do what I want to do and What Makes Me Happy !!!!! You know what I've Noticed ??? Why is it that I'm Sooooo Happy and Joyous and yet I have a Penny to my name ???? How and Why Is That ???? it's Illogical Right ??? (Ill-logical) yeah, when I purposely spent all the money I had on gas and just drove until I ran out of gas !!!!! with 10000% Knowing !!!! that I'll be Perfectly Fine !!!! and Well Cared For !!! How !!!??? because I'm Intertwind and One with the Infinite Master Creator aka GOD !!!!!! and I had the Adventure and Journey of a Lifetime !!!!!! It was the Most Amazing and Incredible Time Ever in my Life !!!! and Miracles Happened !!!! I know we're coming into a new era of beings who are dropping everything to live Our Own Lives for a change !!!! ok, gotsa rock n roll outa here !!! Much love !!! Divinitus
Sunday, August 19, 2012
1 to 2 foot Catipillars Inside the Cocoon !!!!!! Hanging Down !!!
I had a dream that I was in a forest and I seen 1 to 2 foot long Metamorphosis Sacks what the catipillar is inside, totally enclosed and it was metamorphosizing !!!! Wow !!!! I just now remembered that !!!! I saw the pic I had posted on my blog and it triggered a rememberance !!! I seen about 10 of them !!!! All in different stages !!!! It was freaky looking sort of like the movie "Alien" or another same type of movie, with clear, webbed, stringy silk, with gooey plasma, some I could make out the wings !!!! Wow !!! some were moving a lil bit !!!! some were just in deep transformation meditation !!! I couldn't believe it !!! these were BIG !!!! like 1 to 2 feet long and about a 6-8 inches wide just fully wrapped with it's cocoon !!!!! I'm sooo glad I remembered that !!!! Thank You !!!! I know I'm on the right track !!! Dooinng Awesome !!!! Everything is coming to me !!! the instructions, directions, the next step, living in the Absolute Moment !!!
I got some New, Powerful and Funny Video Clips !!!!!!! I was sooo bustin out laughing when I replayed them !!! you know my channel ??? right ?? well, just in case, here it is: Oscar Zepeda Channel I know you'll be laughing yo ass off !!!!!! I'm just laughing just Thinkin About it! !!!!
I'm good !!! I'm happy, I know I'm at the right the place at the right time !!!! Thank You !!!! I know I'm inside the cocoon !!!! wow !!! that was an Awesome Dream, just had Sun Afternoon Power Nap !!! gotta love those !!!! I did went to chuch today, about a 2 or so years ago, 2 young guys came up to me while I was eating some Super Delicious Food from Whole Foods in Wheaton, I was ouside on a small patch of grass just loving and living life, just Appreciating Everything, and these two young men, like mid 20's, came up, we started chatting, they asked me if I knew God !!!??? I just about yelled out with Excitment !!!! Hell YEAH !!!!!! I know God !!! We're Like This !!!!! showed them my two front fingers overlapping tightly !!! God supercedes all Religions !!!!!! I'm Into God the Infinite Master Creator !!!!! that is all !!! they told me about their super cool church in Wheaton, IL called Antioch Community Church, pastor was young, more fore College Age and "Young Professionals" and families too !!!! I remember both of them were named John & Johnathan, 1 black and 1 white !!! and they asked me if I wanted to be prayed for !!! I Said, "Of Course !!!!" so we prayed and they were placing hands on me, right outside, on the edge on the parking lot of the Whole Foods parking lot, the far end where the small patch of grass is....
Black John had some Inspired Divine Prophecy, and that was in a "Metamorphosis" !!!!!! (2 + yrs ago !!!) that the cocoon was still inside the cocoon !!!!! about to burst out !!!! and that once I did get out !!!! The world will never be the same !!!! " Wow !!! he actually told me this before all of my "Metamorphosis" transformation process and attempts were happening !!!!!
So, today, since I'm almost on E with the Gas, and I've been meaning to go for a while !!! I went !!! It was Amazing !!! for some reason I just love seeing Gods Creations Praising and Worshiping the Infinite God Almighty !!!! I absolutely loved it !!! I didn't recognize any of the Johns/ but it didn't really matter... what mattered was that I was there !!! and I remember what "John" told me with his Prophetic Divine Words to me !!!! "that the Whole World will change !!!" once I get out of the cocoon !!! Wow !!! looking back at this prospective after 2 + years !!!! Absolutely Mind Blowing !!!! got to go now !!!! Much Love !!! Oz / DWU
I got some New, Powerful and Funny Video Clips !!!!!!! I was sooo bustin out laughing when I replayed them !!! you know my channel ??? right ?? well, just in case, here it is: Oscar Zepeda Channel I know you'll be laughing yo ass off !!!!!! I'm just laughing just Thinkin About it! !!!!
I'm good !!! I'm happy, I know I'm at the right the place at the right time !!!! Thank You !!!! I know I'm inside the cocoon !!!! wow !!! that was an Awesome Dream, just had Sun Afternoon Power Nap !!! gotta love those !!!! I did went to chuch today, about a 2 or so years ago, 2 young guys came up to me while I was eating some Super Delicious Food from Whole Foods in Wheaton, I was ouside on a small patch of grass just loving and living life, just Appreciating Everything, and these two young men, like mid 20's, came up, we started chatting, they asked me if I knew God !!!??? I just about yelled out with Excitment !!!! Hell YEAH !!!!!! I know God !!! We're Like This !!!!! showed them my two front fingers overlapping tightly !!! God supercedes all Religions !!!!!! I'm Into God the Infinite Master Creator !!!!! that is all !!! they told me about their super cool church in Wheaton, IL called Antioch Community Church, pastor was young, more fore College Age and "Young Professionals" and families too !!!! I remember both of them were named John & Johnathan, 1 black and 1 white !!! and they asked me if I wanted to be prayed for !!! I Said, "Of Course !!!!" so we prayed and they were placing hands on me, right outside, on the edge on the parking lot of the Whole Foods parking lot, the far end where the small patch of grass is....
Black John had some Inspired Divine Prophecy, and that was in a "Metamorphosis" !!!!!! (2 + yrs ago !!!) that the cocoon was still inside the cocoon !!!!! about to burst out !!!! and that once I did get out !!!! The world will never be the same !!!! " Wow !!! he actually told me this before all of my "Metamorphosis" transformation process and attempts were happening !!!!!
So, today, since I'm almost on E with the Gas, and I've been meaning to go for a while !!! I went !!! It was Amazing !!! for some reason I just love seeing Gods Creations Praising and Worshiping the Infinite God Almighty !!!! I absolutely loved it !!! I didn't recognize any of the Johns/ but it didn't really matter... what mattered was that I was there !!! and I remember what "John" told me with his Prophetic Divine Words to me !!!! "that the Whole World will change !!!" once I get out of the cocoon !!! Wow !!! looking back at this prospective after 2 + years !!!! Absolutely Mind Blowing !!!! got to go now !!!! Much Love !!! Oz / DWU
Saturday, August 18, 2012
WOW !!!! OMD, OMG, OMIDU !!!!!!!!!! It's Sooooo MFDG On !!!!!!
OMD = Oh My Divine !!! OMG = u know this one already !!! OMIDU = Oh My Infinite Divine Universe !!! and MFDG = Mutha Fukah Dag Gone !!!!
Wow, what an Extremely Powerful few days I have experienced !!! On that Tues when I left at 2:22pm, bottom line, was that I knew I did not have a safety net whatsoever !!! Pure Absolute PBBF !!!! Pitch Black Blind Faith !!!!! I purposely left knowing 100% that I would run out $$ and gas !!! Is that Awesome or What ??? Feeling the Power of My PBBF !!! Knowing W/O a DOUBT that I will be just fine, that I would be Well Taken Care of !!!! I knew I was with hand in hand with the Infinite Creator and his Sidekick his Holy Spirit, I wanted and needed to do it !! Extremely Extreme !!!! Not knowing how, what, where, I'll be !!!, just me and Infinite Divine Universe being Absolute Together guiding me and leading me where I needed to go !!! and I was forcing, flexing, building my PBBF Muscles and Mind !!! well, my intention was to go to the Cahokia Mounds in Collinsville, IL, well, I did see some kind of mound, I arrived there at around 12 midnight and I quickly noticed that it was in smack in the heart of the Barrio !!!! Haaa !!! I thought there wasn't any spanish ghetto's in Southern Illinois !!!!!!!! I was like WTF ??? I pictured it being in the middle of cornfields and tractors !!!!! Soo, I did say hi and namaste to my fellow past Ancient Indians and just went !!! I had the pull and the knowing that I was just supposed to Go !!! to Keep On Moving !!! Infinite Divine will tell me what exit, offramp, to go, bottom line, I just didn't use the map anymore, I just went till I ran out of gas !!!! I just went back on 70 West and just kept on going until I ran out of gas !!!!!! and when I ran out of gas is when I'll know that I'm in the Perfect Divine Spot !!!! I'm where I'm supposed to be for now!!!! After I spent the last of my change in gas in IL, I knew I was in Infinite Divine Universe Hands !!!! and I was not going back !!! I just on 70 West towards St. Louis, and I couldn't believe this at Freaking All !!!! well, the highway is right smack accross from Busch Stadium where the St. Luis Cardinals play, and right smack in the middle of me passing the stadium I heard some explosions !!!! I thought some car had backfired behind me, I looked up and it was Fireworks !!!! Exploding right above me !!!!!!! Whoaaaa !!!!! WOW !!! OMG, OMD, OMIDU !!!!!! I knew then that this was Absolute Confirmation that I was With Hand-In-Hand with the Infinite Creator who Can, Create, Manefest ANYTHING !!!!!!!! and I just kept going on 70 West !!!! I knew what I needed to do when I needed to do it !!! My instructions were, "as soon as you hit the last red "Gas Empty" gauge, go to the next Rest Stop" and that's where you need to be, Yes, it was very adventurous, not using a map, not knowing when a Rest Stop will be, I just knew that the next Rest Stop was where I needed to be... So, sure enough I soon seen a sign that said, "Rest Stop", 2 miles, Whewwww !!! Alright !!!! I was sooo glad to see that sign !!!! and the smaller sign below said, Next Rest Stop 80 miles !!! Sooo, I was Sooo Making Sure I didn't miss it !!! and Then !!!!! I thought I missed !!!!!!! I was like, Daaaang, it definitely felt like I drove more than 2 miles !!! and wasn't seeing anything ahead, so I was like hey, maybe I'm supposed to be at someone's farm or barn ??? and just kept cool about it !!! Hey, Regardless of What Happens !!!! I knew w/o a shadow of a doubth that I Will Be Just Fine !!!! and so, once I felt my Absolute Knowingness that whatever happens, if I run out of gas on the highway, I'll be alright !! if I landed in a farm !!! I'll be alright, Whatever Happens I'll be Absolutely Taken Care Of !!!!! I Absolutely Knew That !!! I laughed out loud, Adventure Baby !!!! Now This Is LIFE !!!!!!!! Not knowing where you're going to end up !!!!! and once you get there How You're Going to Get Back ???? As soon as I was reassured that all is well, the Exit for the Rest Stop came up and I parked, stretched, banio, and slept, it was an Amazing Day & Night, I knew that this is the spot that I needed to be for my transformation and my metamorphosis.... and So I thanked the Infinite Divine Universe !!! and I knew that I wasn't coming out of there till Sept. 1, 2012 !!!! So, I was mentally planning on me being there for over 2 weeks !!!!! at the rest stop !!! because, I had about 1-2 miles left in gas and zero $$ !!! and I did have ample amounts of water, about 14 cans of tuna and 2 cans of sardines in oil..., all of my books, paints, sewing gear, clothes, basically all I have was in the car !!! I had a Great Night Sleep !!!!
