Going Inside and Closing the Metamorphsis Cocoon !!!!

8/24/12 Fri COD, 2:14pm  , Glen Ellyn, IL

I’m writing this in Microsoft Word 1^st while I’m downloading the YouTube Vid’s, for some reason I can’t write in my Blog at the same time I’m downloading vid’s on YouTube, I have 2 different accounts with multiple logins so, I’m just going with the flow it and just write here first and then when I’m done downloading the vid’s on YouTube, I’ll just copy and paste it unto the Blog and Bam Publish It !!!!!   Wow !!!  What an Incredible Day I’ve Been Having !!!!   I love my life !!!!   Adventure to the Absolute Fullest !!!!    I absolutely making those videos for you and I !!!!   I love it !!!  It definitely makes me laugh !!!  and I know that I’m a natural !!!!!   because I love Nature !!!!  to the Absolute Fullest !!!!!   Maybe I can have my Own Show On Nat Geo !!!!  maybe down the line !!!  Who Knows they can see how much I love Nature !!!!!   and the Universe !!!!!  

I called up mom !!!  we chatted for a lil bit, she’s doing good which I knew she is !!!!  and I could sense that we both were thinking about each other !!!   it’s all good !!!!   I told just a few things about my travels and with the VA !!!!!   So the Ministry of Hope in Downers Grove, IL was a No Go with the Gas Vouchers, it had to be On the actual day or after !!!  8/26/12 was the day which is a Sunday !!!  and they’re close on Sun, Sooooo I can get them on Monday !!! it’s all good !!!  I’ve been in this situation Many, Many, Many Times !!!!  NO GAS & NO $$$ !!!!  and I’m about to hit the E mark and I want to see my nephews games this weekend !!!   Fan = Baseball and Kooks = Football, sooooooo I’m going to Plato’s Naperville to sell my Sweet Ass Hat !!!  and a Shirt aaaand there is a 2^nd Time Weight Equipment shops where I can sell the bars that I have… used for a weight machine…… I just want about $20 where I can be able to GET There and Back !!!!  and on Mon get the Gas Vouchers !!!!   Whewww… it’s 2:30pm now, I’m downloading some Amazing Video’s even as I write here !!! So, there, after that !!!  I’m going to go to my brothers in the morning to see Fan’s game and then most likely hang out the weekend !!!   and see Kooks game on Sun = and most likely go home either Sun night or Mon Morn ???   We’ll See ???  All is Good !!!!  So, there !!!  Life on the Absolute Edge !!!!!!!    Sooo, right after the vids’ are downloaded  and copy and paste my words here unto my blog !!!  I’m going to get goin, Plato’s Closet or the 2^nd Wind Equipment and there’s another weights fitness shop there that I can hawk my wares !!!!!   for Gas to See My Nephs Games Tomorrow and on Sun !!!!   it’s On Baby !!!!   I love my life !!!!   Wooop-Wooop !!!!

C’mon Sept !!!!!   At the Same Time !!!!! I’m Soooo Loving the Now !!! Tonight will be the last night at the Naperville Pads Site, they are going to be going ALL OUT !!!!  I remember last year, they had large Steaks, with their own band playing for us !!!  It was Absolutely Amazing !!!!  and Beautiful and a Beyond Feast !!!!!!!   this will be the last night until next year !!!!   I always love being at that site !!!!  I Absolutely Do !!!!   Beautiful People and Spirit there !!!!   and they goooo All Out !!!! and they have Very Friendly and quite a bit of Volunteers !!!!!    and I definitely want to get there a bit early just to cherish every moment there !!!!  Wow !!! You wouldn’t expect anyone to say something like that ????  Right ???  it’s a Homeless Shelter Site !!!!!!   ok, the 2^nd to the last vid is almost done, so, just an FYI,

Ok, it’s about that time !!! Wow !!! I was just watching my own videos !!!!  I Absolutely Love Them !!!!!!!  and  I know You will too !!!!!    I have labeled them yet, another time when I have a lil bit more time, as for now now !!!  I’m about to copy and paste these words unto my blog and then click on publish and be out !!!   to get some Gas $$ !!!!   Much Love to You and Every Living Cell, molecule and creature from the Earth and Beyond !!!!!   Thank You !!!  Divinitus

8/28/2012 Tues, 3:19pm, COD TEC Lounge

9/04/2012 Tues, 2:08pm COD TEC Lounge, 

This time I’m actually writing here, in the MP’s Microsoft Word Style, I was planning on writing live on my blog, but the internet is actin up right now,  all good, so I’m writing here on my Word Doc and then when internet is up, I’ll copy and paste my words to my blog !!!!   sound good !???  