I woke up Refreshed !!!! and was curious on the environement where I was going to be for the next 16 days !!!! So, I walked down the road and it leads to any a much more secluded area, with trees, tables, less or hardly no cars, quieter from the other parking lot, it was downward and there was a huge mound, hill that protected you from the freeway and semi-truck noise. I Saw this and I said, "YES" !!!!!!! this is the spot !!!! Heaven, Seclusion, Peaceful, Nature, Trees, Shade, Tables, grass, and my Secada Chanting Monks !!!! who was chanting all throughout my stay there !!!! it was Absolutely Amazing !!!! Well, I immediately drove the car down to the other side of the rest stop and parked my spaceship right in the shade !!! it was perfect !!! I was sooo grateful, sooo appreciative, Soooo One with the Infinite !!! and I had instructions to Read "ACIM" A Course In Miracles that I borrowed from mom, and I was about to give it back to her when I was in town before I left and I was told Nope !!!! She'll be fine without it, You Must Read A Course In Miracles in it's Entirety during this time you're here !!! it's a pretty good sized book, like almost 1400 pages, !!! Hey, I got nothing but, time baby !!!! I got until the 1st of Sept !!! 16 more days !!! So, my game plan was to read 100 pages a day until I'm done...So, my 1st day there, I was reading and power napping all day, it was a warm day, perfect for that power alpha omega wave meditation !!! it was Awesome !!! underneath the trees, in the shade, had my blanket and pillow, just in heaven !!! pure heaven !!! woke up read some more, and it wasn't until the 2nd day, I met this one individual !!! He noticed me that I was at the same spot, just chillin, relaxing, reading, not worrying about the time, just chillen !!! Yep, he knew I was living on the Absolute Edge as well... We both met, he is a retired Army Soldier with 26 yrs with the Army, and basically when he came back from overseas "early" wanted to surprise his wife, there was another man living in his home and sleeping with his wife !!!! Oh SHIT !!!!! and it was immediately, Done-Done, he left the situation and wanted to divorce her immediately !!! So, he packed up his misc. in his SUV and left... and the courts awarded her half of everything including his pension !!!!! Daaaamn !!! Hey, All Good, I know, we have to see it in another perspective, as an opportunity to learn, grow, evolve, love, and to forgive.... So, that was his story of why he's sleeping out of his car !!! Wow !!! I totally didn't even expect that one coming !!! what I quickly realized that there is a whole "Other Community" of homelessnes !!! it's not the "Obvious Homeless", where they smell like rotton funk and fermented piss !!! knatted up hair, dirty holey jeans, wearing heavy ass jackets in 100 degree weather !!! Oh yeah, we all seen them before and experienced their "Funk Phonomena" !!!! (old school dance song lyric") the New Homeless is You and I !!! See, what is homelesses anyway ??? What makes it a Home anyway ??? basically all you're doing in a house is
I just had the Idea, of a Very Very Special, Unique, Hardcore, Special Forces / Recon type of team from Infinite God Himself like the "President's Own" type of Spiritual Warrior, Divine Warriors of the Universe, Divinitus Warrious Universalis !!!! where we all of the same, that we choose to make ourselves part of God the Infinite Creator, when I was reading ACIM, it said, that We Are a Part of the Creator !!!! and that we have Power that the Holy Spirit is Within Us and We Can Do, Be, Have, Anything in the Entire Universe and we have the Power to Create "Miracles" !!!!! As long if it's For the "Sonship" !!!! I'm only 200 pages into the ACIM now, but, as of now, this is what I know. Sonship, is "Everyone", Every being that has been created by Infinite God !!! To remind the Sons and Daughters of their True Father Infinite Divine Creator-the Master of Master Artist !!! who thought, molded and loved you !!! Wow !!! I think I got something here!!! Infinite God Divine Creator and His Holy Spirit is using me to create Divine Warriors of the Universe !!! Where we went and still continue to go to the Absolute Extreme !!!! where we live by PBBF !!!! Pitch Black Blind Faith !!!! and we continue to "Be The Example" to change the world !!!! Spending 16 hrs a day on Mind, Body and Spirit !!!! Wow !!! to be surround by Infinite Divine Warriors 24 hrs give or take an hr or 2,3,4, or whatever time you need for you and Infinite Divine Master Creator. We'll be using God's Holy Spirit to Lead, Guide us , wow's it 11:11am now !!! while I'm writing here, Miracles will become the Norm !!!! Wow !!! to create an Infinite Divine's Own ?? Universe's Own??? help me baby !!! We're all a part of each other !!! So, I could sence your hesitation on me finding out who you are... ?? All In PDT !!! I Say !!! Perfect Divine Timing !!!! hey, if you're still reading this !!! I know there might me some nudging on your shoulder, you're part of the Sonship too !!!
What I see is "Universe's Own", who released everything that no longer serves him/her, who made the Whole Universe Their Home, ( I was saying that to the whole sky just now, The Whole World is My Home !!!! the Whole Universe is My Home !!!! I'm the Absolute Truest Form of Free !!!!! I can go anywhere anytime in the Whole Universe !!!! I'm not bound to any cell earth particle where we have the whole Universe to Explore and Be a Part Of !!! Where we help, push, be accountible, for, in our Metamorphoisis of our own Mind, Body and Spirit, Grow Upward and Outward, to become what we always wanted, needed, and what Infinite Divine God Creator wants you to become... God Wants You to Become Your Absolute Truest YOU !!!! Not what others, family, friends, percieve or think you do or you are, but YOU !!!! this is the calling !!!! to the ones who wants to be the Infinite Divine Warrior of the Universe !!! to Actualize !!!!!! this time !!!!!! I'm sure you're a lot like me, I've done and tried it ALL !!!!!! This is the Time !!!! to ACTUALIZE !!!!!! the Absolute True You !!! be willing and able to release Everything that no longer serves you ???? Society, friends, family, spouse, fiance are definitely not going to cheer you on !!! I could just about guarantee that your immediate Environment, family, "friends", peers, anyone who is in your immediate everyday environment will back lash at you !!! WTF !!! What are you going to do ???? what about this, that and the other, Haaaa, you know what?? , Source is telling, for me not to worry about it, They Will KNOW if We're talking about them, they Will Absolutely w/o a shadow of a doubth that this is where they need to be and need to go... ok, hey, that was quick !!! thanks IDU !!!! here I was using the "human physical logical" side to explain what might happen if you change !!! I know now, that the Universe's Own will w/o a doubt we're talking about them, there will be zero question.
I have yet to tell the whole story, I just kept on writing and this is what I got, Awesome Hunh ???? Yeahhh Baby !!! well, in case you're sensing I'm back !!! the 3rd day, I had the urge to Do Something !!! that I just can't be stable at one spot for 14 days !!!!! I have to try to go, get out, get gas, get $$, something !!! I have 14 days to spend !!! and I knew it was just more than Reading a 100 pages a day, I needed some Actual Real Hardcore, Extreme, Life Experience !!!! You can't get any Extreme than that???, spending All your money on gas and then drive till you run out of gas !!!! well, I was mentally planning on staying at the Rest Stop for 16 days, but the 3rd night, I couldn't sleep, I have to do something, I just can't sit and wait for it to happen, especially just reading the ACIM book all day and night, I was Inspired, Motivated and Ready to Use My Knowledge and that Whatever I Decide God Is Right Beside !!!! I love it !!! it just came to me just right now !!! Wow !!! Inspired Divine Thought !!! Thank You !!! and it's Sooo True !!! Seems like today I'm just going to keep on writing here !!! Oh yeah, I found the Bloggie !!! I read in the ACIM, that Nothing is Ever Lost, you just forgot where you left it !!!!! I love my life !!! Sooo much !!! I'm not even keeping track of time here... sheeeese !! I'm just going all over the place !!! I have sooo much to talk about and to share about !!! where to start ?? ok, let's finish up with the Rest Stop !! I was at the Wright City, MO Westbound I-70 Rest Stop, and I just had the urge to do, go, move, do mutha fukin somethin !!!! I was planning on selling my "stuff" at the gas station, in the parking lot !! my shirts, books, shoes !!??? Somethin !! then the Retired Army Steve told me that I should call Illinois Travelers Aid, I did, got a wrong number, then I called the Missouri IDOT Emergency Hotline, told her the situation, outa gas and outa money, been at the rest stop for 3 days !! trying to go back to Chicago.... they said they would get back to me, I was contacted about 20 min later, the MO Highway Patrol called me and asked what's the situation, I told him the deal and what happened, I went on a road trip and I ran out gas and money trying to get back home to Chicago, I said, DuPage County, then the officer on the phone, said, "I have a nephew that goes to college over there ?? I said, " College of DuPage??" he said, yeah, he's on the basketball team, and I told him Wow !! I graduated from COD !!! basically we had an instant connection!! and he told me that they Gas Vouchers that he's going to relay it to one of the Patrol Officers to give me them..." I said, great !! Thank You !!! and said our goodbye's... // I saw the patroling officer drive in the front parking lot and I waved her down... over here !!! talked with the officer and told her what the situation is, and she went back to her patrol car and was on the phone for a while..... she was talking with the Salvation Army and I guess her superiors and they came to the conclusion that I didn't "qualify" for the Gas Vouchers !!!! I said, "Say Wha !!!?????" She told me that it had to be a "Disaster Event", Death, Tornado, a Natural Disaster of Some Sort, with Death and Absolute Destruction !! and since this was my own fault I could recieve the Gas Vouchers !!! I was like ok ?? Alright ?? No Biggie !!! I'll just stay here for another 14 days that's all !!!! hey, as long as you know that I'm here gas-less and moneyless I'll be alright, don't be hassling me now you-here??? don't be knocking on my window distubing my REM Sleep at 3 o'clock in the morning now, just wanting to check my ID and Registion!! ok ??? Well, I was saying that mentally !!!! haaa, I just letting roll off of me !!! like water on a duck's back !!!! ok, Plan B, T'Shirts 5 Bucks !!!! get your Fresh Clean Cool T-Shirts 5 Bucks !!! Ran Outa Gas & Ran Outa Money !!!! Just Trying To Get Back Home !!!! that was my Plan B !!! I knew I had to do something to Move !!!!! to get the Ball Moving a lil bit...
So, as a last ditch effort I notice a guy spraying and wiping down the tables and I asked him if he knew anything or anyone who would know about getting some Help... Gas Help.... I guess he had people come up to him selling cd's and tapes, because that's what his first words that came out.... there was about 2 minutes of "Not Knowing WTF we were talking about" !!! Haaa, I was like ?? mentally (what in the heeeell are we talking about ???) then he said, CD's or Tapes Classic Rock !!! ohhhhh we're talking about CD's Music Tapes !!! I got it now !!! Well, I showed him some of my cd's and I told him that there was no Classic Rock CD's or Tapes, I have only meditations, success, inspiring cd's, spiritual cd's, he declined !!! and then I popped open the trunk, and started showing him what I had !!! I showed him a very nice Starbucks Coffee Mug, the double lined with air, where it stays hot all day !!! I was excited about that, so I got out some more stuff, 2 ratchet tie downs, 2 2ton jacks, I think that was it, we were going back n forth about the price... he knew I was in a bind and wanted to help but, at the same time wanted a deal too !!! C'mon Brotha Man !!!! I need to get back to Chgo !!!! so we eventually we agreed on $20, before he said, "I only have $15" I didn't budge, he kept looking in his wallet counting his one's, then he said, "Oh.... there's $20 !!" I said, Ahhhh Hunhhhh !!! yep, you sure did !!! so I put all the items in a plastic bag and made the mutual transaction.... he was happy and I was happy.... Sweet !!!! Me and Infinite Divine Universe aka God We're In This Together !!! That's what I was learning and reading about in ACIM !!! that we're a Team !!!! I then saw him later and he told me that was written up for his communication with me !!! I was like What ??? !!!! His' boss is a very young woman, I apologized for it, and then he was saying that he can't stand working with her, that he's going to have to work nights, even though he won't like, it's better than working with her. I felt sooo bad for that... .and then we chatted for a lil bit, when his boss left, he told me that she told him that she might dock 1 hrs pay from his hrs !!! I was like what !!! yeah, it was tough not seeing her as her Divine Being She Is or Was !!! then he told me that eventually this was bound to happen, he told me that was planning on leaving this job and that he's not happy being her working with her, I told him, something better is on they way brother Randy !!! that's his name Randy !!! Short, male, salt n pepper pony tail in 3 rubber bands, with a hat and a Flourecent Yellow Shirt and Vest, with glasses, I'm guessing late 40's or early 50's, thus the "Classic Rock" cd's or tapes !!! Old school baby !!! Proud Old School Right There !!! Randy didn't just say CD's He Said, "Cd's OR TAPES !!!!!" I knew in the end Holy Spirit was using me & my situation to lead & guide him, we both said, that this was eventually going to happen where Enough was Enough !!! I think when he was told that she's (his boss) was going to try to dock an hour from his hours, that was the final straw for Randy !!! Fuck That !!! if I had a fuckin boss like that !!! Fuuuuck Thaaat !!!! Randy was Only Chatting and Trying to Help out a fellow human being !! a Brother !!!!! in a time of absolute need and financial dire straights !!! See, it's Amazing How God and His Holy Spirit Leads, Guides, Uses, You for the Greater Good !!!! I totally believe that this was a turning point in Randy's Life as well... To not put up with this anymore !!! I said a Prayer for Randy !!! it was ALL RANDY that Really Came to Me as a Miracle !!!! and with Steve !!! Retired Army, we gave me 2 gall of gas and his girlfriend who brought a Feast of a Picnic !!!! Ice Cold Diet Cokes oh yeah !!!! it was Absolutely Amazing !!! Delicious salad, turkey sandwiches, steak tacos, bananna nut pound loaf, OMG, OMD !!!! See !!! Incredible and Amazing Things Happen When You Have PBBF !!!!!!
Steve and Randy was my Miracles !!!!!!! and Peggy !!! his girlfriend !!! Steve was showing the ropes on living out of my car, I needed to get a screen from Home Depot and some magnets from Walmart $10 total to have your windows all the down that will keep away the mosquitos and flies !!! Steve's SUV !!!! I'm not kidding, is Freaking Empty !!!!! I was like where's all your shit ??? I only have what I absolutely need !!! Wow !!! it looked like a brand new SUV !!! uses a rolled up sweater as a pillow, 1 pair of gym shoes and a pair of sandles, I was in shock that he hardly had anything and yet he was living comfortably and "Not Looking The Part" of living out of your car look !!! sort of like my "look" !!! it was super bad !!!! when I had to move out of the storage unit !!! I took a picture of it !!! yep, I had Ehhh-Verrrr-Eeee-Thing inside and on top of the Saturn !!!! Sooo, now, I was definitely Inspired and New that I still had to Fine Tune my car and my stuff !!!! it was great connecting with Steve !!! we would keep each other company, tells me his routine, his knowledge on living life on the edge of adventure !!!! during the winters he goes to Luissaina well, I tried to sound it out !! you know what I'm trying to say !!! he goes down the to some Shrimp Town to work for the Shrimpers for cash !!! He absolutely loves being on the road and being Free !!!! Wow !!! 26 yr veteran in the Army with 3 Purple Hearts Saying That !!!! He is FREE !!! he gets about a grand and a half or so for life !!! and he's got a lady out in town, he told me if I saw him with his "other' lady friend !!!!??? nope !!! brother man's a Pimp Status Freedom Driver !!! and this is how I was able to come back !!! with the use of Steve's GF gas can, his contribution to fill up the 2 gal gas can, driving back the rest stop to Give me the gas, the loose change that Steve found in his SUV because his GF told him that his SUV was Nasty and that he needed to clean out the stains and misc. dirt, (Steve said, it was from his grandschildren when he let his son use his SUV) I believe him !! and he showed me the stains, honestly it looked like a brand new SUV !!!! it was Clean, shiny, nothing inside !!! barely... nothing obvious nor advertising that you live out of you car look !!!! yep, we know the look !!! I know I need to Fine Tune !! most likely I'm going to give away to nephs and brother and to try to sell it at Plato's Closet.... oh yeah, it was Steve, Steve's GF, Randy, and Plato's Closet that helped me get back to DuPage County IL..... after the Homemade Feast from Steve's GF, I knew it was time for me to go, my Time is Done Here !!! I Forever Thanked Steve, for the Knowledge, Spare Change and the 2 gal of gas, and the companionship and conversation we had during my stay, Thanked Steve's GF for the wonderful homemade feast, with the ice cold canned diet Coke !!! and I was off !!! took the back "Wrong" exit out, there was a gravel road path for the maintenance crew that leads out back to the "Frontage Road" leading to the gas station, closest, and I wouldn't have to drive 4 miles West to make a UTurn back !! Every mile counted !!!
Got my gas !!! cashed in all the change, it was about $23 and some change worth of gas, and I was on my way !!! got better directions through Steve to go around St. Louis So, I went 70 E, 370 E, then 270 E and then 55 N to Chicago... while I was on 55 North, I knew I wasn't going to make it all the way !!! Sooo, Holy Spirit says, Hey, Try Plato's Closet !!! So, when I had to go to the banio at the next rest stop, I called up 411, and asked them if there was a Plato's Closet in Springfield, IL, There Was !!!! YESSSS !!! I made sure I got the number too !!! just to confirm it's still open and the directions from 55 ...
I brought my whole "Cool" work out shirts and a pair of my "Ancient Chinese" Converse Chuck Taylors, which I had many compliments... there was a few scuff marks but, I just put them in the bag... when up to Plato's Closet chatted it up with the employees there, and wanted to Hype up the clothes a lil bit !!! they took 2 shirts and the Chuck Taylor's !!! for about $9.60 hey, I was hoping for about at least $20 worth of clothing but, $9 is good !!! so, got the $9.60 and went to get some gas down the street, I had some extra change, and so I had $10.06 to pay for gas and paid the lady, the gas nozzle stopped at $10 even... I said, Wha ??? I have 6 cents left baby !!! ??? C'mon Now !!! so I went back to the lady and told her what happened to that 6 cents ??? she said, you still want that 6 cents in gas ?? I said, hell yeahhh, every cent counts, I'm trying to get back to Chicago !!! she told me, "You Ain't Going to Chicago with only $10", I just said, Bye and Thank You and was laughing the way to the gas nozzle to get ready to pump 6 cents worth of gas !!! I was ready baby !!! I had the handle in one hand and the hose in the other, I was raising up the hose going up n down maximizing the flow of gas of 6 cents !!! I was laughing sooo hard !!! I had fun with it !!!! ok, let's roll baby !!! during my drive to DuPage County I even rolled up the windows so I could have better Wind Resistance !!!! I only had barely a crack open for some air !!! WithOut !!! AC !!! So, my ass was sweating inside, like a moving sauna !!! it was a hot, warm too, day !!! 90's maybe ?? Yeah !!! I went as far as that !!!!! I knew I was going to make it back !!!!! Note, I haven't showered in maybe 5-6 days ?? it was hot, humid = sweaty, caked on funkness, being trapped at a rest stop !! Sooo, coming back on a Friday evening on my favorite Pads Site !!!! OMG !!! I was soooo looking forward for that shower !!!! I was just envisioning the whole thing, coming into a well AC place, getting another Feast of a meal, with hot coffee, deserts and a movie, a Cool, Chilled, Shower !!! My face was still radiating from the sun a lil bit, and it felt absolutely amazing !!!! good perfect pressure on the shower nozzle !!! having my beard nice and lathered up and conditioned, having my whole body scrubbed and clean and refreshed !!!! It was Absolutely Heaven !!!! Thank You !!! wow !! to then where brand new boxers and a brand new clean white t-shirt !!!! I was Pure Bliss !!! While everyone was eating I was still satisfied with the feast I had ealier, so the food portion wasn't a priority, the Shower Was !!!! I just envisioned me getting to the side, walking right into the showers, (usually there's a long list) but, since I got there write in the middle of Dinner, no one was in the showers !!! So I walked right in, got out, had some bbq chicken, salad, devil'd eggs then had some Italian Ice !!! first time I had that !! it was good !!! I prefer ice cream !!! but, New is always good for me !!! and had some delicious homemade deserts while I had cold whole milk and coffee while watching a good movie !!!!! Now, is this Heaven On Earth or What ??????? I was just closing my eyes in full absolute appreciation !!!!! Thank You !! Thank you, Thank you, I made it, I made it, I made it, !!!!! Wow !!!! I had the best night sleep ever !!!! last night !!! mmmmmmm !!! AC was on, had some fleece covers to keep you warm, had a nice fluffy pillow, my ear plugs !!! note there's about 50 or more men that I'm sleeping next to or nearby and we do have some serious "Purrers"(snorers).... I was knocked out within about 15 min !!! Bam !!! Lights Out For Me !!!!
See, I've noticed that times that seems I'm not doing well (from the outward perspective) was the most growing times in my entire life !!!! Wow !!! I'm going to try to list them here:
"what's the point of that ??? you're still going to eat back the calories you burn !!!" See, Shit like that !!!! I Know I was in the WRONG PLACE WITH the WRONG ROOMMATE!!!! I also know that with Me ??? I tend to Learn the Wrong Way !!!!!??? YOU TOO ??? I Give Him/Her the benefit of the doubt, My Instict was No !!! Don't be roommates, do something, say something, but don't move in with him... but, winter was coming, and Chicago winters tend to be a lil bit chilly, nippy and snowy !!! and told myself just for the winter and then I'm out... note that I was working at the Lodge PT, having the time of my life, but, it was slowly affecting me, dealing with the drunks, getting hassled for the cover charges, breaking up fights, having drunks offering me and basically forcing me to drink, well, I take that back, not forcing me !!! Buuuuut, I know me, if it's right there in your face !!! shot ready in hand, here Oscar let's do a shot, Yeah, this is what I'm talking about my environment.... Then it got to the Point 'Where I was Done-Done !!! I couldn't nor I wanted to do my job there anymore, I didn't want to socialize nor be seen (means I would have to come up to them and say hi) it wasn't that I didn't want to talk to them, I was just done with the Whole Alcohol Scene & Environment !!! oh brother I could go on and on and on !!! The Universe was screaming Get Out-Get Out Now !!!! You Must Do What Makes You Absolute Joyous and Happy !!! and that was of my Artwork and being a part of the Spiritual Community that was in, Fri, Oneness Meditation, Give Peace a Dance, Kirtans, Divine Dancing, Chi Ka Go, Synthesis, Bodhi Spiritual Center, I needed to get back to the Source !!!!! and to Focus Strictly Only on ME !!!!!! Me Myself and I !!!! I found myself Unhappy & Overweight !!!!! and since June 28th, 2012 was the last day of the Lodge and July 15, 2012 was the last day with roommate, I know I might of said this in an early post, As soon as I closed my roommates door for the last time, "WE BOTH" said (both meaning me and Holy Spirit), "Chapter is Officially Closed right as soon as the door closed and latched and locked.... it was a sense of Relief and Appreciation that I'm Back On Track Now !!!! That my surroundings, people, friends, family the whole Shabang Environement is Absolute Key that will make or break my transformation and my metamorphosis !!!!