You definitely have to check out my recent video clips !!!! Wow !!! I was actually touched and empowered to hear my own words and quite funny !!!!   serious !!!  I laughed quite a few times and actually got a few bursts of Goosebumps !!!! Wow !!!!  Intense, Powerful, also loved the one with my neph and niece !!! Wow !!! they are sooo precious !!!!    I love life, I love my life, I love everything !!!! Thank You for everything !!!!   Last night I was staying at the Winfield “Church” shelter site and I wasn’t able to go to sleep, I woke up at around 2am sh and I got the left over of the coffee which I politely asked if I can micro wave it, and sat at the table just sitting starring outside through the half covered windows, I saw some lightning strikes or the flashes when the lightning are behind the clouds…. I was just in Great Appreciation, I was planning and visualizing my life and the upcoming month, or This Month !!!!  what I wanted and needed to do today, 1^st thing, to pay for my membership dues for Xsport !!!!!   So, the next time I would have to pay is Oct. 28^th, 2012 !!!!   My man Henessey was there, I wasn’t expecting a full crowd at 7am sh !!! I was pleasantly surprised Wow !!! While I was waiting for my receipt which seemed to take a long time, I was looking with appreciation at this lady running on the treadmill, Wow !!! She’s Pretty !!!  I said, to myself and audibly, I was just looking at everyone here !!!    Being Active, Working Out at 7am !!!  Most people are just getting up in the morning !!!  and I was just in Great Appreciation that I too will be a part of this environment !!!!   working out, moving, sweating, playing basketball, everything !!!!   Wow !!!!   Also I’ll be around people that appreciates their life and body and being active, giving priority and having discipline to come in the morning to run and work out…. I was like in a trance almost, I only was watching her arms go back n forth !!!  Really !!!  haaa !!! the console was there, hello !!!!  all good, I don’t have to defend or prove anything !!  I love the human body and being human !!!!  and I do appreciate Everything  !!!! wow !!! and Whoa !!!!  So, I took care of Xsport this morning, which was a great feeling and to see that it’s pretty packed in the morning hours …… I know that the time has come for me to have the rubber meet the road !!!!  for my transformation and metamorphosis !!!  The physical aspect, Mind, Body, and Spirit !!!!!    I had an incredible weekend, hung out with mom, Fri, Sat, Sun, Mon, I think it was Sat,Sun, Mon, jeesh, I don’t know, well, It didn’t seem that long, Sun we went to Bodhi Spiritual Center Chicago !!!  we made meditation !!! which is always an Awesome Feeling !!!  meditation starts EXACTLY at 10am and at 10:00am & 1 second they lock the doors !!!!!    They don’t play around !!!  you will not be let in !!!  which is totally and fully understandable, and then afterwards mom was doing the Oneness Blessings !!!   one of three !!!!  so, I received a Oneness Blessing from my own mother !!!  Which was soooo Amazing and Very Beautiful after her blessing she kissed my forehead and we hugged then I stayed for Prayer or aka Mind Treatment !!!!!  it’s all in the Mind !!!!!  I love my life !!!!  Thank You !!!  I got to see some very Beautiful Internal and Outward Spiritual Beings !!! for some reason I just smile and it makes me feel sooo good seeing people praising, worshiping, singing to the Infinite Creator, well, since I’m romantically attracted to the female species of humans, I especially love seeing the ladies praise, worship, sing, honor, giving thanks and appreciate with infinite gratitude !!!   I dooo, I truly doo, !!!  Awesome Hunh, I think I’m on to something !!!! ????   Well, right now, starting tonight !!!!!   12am midnight !!!! 9/05/2012 Wed, the Body Transformation / Metamorphosis will begin !!!  I will be honoring my mind, body and Spirit !!!   I will have some rules and regulations….My Rules and Regulations !!!! Here they are !!!:

1.      Only Water, either Hot, Room temp (which I believe is the best, it goes into your blood stream faster, b/c your body doesn’t have to cool or warm it up), or chilled..