Haaa, just remember the night where E's (roommate) and his friend "Beagle" well, I do know Beagle and do consider a friend but, he's been a friend longer with E... anyways, they come boligerant drunk !!! Loud, obnoxious, I was awoken up, and just layed down looking at the ceiling, fuck, this is sooo not worth it.... Then I got a knock on the door, since I was already up, I actually answered and E told me for me to take a look at Beagle, to see whether or not he should go to the hospital, I went to the kitchen area, Beagle was at the sink, standing up, his long ass hair covering his sides of the face, as soon as he looked at me, I immediately said, "Where's the Keys' we're going Now !!!" Beagle's Left Eyeball Was BLACK !!!!! and there is a half inch of of forehead skin flapping up and down, I saw red skullish flesh, while blood is just pouring down his face !!!! I'm alright, I'm alright, All I need is Ice !!! where's your Ice ??? Dude, we're going now !!! I was the only sober one there !!! So, I went to put my jeans on, and by the time I was ready, Beagle Left The Building !!!!! Not Only did he left the building he left the area, we couldn't find him !!!! it was a chilly night and we thought he was going to try to walk home, he lives about 5-7 miles !!! Me and E was looking for him for about 15 min going up n down the parking lot, checking the lake area, going back to the Lodge area, we were this close of calling the police to help find him to let them know what had happened !!!! I said, let's check your place one last time and sure enough he was there on the balcony !!! Beagle !!!! let's go !!! Beagle was insistant that I take him home, note Beagle was Drunk Drunk, sooo, he'd say Take Me Home, NO HOSPITAL !!! then I say, ok-ok-.... Home, Home.... yeahhh, no way in hell he's going home, being dead in the morning, not on my watch !!!! So we finally got him in the front passenger seat, oh brother, this was scary as hell.... Once Beagle knew that we were going the the wrong way and on the way to the hospital, he was trying to get out of the SUV while going around 40 mph !!!!! I had one hand on the steering and the other hand on the door locking buttons, making sure he doesn't get out, I was trying to open the door, up n down, up n down, !!!! I was going through Red Lights !!! I said, "Where are the Cops when you need them !!!" I was speeding and running red lights left and right !!!! Whewww, we finally made it to the Emergency Entrance !!!! as soon as it went in park, I just sat there, with a Huge Ass Relief Sigh !!!!!! Whewwwwwwwww !!!!! We made it !!! I knew everything will be alright !!!!! then E, escorted Beagle to front Emergency Desk, and Basically Scared the Living Day & Night Lights Out of that Nurse !!!!!! Oh shit !!! E' told me that it was the most Funniest Thing He'd Ever Seen in his life !!!! a living Human Sasquatch (his hair is like 3ft+ long!! with a bout an inch of square patch L shaped skin, dangling and flapping up n down, with forhead skull visable, blood oozing down... Yeah !!!! that was a night to remember and to not have happen again !!!!! ok, it's 3:19pm now, been writing here for a while, going to publish this post already !!!!
Whewww. ... break time !!!! BBL, be back later !!!! DWU/Oz
Wow, what an Extremely Powerful few days I have experienced !!! On that Tues when I left at 2:22pm, bottom line, was that I knew I did not have a safety net whatsoever !!! Pure Absolute PBBF !!!! Pitch Black Blind Faith !!!!! I purposely left knowing 100% that I would run out $$ and gas !!! Is that Awesome or What ??? Feeling the Power of My PBBF !!! Knowing W/O a DOUBT that I will be just fine, that I would be Well Taken Care of !!!! I knew I was with hand in hand with the Infinite Creator and his Sidekick his Holy Spirit, I wanted and needed to do it !! Extremely Extreme !!!! Not knowing how, what, where, I'll be !!!, just me and Infinite Divine Universe being Absolute Together guiding me and leading me where I needed to go !!! and I was forcing, flexing, building my PBBF Muscles and Mind !!! well, my intention was to go to the Cahokia Mounds in Collinsville, IL, well, I did see some kind of mound, I arrived there at around 12 midnight and I quickly noticed that it was in smack in the heart of the Barrio !!!! Haaa !!! I thought there wasn't any spanish ghetto's in Southern Illinois !!!!!!!! I was like WTF ??? I pictured it being in the middle of cornfields and tractors !!!!! Soo, I did say hi and namaste to my fellow past Ancient Indians and just went !!! I had the pull and the knowing that I was just supposed to Go !!! to Keep On Moving !!! Infinite Divine will tell me what exit, offramp, to go, bottom line, I just didn't use the map anymore, I just went till I ran out of gas !!!! I just went back on 70 West and just kept on going until I ran out of gas !!!!!! and when I ran out of gas is when I'll know that I'm in the Perfect Divine Spot !!!! I'm where I'm supposed to be for now!!!! After I spent the last of my change in gas in IL, I knew I was in Infinite Divine Universe Hands !!!! and I was not going back !!! I just on 70 West towards St. Louis, and I couldn't believe this at Freaking All !!!! well, the highway is right smack accross from Busch Stadium where the St. Luis Cardinals play, and right smack in the middle of me passing the stadium I heard some explosions !!!! I thought some car had backfired behind me, I looked up and it was Fireworks !!!! Exploding right above me !!!!!!! Whoaaaa !!!!! WOW !!! OMG, OMD, OMIDU !!!!!! I knew then that this was Absolute Confirmation that I was With Hand-In-Hand with the Infinite Creator who Can, Create, Manefest ANYTHING !!!!!!!! and I just kept going on 70 West !!!! I knew what I needed to do when I needed to do it !!! My instructions were, "as soon as you hit the last red "Gas Empty" gauge, go to the next Rest Stop" and that's where you need to be, Yes, it was very adventurous, not using a map, not knowing when a Rest Stop will be, I just knew that the next Rest Stop was where I needed to be... So, sure enough I soon seen a sign that said, "Rest Stop", 2 miles, Whewwww !!! Alright !!!! I was sooo glad to see that sign !!!! and the smaller sign below said, Next Rest Stop 80 miles !!! Sooo, I was Sooo Making Sure I didn't miss it !!! and Then !!!!! I thought I missed !!!!!!! I was like, Daaaang, it definitely felt like I drove more than 2 miles !!! and wasn't seeing anything ahead, so I was like hey, maybe I'm supposed to be at someone's farm or barn ??? and just kept cool about it !!! Hey, Regardless of What Happens !!!! I knew w/o a shadow of a doubth that I Will Be Just Fine !!!! and so, once I felt my Absolute Knowingness that whatever happens, if I run out of gas on the highway, I'll be alright !! if I landed in a farm !!! I'll be alright, Whatever Happens I'll be Absolutely Taken Care Of !!!!! I Absolutely Knew That !!! I laughed out loud, Adventure Baby !!!! Now This Is LIFE !!!!!!!! Not knowing where you're going to end up !!!!! and once you get there How You're Going to Get Back ???? As soon as I was reassured that all is well, the Exit for the Rest Stop came up and I parked, stretched, banio, and slept, it was an Amazing Day & Night, I knew that this is the spot that I needed to be for my transformation and my metamorphosis.... and So I thanked the Infinite Divine Universe !!! and I knew that I wasn't coming out of there till Sept. 1, 2012 !!!! So, I was mentally planning on me being there for over 2 weeks !!!!! at the rest stop !!! because, I had about 1-2 miles left in gas and zero $$ !!! and I did have ample amounts of water, about 14 cans of tuna and 2 cans of sardines in oil..., all of my books, paints, sewing gear, clothes, basically all I have was in the car !!! I had a Great Night Sleep !!!!
I woke up Refreshed !!!! and was curious on the environement where I was going to be for the next 16 days !!!! So, I walked down the road and it leads to any a much more secluded area, with trees, tables, less or hardly no cars, quieter from the other parking lot, it was downward and there was a huge mound, hill that protected you from the freeway and semi-truck noise. I Saw this and I said, "YES" !!!!!!! this is the spot !!!! Heaven, Seclusion, Peaceful, Nature, Trees, Shade, Tables, grass, and my Secada Chanting Monks !!!! who was chanting all throughout my stay there !!!! it was Absolutely Amazing !!!! Well, I immediately drove the car down to the other side of the rest stop and parked my spaceship right in the shade !!! it was perfect !!! I was sooo grateful, sooo appreciative, Soooo One with the Infinite !!! and I had instructions to Read "ACIM" A Course In Miracles that I borrowed from mom, and I was about to give it back to her when I was in town before I left and I was told Nope !!!! She'll be fine without it, You Must Read A Course In Miracles in it's Entirety during this time you're here !!! it's a pretty good sized book, like almost 1400 pages, !!! Hey, I got nothing but, time baby !!!! I got until the 1st of Sept !!! 16 more days !!! So, my game plan was to read 100 pages a day until I'm done...So, my 1st day there, I was reading and power napping all day, it was a warm day, perfect for that power alpha omega wave meditation !!! it was Awesome !!! underneath the trees, in the shade, had my blanket and pillow, just in heaven !!! pure heaven !!! woke up read some more, and it wasn't until the 2nd day, I met this one individual !!! He noticed me that I was at the same spot, just chillin, relaxing, reading, not worrying about the time, just chillen !!! Yep, he knew I was living on the Absolute Edge as well... We both met, he is a retired Army Soldier with 26 yrs with the Army, and basically when he came back from overseas "early" wanted to surprise his wife, there was another man living in his home and sleeping with his wife !!!! Oh SHIT !!!!! and it was immediately, Done-Done, he left the situation and wanted to divorce her immediately !!! So, he packed up his misc. in his SUV and left... and the courts awarded her half of everything including his pension !!!!! Daaaamn !!! Hey, All Good, I know, we have to see it in another perspective, as an opportunity to learn, grow, evolve, love, and to forgive.... So, that was his story of why he's sleeping out of his car !!! Wow !!! I totally didn't even expect that one coming !!! what I quickly realized that there is a whole "Other Community" of homelessnes !!! it's not the "Obvious Homeless", where they smell like rotton funk and fermented piss !!! knatted up hair, dirty holey jeans, wearing heavy ass jackets in 100 degree weather !!! Oh yeah, we all seen them before and experienced their "Funk Phonomena" !!!! (old school dance song lyric") the New Homeless is You and I !!! See, what is homelesses anyway ??? What makes it a Home anyway ??? basically all you're doing in a house is
- Sleeping
- Going to Bathroom
- Showering
- Eating
- Relaxing/Chilling Out/ Watching News and Cable TV ??
I just had the Idea, of a Very Very Special, Unique, Hardcore, Special Forces / Recon type of team from Infinite God Himself like the "President's Own" type of Spiritual Warrior, Divine Warriors of the Universe, Divinitus Warrious Universalis !!!! where we all of the same, that we choose to make ourselves part of God the Infinite Creator, when I was reading ACIM, it said, that We Are a Part of the Creator !!!! and that we have Power that the Holy Spirit is Within Us and We Can Do, Be, Have, Anything in the Entire Universe and we have the Power to Create "Miracles" !!!!! As long if it's For the "Sonship" !!!! I'm only 200 pages into the ACIM now, but, as of now, this is what I know. Sonship, is "Everyone", Every being that has been created by Infinite God !!! To remind the Sons and Daughters of their True Father Infinite Divine Creator-the Master of Master Artist !!! who thought, molded and loved you !!! Wow !!! I think I got something here!!! Infinite God Divine Creator and His Holy Spirit is using me to create Divine Warriors of the Universe !!! Where we went and still continue to go to the Absolute Extreme !!!! where we live by PBBF !!!! Pitch Black Blind Faith !!!! and we continue to "Be The Example" to change the world !!!! Spending 16 hrs a day on Mind, Body and Spirit !!!! Wow !!! to be surround by Infinite Divine Warriors 24 hrs give or take an hr or 2,3,4, or whatever time you need for you and Infinite Divine Master Creator. We'll be using God's Holy Spirit to Lead, Guide us , wow's it 11:11am now !!! while I'm writing here, Miracles will become the Norm !!!! Wow !!! to create an Infinite Divine's Own ?? Universe's Own??? help me baby !!! We're all a part of each other !!! So, I could sence your hesitation on me finding out who you are... ?? All In PDT !!! I Say !!! Perfect Divine Timing !!!! hey, if you're still reading this !!! I know there might me some nudging on your shoulder, you're part of the Sonship too !!!
What I see is "Universe's Own", who released everything that no longer serves him/her, who made the Whole Universe Their Home, ( I was saying that to the whole sky just now, The Whole World is My Home !!!! the Whole Universe is My Home !!!! I'm the Absolute Truest Form of Free !!!!! I can go anywhere anytime in the Whole Universe !!!! I'm not bound to any cell earth particle where we have the whole Universe to Explore and Be a Part Of !!! Where we help, push, be accountible, for, in our Metamorphoisis of our own Mind, Body and Spirit, Grow Upward and Outward, to become what we always wanted, needed, and what Infinite Divine God Creator wants you to become... God Wants You to Become Your Absolute Truest YOU !!!! Not what others, family, friends, percieve or think you do or you are, but YOU !!!! this is the calling !!!! to the ones who wants to be the Infinite Divine Warrior of the Universe !!! to Actualize !!!!!! this time !!!!!! I'm sure you're a lot like me, I've done and tried it ALL !!!!!! This is the Time !!!! to ACTUALIZE !!!!!! the Absolute True You !!! be willing and able to release Everything that no longer serves you ???? Society, friends, family, spouse, fiance are definitely not going to cheer you on !!! I could just about guarantee that your immediate Environment, family, "friends", peers, anyone who is in your immediate everyday environment will back lash at you !!! WTF !!! What are you going to do ???? what about this, that and the other, Haaaa, you know what?? , Source is telling, for me not to worry about it, They Will KNOW if We're talking about them, they Will Absolutely w/o a shadow of a doubth that this is where they need to be and need to go... ok, hey, that was quick !!! thanks IDU !!!! here I was using the "human physical logical" side to explain what might happen if you change !!! I know now, that the Universe's Own will w/o a doubt we're talking about them, there will be zero question.
I have yet to tell the whole story, I just kept on writing and this is what I got, Awesome Hunh ???? Yeahhh Baby !!! well, in case you're sensing I'm back !!! the 3rd day, I had the urge to Do Something !!! that I just can't be stable at one spot for 14 days !!!!! I have to try to go, get out, get gas, get $$, something !!! I have 14 days to spend !!! and I knew it was just more than Reading a 100 pages a day, I needed some Actual Real Hardcore, Extreme, Life Experience !!!! You can't get any Extreme than that???, spending All your money on gas and then drive till you run out of gas !!!! well, I was mentally planning on staying at the Rest Stop for 16 days, but the 3rd night, I couldn't sleep, I have to do something, I just can't sit and wait for it to happen, especially just reading the ACIM book all day and night, I was Inspired, Motivated and Ready to Use My Knowledge and that Whatever I Decide God Is Right Beside !!!! I love it !!! it just came to me just right now !!! Wow !!! Inspired Divine Thought !!! Thank You !!! and it's Sooo True !!! Seems like today I'm just going to keep on writing here !!! Oh yeah, I found the Bloggie !!! I read in the ACIM, that Nothing is Ever Lost, you just forgot where you left it !!!!! I love my life !!! Sooo much !!! I'm not even keeping track of time here... sheeeese !! I'm just going all over the place !!! I have sooo much to talk about and to share about !!! where to start ?? ok, let's finish up with the Rest Stop !! I was at the Wright City, MO Westbound I-70 Rest Stop, and I just had the urge to do, go, move, do mutha fukin somethin !!!! I was planning on selling my "stuff" at the gas station, in the parking lot !! my shirts, books, shoes !!??? Somethin !! then the Retired Army Steve told me that I should call Illinois Travelers Aid, I did, got a wrong number, then I called the Missouri IDOT Emergency Hotline, told her the situation, outa gas and outa money, been at the rest stop for 3 days !! trying to go back to Chicago.... they said they would get back to me, I was contacted about 20 min later, the MO Highway Patrol called me and asked what's the situation, I told him the deal and what happened, I went on a road trip and I ran out gas and money trying to get back home to Chicago, I said, DuPage County, then the officer on the phone, said, "I have a nephew that goes to college over there ?? I said, " College of DuPage??" he said, yeah, he's on the basketball team, and I told him Wow !! I graduated from COD !!! basically we had an instant connection!! and he told me that they Gas Vouchers that he's going to relay it to one of the Patrol Officers to give me them..." I said, great !! Thank You !!! and said our goodbye's... // I saw the patroling officer drive in the front parking lot and I waved her down... over here !!! talked with the officer and told her what the situation is, and she went back to her patrol car and was on the phone for a while..... she was talking with the Salvation Army and I guess her superiors and they came to the conclusion that I didn't "qualify" for the Gas Vouchers !!!! I said, "Say Wha !!!?????" She told me that it had to be a "Disaster Event", Death, Tornado, a Natural Disaster of Some Sort, with Death and Absolute Destruction !! and since this was my own fault I could recieve the Gas Vouchers !!! I was like ok ?? Alright ?? No Biggie !!! I'll just stay here for another 14 days that's all !!!! hey, as long as you know that I'm here gas-less and moneyless I'll be alright, don't be hassling me now you-here??? don't be knocking on my window distubing my REM Sleep at 3 o'clock in the morning now, just wanting to check my ID and Registion!! ok ??? Well, I was saying that mentally !!!! haaa, I just letting roll off of me !!! like water on a duck's back !!!! ok, Plan B, T'Shirts 5 Bucks !!!! get your Fresh Clean Cool T-Shirts 5 Bucks !!! Ran Outa Gas & Ran Outa Money !!!! Just Trying To Get Back Home !!!! that was my Plan B !!! I knew I had to do something to Move !!!!! to get the Ball Moving a lil bit...
So, as a last ditch effort I notice a guy spraying and wiping down the tables and I asked him if he knew anything or anyone who would know about getting some Help... Gas Help.... I guess he had people come up to him selling cd's and tapes, because that's what his first words that came out.... there was about 2 minutes of "Not Knowing WTF we were talking about" !!! Haaa, I was like ?? mentally (what in the heeeell are we talking about ???) then he said, CD's or Tapes Classic Rock !!! ohhhhh we're talking about CD's Music Tapes !!! I got it now !!! Well, I showed him some of my cd's and I told him that there was no Classic Rock CD's or Tapes, I have only meditations, success, inspiring cd's, spiritual cd's, he declined !!! and then I popped open the trunk, and started showing him what I had !!! I showed him a very nice Starbucks Coffee Mug, the double lined with air, where it stays hot all day !!! I was excited about that, so I got out some more stuff, 2 ratchet tie downs, 2 2ton jacks, I think that was it, we were going back n forth about the price... he knew I was in a bind and wanted to help but, at the same time wanted a deal too !!! C'mon Brotha Man !!!! I need to get back to Chgo !!!! so we eventually we agreed on $20, before he said, "I only have $15" I didn't budge, he kept looking in his wallet counting his one's, then he said, "Oh.... there's $20 !!" I said, Ahhhh Hunhhhh !!! yep, you sure did !!! so I put all the items in a plastic bag and made the mutual transaction.... he was happy and I was happy.... Sweet !!!! Me and Infinite Divine Universe aka God We're In This Together !!! That's what I was learning and reading about in ACIM !!! that we're a Team !!!! I then saw him later and he told me that was written up for his communication with me !!! I was like What ??? !!!! His' boss is a very young woman, I apologized for it, and then he was saying that he can't stand working with her, that he's going to have to work nights, even though he won't like, it's better than working with her. I felt sooo bad for that... .and then we chatted for a lil bit, when his boss left, he told me that she told him that she might dock 1 hrs pay from his hrs !!! I was like what !!! yeah, it was tough not seeing her as her Divine Being She Is or Was !!! then he told me that eventually this was bound to happen, he told me that was planning on leaving this job and that he's not happy being her working with her, I told him, something better is on they way brother Randy !!! that's his name Randy !!! Short, male, salt n pepper pony tail in 3 rubber bands, with a hat and a Flourecent Yellow Shirt and Vest, with glasses, I'm guessing late 40's or early 50's, thus the "Classic Rock" cd's or tapes !!! Old school baby !!! Proud Old School Right There !!! Randy didn't just say CD's He Said, "Cd's OR TAPES !!!!!" I knew in the end Holy Spirit was using me & my situation to lead & guide him, we both said, that this was eventually going to happen where Enough was Enough !!! I think when he was told that she's (his boss) was going to try to dock an hour from his hours, that was the final straw for Randy !!! Fuck That !!! if I had a fuckin boss like that !!! Fuuuuck Thaaat !!!! Randy was Only Chatting and Trying to Help out a fellow human being !! a Brother !!!!! in a time of absolute need and financial dire straights !!! See, it's Amazing How God and His Holy Spirit Leads, Guides, Uses, You for the Greater Good !!!! I totally believe that this was a turning point in Randy's Life as well... To not put up with this anymore !!! I said a Prayer for Randy !!! it was ALL RANDY that Really Came to Me as a Miracle !!!! and with Steve !!! Retired Army, we gave me 2 gall of gas and his girlfriend who brought a Feast of a Picnic !!!! Ice Cold Diet Cokes oh yeah !!!! it was Absolutely Amazing !!! Delicious salad, turkey sandwiches, steak tacos, bananna nut pound loaf, OMG, OMD !!!! See !!! Incredible and Amazing Things Happen When You Have PBBF !!!!!!