2.      Seafood Only, mostly Tuna and the Sardines and King Oscar Products !!!!   last year my 1^st time trying King Oscar Special type of Seafood, some type of fish that was Soooo Delicous !!!!  maybe once a month having a treat of King Oscar !!!

3.      Salad, any type of RAW GREENS !!!!! & Raw Vegetables !!!!!  cut or blended (VitaMixed !!!) mom is using my VitaMix, she loves it !!! and she’s got the momentum going Big Time !!!!!  Blending Everything and making these Exotic and Super Healthy Smoothies !!!!!  and she’s using different products as well, like Maca ??  the SuperFood of the Incan Warriors !!!! Yeaaaahhhhh !!!!!!   Love It !!!!!   I will not waiver !!!  This is my Metamorphosis !!!! this is MY LIFE !!!!! 

4.      Xsport,  Jakked Gym, Dahn Yoga, Living Stone Church Aurora, IL,  Bodhi Spiritual Center Chgo, IL, Toastmasters Spiritually Speaking, Lisle, IL, Oneness Blessings,  Meditations, Wed Night Living Stone Service…. I’m Ready !!!!!  this is It !!!! I’m Ready Now !!! I know in the past I’ve said, numerous and and countless of times !!!! Haaa, hey, it’s all good my friend, the past year I was Mentally Getting Prepared for my Metamorphosis !!!! it’s ALL GOOD !!!!!  ALL GOOD !!!! I’m Sooo Looking forward on taking care of the physical body !!!!!  I’m Soooo Grateful for everything !!! Plan is to go to Naperville, IL Xsport, to 95% of the Group Exercise classes, almost everything !!!   and Dahn Yoga, for this month, starting Oct. I’ll be going to Jakked Gym in Montgomery, IL !!!  I donated my 800 Watt Speaker with wires and some heavy free weights, like the 100’s and some 50 lbs plates !!!  and some bars, etc…. I had to release the big heavy stuff !!! all good !!! I know I’ll be using them very very soon !!!!   All good, I release and I let go !!!!  that’s the GP as of right now…

That’s about it in a nutshell !!! I will not be using the homeless shelters, I will be fully sustainable !!!  The Universe is My Home  !!!!   I will wake up, refreshed and go to Xsport, Dahn Yoga, Xsport, till I can no longer stand up !!!   I will rest where Infinite Universe wants me to rest…. I will have everything I need for my Metamorphosis… as of right this second I’m between 280 lbs and 278.5 lbs !!!  let’s just say 280 lbs, I weighed myself over at mom’s 2 days ago !!!  I think it was those Incan Warrior Maca Powdered Truffles !!!!! and those Raw Green Smoothies from mom !!!  Mom’s On It !!!  She’s On It and She’s Got It !!!!!   with One with Infinite Divine !!!  I feel that I’m Good To Go !!!  Good to go and take care of me !!!!   where I’m focusing on me and my transformation and metamorphosis… I need More !!!  More Intensity, More Volume, More Fire !!!!   I told her that, I want to praise and worship with others with the same intensity and passion !!!   I want to Speak in Tongues Praising and Worshiping !!! Dancing, Raising of the Hands, Glorifying !!!  More Everything !!!!!!   I guess the old school days of being forced to go to church affected me…. My dad (papi) was from Chile, and I remember going to a “Spanish” Pentecostal Tongue Speaking, Tambourine Banging, Yelling,  Crying, Holy-Ghost Shaking, Passing Out on the Floor Power !!!!   Yesss It was Very Very Intense !!!   and I know that I’m being led back again…. The church that really had a huge impact was Abundant Life Fellowship in Roseville, CA !!!  Pastor Doug and Janice Bird !!!!!!   Love them !!!!!  Sooooooo Amazing !!! Pure Essence of God in the Flesh !!! Yes, I know that Science Based Religions Unity, Science of Mind, etc. doesn’t believe in the actual Satan/ Devil but, does believe the devil inside us our ego…. Not our true self which is One with Infinite God Universe !!!!!   that Heaven and Hell is Here on Earth !!!  hey, I’m not here to preach, I know what’s true for me !!!!  My Truth, My Core Beliefs, and I Honor ALL Paths !!!!!!!    that was our sermon was about !!!  from the Newly Appointed Reverend Darrel Jones from Bodhi Spiritual Center…. 