Steve and Randy was my Miracles !!!!!!! and Peggy !!! his girlfriend !!! Steve was showing the ropes on living out of my car, I needed to get a screen from Home Depot and some magnets from Walmart $10 total to have your windows all the down that will keep away the mosquitos and flies !!! Steve's SUV !!!! I'm not kidding, is Freaking Empty !!!!! I was like where's all your shit ??? I only have what I absolutely need !!! Wow !!! it looked like a brand new SUV !!! uses a rolled up sweater as a pillow, 1 pair of gym shoes and a pair of sandles, I was in shock that he hardly had anything and yet he was living comfortably and "Not Looking The Part" of living out of your car look !!! sort of like my "look" !!! it was super bad !!!! when I had to move out of the storage unit !!! I took a picture of it !!! yep, I had Ehhh-Verrrr-Eeee-Thing inside and on top of the Saturn !!!! Sooo, now, I was definitely Inspired and New that I still had to Fine Tune my car and my stuff !!!! it was great connecting with Steve !!! we would keep each other company, tells me his routine, his knowledge on living life on the edge of adventure !!!! during the winters he goes to Luissaina well, I tried to sound it out !! you know what I'm trying to say !!! he goes down the to some Shrimp Town to work for the Shrimpers for cash !!! He absolutely loves being on the road and being Free !!!! Wow !!! 26 yr veteran in the Army with 3 Purple Hearts Saying That !!!! He is FREE !!! he gets about a grand and a half or so for life !!! and he's got a lady out in town, he told me if I saw him with his "other' lady friend !!!!??? nope !!! brother man's a Pimp Status Freedom Driver !!! and this is how I was able to come back !!! with the use of Steve's GF gas can, his contribution to fill up the 2 gal gas can, driving back the rest stop to Give me the gas, the loose change that Steve found in his SUV because his GF told him that his SUV was Nasty and that he needed to clean out the stains and misc. dirt, (Steve said, it was from his grandschildren when he let his son use his SUV) I believe him !! and he showed me the stains, honestly it looked like a brand new SUV !!!! it was Clean, shiny, nothing inside !!! barely... nothing obvious nor advertising that you live out of you car look !!!! yep, we know the look !!! I know I need to Fine Tune !! most likely I'm going to give away to nephs and brother and to try to sell it at Plato's Closet.... oh yeah, it was Steve, Steve's GF, Randy, and Plato's Closet that helped me get back to DuPage County IL..... after the Homemade Feast from Steve's GF, I knew it was time for me to go, my Time is Done Here !!! I Forever Thanked Steve, for the Knowledge, Spare Change and the 2 gal of gas, and the companionship and conversation we had during my stay, Thanked Steve's GF for the wonderful homemade feast, with the ice cold canned diet Coke !!! and I was off !!! took the back "Wrong" exit out, there was a gravel road path for the maintenance crew that leads out back to the "Frontage Road" leading to the gas station, closest, and I wouldn't have to drive 4 miles West to make a UTurn back !! Every mile counted !!!
Got my gas !!! cashed in all the change, it was about $23 and some change worth of gas, and I was on my way !!! got better directions through Steve to go around St. Louis So, I went 70 E, 370 E, then 270 E and then 55 N to Chicago... while I was on 55 North, I knew I wasn't going to make it all the way !!! Sooo, Holy Spirit says, Hey, Try Plato's Closet !!! So, when I had to go to the banio at the next rest stop, I called up 411, and asked them if there was a Plato's Closet in Springfield, IL, There Was !!!! YESSSS !!! I made sure I got the number too !!! just to confirm it's still open and the directions from 55 ...
I brought my whole "Cool" work out shirts and a pair of my "Ancient Chinese" Converse Chuck Taylors, which I had many compliments... there was a few scuff marks but, I just put them in the bag... when up to Plato's Closet chatted it up with the employees there, and wanted to Hype up the clothes a lil bit !!! they took 2 shirts and the Chuck Taylor's !!! for about $9.60 hey, I was hoping for about at least $20 worth of clothing but, $9 is good !!! so, got the $9.60 and went to get some gas down the street, I had some extra change, and so I had $10.06 to pay for gas and paid the lady, the gas nozzle stopped at $10 even... I said, Wha ??? I have 6 cents left baby !!! ??? C'mon Now !!! so I went back to the lady and told her what happened to that 6 cents ??? she said, you still want that 6 cents in gas ?? I said, hell yeahhh, every cent counts, I'm trying to get back to Chicago !!! she told me, "You Ain't Going to Chicago with only $10", I just said, Bye and Thank You and was laughing the way to the gas nozzle to get ready to pump 6 cents worth of gas !!! I was ready baby !!! I had the handle in one hand and the hose in the other, I was raising up the hose going up n down maximizing the flow of gas of 6 cents !!! I was laughing sooo hard !!! I had fun with it !!!! ok, let's roll baby !!! during my drive to DuPage County I even rolled up the windows so I could have better Wind Resistance !!!! I only had barely a crack open for some air !!! WithOut !!! AC !!! So, my ass was sweating inside, like a moving sauna !!! it was a hot, warm too, day !!! 90's maybe ?? Yeah !!! I went as far as that !!!!! I knew I was going to make it back !!!!! Note, I haven't showered in maybe 5-6 days ?? it was hot, humid = sweaty, caked on funkness, being trapped at a rest stop !! Sooo, coming back on a Friday evening on my favorite Pads Site !!!! OMG !!! I was soooo looking forward for that shower !!!! I was just envisioning the whole thing, coming into a well AC place, getting another Feast of a meal, with hot coffee, deserts and a movie, a Cool, Chilled, Shower !!! My face was still radiating from the sun a lil bit, and it felt absolutely amazing !!!! good perfect pressure on the shower nozzle !!! having my beard nice and lathered up and conditioned, having my whole body scrubbed and clean and refreshed !!!! It was Absolutely Heaven !!!! Thank You !!! wow !! to then where brand new boxers and a brand new clean white t-shirt !!!! I was Pure Bliss !!! While everyone was eating I was still satisfied with the feast I had ealier, so the food portion wasn't a priority, the Shower Was !!!! I just envisioned me getting to the side, walking right into the showers, (usually there's a long list) but, since I got there write in the middle of Dinner, no one was in the showers !!! So I walked right in, got out, had some bbq chicken, salad, devil'd eggs then had some Italian Ice !!! first time I had that !! it was good !!! I prefer ice cream !!! but, New is always good for me !!! and had some delicious homemade deserts while I had cold whole milk and coffee while watching a good movie !!!!! Now, is this Heaven On Earth or What ??????? I was just closing my eyes in full absolute appreciation !!!!! Thank You !! Thank you, Thank you, I made it, I made it, I made it, !!!!! Wow !!!! I had the best night sleep ever !!!! last night !!! mmmmmmm !!! AC was on, had some fleece covers to keep you warm, had a nice fluffy pillow, my ear plugs !!! note there's about 50 or more men that I'm sleeping next to or nearby and we do have some serious "Purrers"(snorers).... I was knocked out within about 15 min !!! Bam !!! Lights Out For Me !!!!
See, I've noticed that times that seems I'm not doing well (from the outward perspective) was the most growing times in my entire life !!!! Wow !!! I'm going to try to list them here:
- 1990 living in mom's apartment complex garage Roseville, CA
- 1995 living in sister's house garage where she parks her car !!! Mundelein, IL
- then sleeping in Suziki Samuri and in parks during the day while working Security at nights,
- 1998-2000, After I quit Hewitt Associates, took out all of my Retirement Funds and went to do Equinox International Full-Time and made Director-2 weeks later the Company Closed !!!! then I was literally released everything, and was in Lake County Pads (Homeless Shelter). It was here that I knew that I could go through Anything and Be Absolutely Fine !!!! Holy Spirit was whisperring "Join the Marine Corps".... and I was accepted to apply !!! type deal, I was qualified to be accepted !!! for Marine Corps Boot Camp in San Diego !!!
- Feb.2000, Marine Corps Boot Camp, 2 months in Pork Chop Platoon and 3 Months of Real Marine Corps Training !!! 5 Months of Boot Camp !!!!! 1st Ones into Pakistan in Oct, 2001 and in Afghanistan on my Birthday Nov, 25th, 2001, Camp Rhino Afghanistan, Marine Corps Base Camp, had a real live fire missions with our 60mm mortars. Recieved numerous awards and medals.
- 2011 Summer & 2012 Summer Now DuPage County Pads (after releasing job and immediate environment that was no longer serving me).
- 2011 after realizing that the Holy BA Grail was just BS and a Myth !!!! I was still doing shit work and refused to do what I absolutely had a passion for !!!!! I released my temp job and my immediate environment and was first time with DuPage Pads, it was during this time I was getting in shape, working out and doing what I love and was having the best time of my life !!! I was working out 10am-6pm and then eating and sleeping at night, I was a professional getting in shaper, then I think it was about this time last year that while I was playing bags (my favorite game) I was asked if I wanted to work that night !! as a bouncer / doorman etc.... and shit, I was living the life of a king, shit, why not a part-time job ??? so I was working at the Lodge at 4 Lakes, Lisle, IL late Aug 2011 to June 28th 2012 Every Fri, Sat and Sun !!!! I had the Time of My Life Working There !!!! and Yes, it's the Secret Gem in DuPage County possibly the whole IL or even the World !!!!! No Joke brotha !!! Volleyball Courts, Ski Hill, Lodge, Pub, Bar, Dancing, Alcohol, Hot Chicks in Bikinis, pool patio, pool party's, pool party's with hot chicks playing bags with Awesome Dance Music !!!! Brotha Man !!! Brotha Man !!!! I was having the Time of My Life !!! plus I was In Shape !!! Daaaamn, I Had a Very Masculine and Beautiful Body !!! Buffed Out, lean and cut !!!! OH Snappp !!!!! Let's just say, I was loving and living life to the Absolute Fullest !!!!!! I love the human species espeically the female human species !!!! I appreciate it All the Creations of the Infinite Divine Creator Almighty !!!!! Wow !! I think I went a lil bit overboard on this... hey, it's all good !!! We all been there !!!!
- 2012, after releasing Lodge job and immediate enviornment, Really Wanting a Change, a Transformation and a Total Human Metamorphosis !!!!! I've had it with the Old Self !!! Had it with the Environment and Beings that are not of my Best Interest and not for my Highest Good.... and by now I know a lil bit more about myself !!! that with me, Environment Is The Holy Grail For Me !!!! Everything !!! People, Friends, Family, Work, Co-Workers, Place, Business, the Whole EVERYTHING !!!! I wanted a Whole Everything Transplant !!!!! Where Everything and Everyone Is Not Only New but, Is OF For My Highest Good, To Help Better Myself, that will help better myself !!!! I want to be Healthy, Mind, Body and Spirit !!! I want to be a Divine Warrior of the Universe !!!! What Infinite Divine Master Creator Had In Mind When He Created Us !!!! his Sons and Daughters !!!!
"what's the point of that ??? you're still going to eat back the calories you burn !!!" See, Shit like that !!!! I Know I was in the WRONG PLACE WITH the WRONG ROOMMATE!!!! I also know that with Me ??? I tend to Learn the Wrong Way !!!!!??? YOU TOO ??? I Give Him/Her the benefit of the doubt, My Instict was No !!! Don't be roommates, do something, say something, but don't move in with him... but, winter was coming, and Chicago winters tend to be a lil bit chilly, nippy and snowy !!! and told myself just for the winter and then I'm out... note that I was working at the Lodge PT, having the time of my life, but, it was slowly affecting me, dealing with the drunks, getting hassled for the cover charges, breaking up fights, having drunks offering me and basically forcing me to drink, well, I take that back, not forcing me !!! Buuuuut, I know me, if it's right there in your face !!! shot ready in hand, here Oscar let's do a shot, Yeah, this is what I'm talking about my environment.... Then it got to the Point 'Where I was Done-Done !!! I couldn't nor I wanted to do my job there anymore, I didn't want to socialize nor be seen (means I would have to come up to them and say hi) it wasn't that I didn't want to talk to them, I was just done with the Whole Alcohol Scene & Environment !!! oh brother I could go on and on and on !!! The Universe was screaming Get Out-Get Out Now !!!! You Must Do What Makes You Absolute Joyous and Happy !!! and that was of my Artwork and being a part of the Spiritual Community that was in, Fri, Oneness Meditation, Give Peace a Dance, Kirtans, Divine Dancing, Chi Ka Go, Synthesis, Bodhi Spiritual Center, I needed to get back to the Source !!!!! and to Focus Strictly Only on ME !!!!!! Me Myself and I !!!! I found myself Unhappy & Overweight !!!!! and since June 28th, 2012 was the last day of the Lodge and July 15, 2012 was the last day with roommate, I know I might of said this in an early post, As soon as I closed my roommates door for the last time, "WE BOTH" said (both meaning me and Holy Spirit), "Chapter is Officially Closed right as soon as the door closed and latched and locked.... it was a sense of Relief and Appreciation that I'm Back On Track Now !!!! That my surroundings, people, friends, family the whole Shabang Environement is Absolute Key that will make or break my transformation and my metamorphosis !!!!
Haaa, just remember the night where E's (roommate) and his friend "Beagle" well, I do know Beagle and do consider a friend but, he's been a friend longer with E... anyways, they come boligerant drunk !!! Loud, obnoxious, I was awoken up, and just layed down looking at the ceiling, fuck, this is sooo not worth it.... Then I got a knock on the door, since I was already up, I actually answered and E told me for me to take a look at Beagle, to see whether or not he should go to the hospital, I went to the kitchen area, Beagle was at the sink, standing up, his long ass hair covering his sides of the face, as soon as he looked at me, I immediately said, "Where's the Keys' we're going Now !!!" Beagle's Left Eyeball Was BLACK !!!!! and there is a half inch of of forehead skin flapping up and down, I saw red skullish flesh, while blood is just pouring down his face !!!! I'm alright, I'm alright, All I need is Ice !!! where's your Ice ??? Dude, we're going now !!! I was the only sober one there !!! So, I went to put my jeans on, and by the time I was ready, Beagle Left The Building !!!!! Not Only did he left the building he left the area, we couldn't find him !!!! it was a chilly night and we thought he was going to try to walk home, he lives about 5-7 miles !!! Me and E was looking for him for about 15 min going up n down the parking lot, checking the lake area, going back to the Lodge area, we were this close of calling the police to help find him to let them know what had happened !!!! I said, let's check your place one last time and sure enough he was there on the balcony !!! Beagle !!!! let's go !!! Beagle was insistant that I take him home, note Beagle was Drunk Drunk, sooo, he'd say Take Me Home, NO HOSPITAL !!! then I say, ok-ok-.... Home, Home.... yeahhh, no way in hell he's going home, being dead in the morning, not on my watch !!!! So we finally got him in the front passenger seat, oh brother, this was scary as hell.... Once Beagle knew that we were going the the wrong way and on the way to the hospital, he was trying to get out of the SUV while going around 40 mph !!!!! I had one hand on the steering and the other hand on the door locking buttons, making sure he doesn't get out, I was trying to open the door, up n down, up n down, !!!! I was going through Red Lights !!! I said, "Where are the Cops when you need them !!!" I was speeding and running red lights left and right !!!! Whewww, we finally made it to the Emergency Entrance !!!! as soon as it went in park, I just sat there, with a Huge Ass Relief Sigh !!!!!! Whewwwwwwwww !!!!! We made it !!! I knew everything will be alright !!!!! then E, escorted Beagle to front Emergency Desk, and Basically Scared the Living Day & Night Lights Out of that Nurse !!!!!! Oh shit !!! E' told me that it was the most Funniest Thing He'd Ever Seen in his life !!!! a living Human Sasquatch (his hair is like 3ft+ long!! with a bout an inch of square patch L shaped skin, dangling and flapping up n down, with forhead skull visable, blood oozing down... Yeah !!!! that was a night to remember and to not have happen again !!!!! ok, it's 3:19pm now, been writing here for a while, going to publish this post already !!!!
Whewww. ... break time !!!! BBL, be back later !!!! DWU/Oz
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
at exactly 2:22pm today, I'll be on my way to the Cahokia Mounds !!!!
Yes, it's Absolutely Amazing How you get/hear/knowing exact instructions to what to do, where to go NEXT !!!!! I have about $9.92 on my debit card and $16 in cash bills and maybe around $3-$5 in quarters/change from last laundry wash !!! I'll be going to the Cahokia Mounds in about 9 minutes... So, my words here will be quick and short... the GP (game plan) is to Go to the Cahokia Mounds which is 275 miles/ 5 hour drive !!! Wow !! sort of like when I went to Fairfield, IA to go to the Mediation capitital of the world !!!! on Transcendental Mediation !!!! So, this is it !! the Pre-Body/Mind/Spirit Metamorphosis !!!! most likely I will have only enough $$ to get there !!!! until Sept. 1, 2012 at 12midnight, that is when I will recieve some $$ through the VA into my account. I do have Food Stamps in the form of a Link Card !!! I believe I have at least $50 worth of food left, so I'll be good with the food !!! mostly tuna, water and salad !!! 2:17pm now, 5 more min, going to close down shop here at my spot at the College of DuPage, go turn in 2 books at the Lisle Library, Steering by Starlight by Martha Beck and Unlimited Power by Tony Robbins !!! get a lil bit of gas so I can get out of the area (usually cheaper gas) when you're in the "country" !!! and then get as much gas as I can with the money that I have, I'm shooting for the Cahokia Mounds but, Infinite Divine Universe might have another route for me on my trip !!! Most Likely I won't be coming back till Sept. 1... when I get paid... Namaste, Infinite Love and Gratitude !!! it's 2:21pm and as soon as it hits 2:22pm I'm going to publish and close down here and GO !!! ... much love !!! ok, it's 2:22pm now !!! bye !!!!
Cool !!! just Deactivated My Facebook Pages !!!!
yes, all is well !!!! feels good deactivating something that 99% doesn't truly really serve me !!!!! the 1% would be msgs from friends & family !!! to keep in touch.... Well, it's only deactivating the account a whole lot different than deleting the whole account which I was going to do... but, I think it would be best if I just deactivate for a while !!!! well, that also means that the Divinitus Warrious Universalis FB Page is also deactivated !!! well, if you're going to find you'll be able to find me... just google my name !!! and do some noisy browsing and you'll definitely find this blog !!! Yep, this is the one, the other blog, I'm using it for video's but, I will try to use this one for Everything !!!
This will be my last week with Pads !!!! Yep, it's official, I had made up my mind, after this week !!! the physical fitness training will begin !!!! this will include only Xsport Group Excerise and Basketball !!!!
will be starting up the 1st class at 5:30am and work out till pass out !!!! will just to brink of passing out !!!! I have zero need to be with Pads anymore !!! I'm just not feeling it anymore !!! I have everything that I need !!! I will mostl likely go to the Fri site !!! because, I just love it !!!! People, Food, movie !!! get to shower chill, get new socks and boxers !!!! so, let's do this !!!! I'm ready !!!
Aug 18th Sat Morning, will start up the Body Phase !!!! So that means today Tues-Wed-Thurs-Fri will be the last of the Pads !!! you know what, let's just go all out !!! depending on how I feel !!! on Fridays !!! I can really consum some good amounts of protein and get some good rest !!!! we'll see !!! maybe just Fridays until the 1st !!!! then Jakked will be in the picture !!! Oh snap !!! it's on now !!!! oh yeah, I did apply for the Vipassana Meditation in late Sept, we'll see if I will be accepted !!! that would be Awesome !!! it's Being Silent for 10 days !!! Sept. 26 - Oct 7, 2012 !!!! that would be Absolutely Amazing !!!! give me an opportunity to get some rest and to rebuild the body !!! I'll find out in about 2 weeks !!! I'm guessing YES !!! but, it's not official !!! luckily there is more females that are signed / applied than males, I think there's a waiting list until Oct/Nov !!! for the ladies while this Sept. coming up one, males were able to sign up and apply.... we'll see, it's only in Infinite Divine Timing !!!! All good !!!!
This week, Read, write, and maybe an episode of Ancient Aliens !!! This show really opens up my mind and to catch up on one of my past passions !!! UFO's, Aliens, and the Supernatural !!!! then starting this Sat Morning Xsport !!!! SAT SUN etc..... until Sept. 1sth, then will impliment Jakked into the program !!!! it's on now !!!!
This will be my last week with Pads !!!! Yep, it's official, I had made up my mind, after this week !!! the physical fitness training will begin !!!! this will include only Xsport Group Excerise and Basketball !!!!
will be starting up the 1st class at 5:30am and work out till pass out !!!! will just to brink of passing out !!!! I have zero need to be with Pads anymore !!! I'm just not feeling it anymore !!! I have everything that I need !!! I will mostl likely go to the Fri site !!! because, I just love it !!!! People, Food, movie !!! get to shower chill, get new socks and boxers !!!! so, let's do this !!!! I'm ready !!!
Aug 18th Sat Morning, will start up the Body Phase !!!! So that means today Tues-Wed-Thurs-Fri will be the last of the Pads !!! you know what, let's just go all out !!! depending on how I feel !!! on Fridays !!! I can really consum some good amounts of protein and get some good rest !!!! we'll see !!! maybe just Fridays until the 1st !!!! then Jakked will be in the picture !!! Oh snap !!! it's on now !!!! oh yeah, I did apply for the Vipassana Meditation in late Sept, we'll see if I will be accepted !!! that would be Awesome !!! it's Being Silent for 10 days !!! Sept. 26 - Oct 7, 2012 !!!! that would be Absolutely Amazing !!!! give me an opportunity to get some rest and to rebuild the body !!! I'll find out in about 2 weeks !!! I'm guessing YES !!! but, it's not official !!! luckily there is more females that are signed / applied than males, I think there's a waiting list until Oct/Nov !!! for the ladies while this Sept. coming up one, males were able to sign up and apply.... we'll see, it's only in Infinite Divine Timing !!!! All good !!!!
This week, Read, write, and maybe an episode of Ancient Aliens !!! This show really opens up my mind and to catch up on one of my past passions !!! UFO's, Aliens, and the Supernatural !!!! then starting this Sat Morning Xsport !!!! SAT SUN etc..... until Sept. 1sth, then will impliment Jakked into the program !!!! it's on now !!!!
Monday, August 13, 2012
Aug 13th, 2012 to Aug 13th, 2013 Entering Into the Cocoon !!!!!!!
Here We Go !!!!! I'm Ready !!!! Cell, FB, Media, Internet FREE (exception of posting my words unto this blog) Internet Surfing FREE !!!!! Yep, this is it !!!! YouTube Free !!!! it's been a long time coming, spent Sat & Sun at my brothers watching the kids !!! So, I'm have Zero Commitments and Appointments !!! it's just me and Infinite Divine !!!! This is It !!! I shaved my head today !!!! top hair is gone !!! I feel like with a shaved head, I feel more Hardcore and Badass !!!! I just want to look as different as possible !!! I don't want to see anyone nor be seen by anyone !!!! Just like the pic above !!!!! My Metamorphosis !!!! The only website I will go on will be this one My Journey to Human Metamorphosis -2 the Extreme !!!! So here we go !!! from now till Sept. 1, 2012, will be writing my book at COD and give updates with this blog !!! that is It !!!! going to turn off CELL, and pretend FB doesn't exist for me anymore !!! I did create a Divinitus Warrious Universalis Facebook Page !!! so there is an Avenue to Find Me and to find out what's currently happening with me !!! You'll find it Only if you look !!! Well, if you're reading this !! You FOUND ME !!!!!! Oscar Zepeda will be Mortophosizing into Divinitus Warrious Universalis !!! As of right this second, I have $15 and a few dollars worth of change in my car and bags, I will be paying some dues on the 28th of Aug, $17, and I'm about 2 millmeters above the "E" Red Gas Gauge Meter !!! So, my driving will be very very limited !!! for the remainder of the month !!! I do have a gas voucher coming up at the end of the month, but, until then, this will be the perfect opportunity for me to write some Divine Inspired Words here in this blog and to write at least 11 pages per day for my book !!!! I'm just going to have the intention of just to write/type/channel Infinite Divine's words at least 11 pages per day via this laptop on Microsoft Word. So even though I'll be inside the cocoon, I'll be able to write and document what's happening !!! and I can assure you that I will not get ambushed by some rogue media news !!!! it's this Blog and Microsoft Word for the book !!! and that is it !!!!
My intention from Now to Sept. 1, is to write, write and write and read too !!!!!!!! that's all I can do right now, until I get paid on the 1st, from Sept. 1 on, will be a member at Jakked Gym and Xsport Fitness and will be focussing on the Body Phase !!!! I'm ready !!! So I have roughly 2 weeks of Mental Preparedness !!! On what exactly I want to change, transform and Metamorphosize !!!!! and to plan and Create My DAYS !!!!!! I'm going to pretend I'm Already Retired !!!!! Which is True !!!! i'm FREE !!!! let's just pretend I'm retired with $243 pension per month for life !!! with $170 in food stamps !!! Zero Rent or Expences other than Gas and Gym Dues & IPass misc.... so Sept. it's going to be starting up the Body Metamorphsosis Phase!!!!!!!! and will be Resting Inside my 4 wheeled driveable camper !!!! aka my Saturn !!!!! planetary baby !!!! yes, I must close myself out from any type of behavior that no longer serves me, aka smoking, theres a quite a bit of smokers with the Pads members and I don't want to see nor be around, plus !!! I know I'm going to working out later than 7pm !!!!! see being in Pads you have to be There at the site by 6:30pm and the lottery goes on at 7pm sharp, if you get picked you sign in, pick out your pad and get some dinner, and relax, laydown, meditate on your pad or do some reading at the table and we usually wake up at 6am for breakfast and grab your bagged lunch and be on your way !!! usually by 7am everyone should be gone !!! I'm usually out by 6:45-7am in the morning !!! So, starting Sept. 1, 2012 when I'll be doing my Group Excercises with Xsport and my Body Building training at Jakked, I know I'll be on my OWN-Own !!!!! Zero Interaction with the Pads Community, well, I know that my Fridays is my Favorite Site !!! in Naperville, so maybe as a refresh and rebuilding by eating massive amounts of protien and salad !!! or as much as I can consume !!!! Yes, I'm ready !!! I have 2 weeks !!!! till Sept. 1, 2012 !!!! I'm sooo ready for this !!!! my Environement will be Forest Preserves, Xsport, Jakked, Dahn Yoga aaaaand that's about it, and College of DuPage, where I can do my writing !!!!! only on my days off !!!!! My main focus is to breakdown and rebuild the body !!!!! 16 hrs a Day !!!!!! and rest the remainder rest and rebuild !!!!
Even on my rest days, I will be in meditation in the Sauna, Jacuzzi, Jet Stream Pool, and steam room !!! So, it's all about the body !!! Also Starting Sept 1, 2012 !!!!! WATER ONLY !!!!!! or Will Be Drinking ONLY WATER !!!!!!! Coffee, sodas, pops, teas, FREE !!!!!! just straight up H2o !!!!! to the Absolute Fullest !!!!
I will be doing some massive running !!!!! I have about 5-6 pairs of gym/basketball shoes !!!! and I want to wear out the treading/ soles until they have holes in them !!!!!!! or wore down all the traction !!!! Water, Fish, Salad !!!!! or as Operation Osmin Says Fish, Sala, Wata !!!!! if you haven't seen an Operation Osmin episode, it's a MUST SEE !!!! he's on YouTube !!!!!! it's Totally Awesome !!!!!
That's about it for now !!!!! it's 5:07pm now on a Monday, and will be heading out to the site at around 6sh, I'm soooo ready to zip up the cocoon !!!! it's been a long time coming !!! and it's finally here !!! Thank You !!!! Mom already knows that I'll be in the cocoon !!! I just feel I need to continue to do things very very drastic and dramatic and 2 the Extreme !!!!!!! Since I shaved my head, I thought about getting a tattoo on my head !!! haaa !!!! See, it's all me now !!! I'm the King !!! I'm the Boss !!!! I Am Everything !!!!! and it's ALL GOOD !!!!!! I can do whatever my heart desires !!!!! Tattoo my head !!!! I'm already planning on getting some major tattoos, it's been fermenting for a while now with that as well !!!! So, it's ALL Good !!! Metamorphosis means that you will not be able to recognize me from my old self !!!!! You couldn't even believe that's it's the Same Person Supposedly !!!!! I know I'll be a Totally Different Person !!! Every Cell will be Divinitus Warrious Universalis !!!!!! So, here we go !!! 1st Day of closing up the Cocoon !!! Thank You !!!! I'm Ready !!!! and this is Thee Final Attempt !!!!!! I think I must had about 6-8 Metamorphosis Attempts !!!!! Haaaa !!! I guess it wasn't time, but, I know now, that it's time !!!!! the Final Time !!!!! So, that's it for now......... Thank You !!! oh it's on now !!! It's All About ME, Myself and I NOW !!!! If I can Serve My Country for 4 1/2 yrs why can't I serve ME for 4 1/2 yrs ???????? Seems like that ever since I got out of the Marine Corps. The past post years of my Marine Corps enlistment, I haven't really been Absolute Serious about what, where I want my life to be. I was just letting it happen by default !!!! NO MORE !!!!! I Will Do Whatever I Want To Do and Go Whereve I Want to GO !!!! I Am Divinitus Warrious Universalis !!!!!!! a Divine Warrior of the Universe !!!!! I am a Bridge to Inspire, Lead and Teach By Example !!!!!!!! and in order for our World to get better, I Must Get Better !!!! I Must Change and Replace My Whole Past Environment and the beings inside the environment. How can you fully change, transform / metamorphosize being around people, friends & family, who only knows the "Old Self" of you !!!! ????? they also transmit the same vibration of the old self !!!! So, in reality, you must have NEW EVERYTHING !!!!! New habits, friends & family, place, the whole entire environment is KEY on Metamorphosizing into the Being that you've always wanted to be, become, transfrom into and metamorphize into being !!!!!!! and I've been learning this from the get go !!! I did attempt to change with the same people and environement !!!!! Hunhhhh !!!!! Yep, that was a Joke !!!!! I was working at a place where the things I wanted to change from was right smack in my face !!! and also going home to a person who "Isn't There", yet.... what I mean by that is, that he thinks that the Only Way to have the Best Time of Your Life is to drink massive amounts of alchohol !!!! Yep !!! Environment is Sooo Key With my transformation !!!! I was just done done !!!! I think Willie is gone from the Lodge !!!! I checked the Lodge's FB Page and it said, that Sundays is Ladies Dress to Impress and the Guys' just make sure your pants are up !!!! Sayyy Whaaa !!! Yep, Willie is gone my friend !!!! well, when I was working with him on Sundays, we had about 20 items of what you can & cannot where !!!! and we had to post the list on the doors and to regulate it !!!! and Willie always wanted us to tell the guys to rearrange their hats, scarfs, sunglasses !!! Yeah... you get the picture, and to see that guys only to have your pants up !!!! Well, he did say back in March/April that he's planning on leaving anyways, so, hey..... it was definitely quite an adventure !!!! So, I'm going to get ready to get some din-din and get some Zzzzz'z... and do some writing in the morning... on my book !!!! Infinite Love and Gratitude !!!! I'm In the Cocoon Baby !!!!! Divinitus Warrious Universalis (Oz)
Saturday, August 11, 2012
Aug 13, 3114 BC Is the Starting of the Mayan Calendar !!!!!!!
Wow, Whoa, Absolutely Amazing !!!!! that's My Start Date Of Me Going Into the Cocoon !!!!! in 2 more days Aug, 13, 2012 !!!!!!! I also seen other types of dates as well, Starting today Aug, 11 I guess it depends on what type of calendar, the Gregorian, Julian, etc.... in other words Today, Tommorow and My Official Start Date Aug 13, 2012, I know for a fact that it Was Not By Coincidence !!!!! Wow !!!! Honestly I wasn't really keeping track with the whole Mayan Calendar deal and hoopla, I know that the world will not end I just knew that part of the hoopla was not true but, the transformation and the evolving into a much higher Divine state will be true.... it's already happening right now !!!! I just have the knowing now, with time with the Infinite Divine !!!! Thank You !!!!! thank You !!! I was watching some of the early episodes of Ancient Aliens from the History Channel !!!!! on YouTube !!!!! Holy Moly !!!! My Mind Went Bonkers !!!!! Wow !!!! Whoa !!!!! this is the information that should've never been kept from the human species, also !!!! I watched the episode with Bigfoot and the Aliens !!! Wow !!! it really opened up my mind to understand Where and How We As a Human Species Came From !!!! I was blown away I would let you seek it out on your own, Haaa Better Yet Here it Is Aliens & Bigfoot !!!! it seems like every episode blew me away !!!!! I let you form your own conclusion or let you soak all of this in !!!!!!
Wow !!!! OK, Wow !!!! I'm going In !!! Tonight going to Glen Ellyn, eat some motivated dag gone chow and then in the morning to some writing and then go to my brothers house to do some baby sitting or more like watching over them and spending some time with them !!!! There soooo Amazing !!!!! I love sooo much !!!!!
I'm just thinking about what's happening with ME !!!! What's Really Going On With Me ???? Right Now !!!!! Why Do I Have the Extreme Urge to Not Be Seen & Not To See Anyone !!!! I just want to be all Alone !!!! Sometimes I feel like I want to hide my face !!!! while I'm driving around town because I know sooo much people in the area !!!! and I don't want to be called to, or be seen !!! and bottom line I don't want to "chat" with them !!!! Yeah, it's Crazy what's happening with me right now !!! and I know it's just more than "Middle Life Crisis" !!!! It's Sooo Much More !!!! I'm coming out of the cocoon in years time !!!! (might make an exception to see my nephews football and basketball games) we'll see !!!! all I know is that I'm going inside and shutting out everything !!!! just me and Infinite Divine Universe !!!!!
And it's zero coincidence that beginning date of the Mayan Calendar Aug, 13, 3114 BC just so happened to be My Metamorphosis date of Aug 13, 2012 !!!!!! Wow !!!!! I'm still blown away, just found out the dates about an hour ago !!!! speaking of time, I must go now to my place right now.....
Much Love, Infinite Love and Gratitude, Divinitus Warrious Universalis (Oz)
Wow !!!! OK, Wow !!!! I'm going In !!! Tonight going to Glen Ellyn, eat some motivated dag gone chow and then in the morning to some writing and then go to my brothers house to do some baby sitting or more like watching over them and spending some time with them !!!! There soooo Amazing !!!!! I love sooo much !!!!!
I'm just thinking about what's happening with ME !!!! What's Really Going On With Me ???? Right Now !!!!! Why Do I Have the Extreme Urge to Not Be Seen & Not To See Anyone !!!! I just want to be all Alone !!!! Sometimes I feel like I want to hide my face !!!! while I'm driving around town because I know sooo much people in the area !!!! and I don't want to be called to, or be seen !!! and bottom line I don't want to "chat" with them !!!! Yeah, it's Crazy what's happening with me right now !!! and I know it's just more than "Middle Life Crisis" !!!! It's Sooo Much More !!!! I'm coming out of the cocoon in years time !!!! (might make an exception to see my nephews football and basketball games) we'll see !!!! all I know is that I'm going inside and shutting out everything !!!! just me and Infinite Divine Universe !!!!!
And it's zero coincidence that beginning date of the Mayan Calendar Aug, 13, 3114 BC just so happened to be My Metamorphosis date of Aug 13, 2012 !!!!!! Wow !!!!! I'm still blown away, just found out the dates about an hour ago !!!! speaking of time, I must go now to my place right now.....
Much Love, Infinite Love and Gratitude, Divinitus Warrious Universalis (Oz)
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