1.      Reveal Love  !!!!

2.      Honor ALL Paths  !!!!

3.      Celebrate Life   !!!!!!

These are the Bottom Lines of Bodhi Spiritual Center !!!  with me, I just want the Extra Umph !!!  the No Whole Bars !!!!  Getting Absolute On Fire For the Lord, and YESSS !!! Just like you’re Actually ON FIRE !!!!!!    I remember I used be bring a tambourine to church !!!!  I loved it !!! I remember Everyone Else Loved It Too !!!! Singing, Praising, Worshiping, Dancing !!!! Speaking in Tongues, Laying Hands of People, Praying,  Ahhhhhhhhh More, More, More, More, More !!!   I Need and Want More !!!!!  I Need and Want More !!!!  

That’s how I found about Living Stone Church in Aurora, IL !!!  just googled everything I could to find an “On Fire” Church !!!!   with Tongue Speaking, Holy Ghost Filled Worship and Praise, Dancing, the Whole Sha-Bang !!!!!!!   I want and need more  !!!!!  I want to praise and worship ALL Night !!!!!!    with having my clothes drenched with Holy Ghost Sweat !!!!  just being in the Spirit !!!!!!    Thank You !!!  Yes, I do love my Silence and Meditations but, I know I Want and Need More !!!!!    More Extreme  !!!!!   More Everything !!!  and Wow !!!!  my 1^st time there !!! they had an Altar Call !!! Bam !!!  I practically RAN UP THERE !!!!!!    Pastor Bird !!!!!  Love you Brother !!!!!  and Thank You for your Altar Calls !!!!!   Thank You !!!  then others came after me !!!  I was the 1^st one up there, I soo knew I was going to go up immediately if there was an altar call, without hesitation !!!  and sure enough !!!   Presto, then others came afterwards !!!  It was Beautiful and Divine !!! and I must add, there was a lady that “Instantly” caught my eye !!!  like I said, earlier there’s something about me seeing a lady praising and worshiping the Infinite Divine God Lord Master Artist Almighty !!!!! I saw her on the other side of the congregation, she was praising and worshiping like no one was there, just her and God !!!  Wow !!!!!  I was like Yessssss, Thank You !!!! and I started to shed some tears of appreciation of gratitude for everything that has happened and for what will happen…..  she was Absolutely Amazingly Beautiful !!!!   She looked like an Actual Divine Goddess !!!!!  and yes, she had a male buddy that was with her !!!!   Hey, I didn’t really look at that, I was just Appreciation of God’s Beautiful Creations !!!!  What really caught me was I was on my way out, and I guess she was on the stairwell and she was waving bye !!!  I thought she was waving bye to some people behind me !!!!   and so I looked back to see if she was really saying good bye to me !!!  I didn’t really believe it !!!  and waved back, then outside my going back to my car, she had a convertible beautiful car, With the license plates Spiritual 1 !!!!!!!!   Oh Snappp !!!!   I was in Heaven !!!!!  Wow !!!!  This is the Divine Goddess Being For Me !!!!!   she yelled out, something Awesome !!!!  I totally forgot what exactly, but, I was just in Dream Mode, Can’t Believe I’m Here Experiencing This Mode !!!!!!!   So everything with “Her” in it was definitely Hazy-Coming Back n Forth Into Consciousness !!!!  I love my life !!!

I’m definitely on the right path !!!!   Thank You !!!  I love my life Soooo Very Much !!! and I noticed that my Video Clips are getting my Powerful !!! just a few words I get goose bumps and that’s Me Listening To Me !!!!!   I know this guy !!!  I know is Mind !!!   Wow !!! Soooo, that’s about it right now !!!  I’m giving the Absolute Truth On What’s Happening With Me !!!!   As of right this second this is my Perfect Divine Plan !!!!  I will focus my Thoughts and Energies on this…. Xsport, Dahn, Living Stone, I’m thinking of getting some 25 lbs iron cast weights, I gave mine to Kooks my Neph, … that will definitely get me ready for the “Jakked Gym” coming in Oct 1, 2012 !!!   I need my Iron Cast Free Real Steel Weights !!!! not the Rubber Dealeo !!!  Nah-mean !!!!   Nah-Mean, it’s a slang, well, it’s supposed to be “Do You Know What I Mean ?”””” but, my cocoa-covered brothers say it, “Nah-Mean ??”  I know you heard of that term before.. ….ok, it’s 3:36pm now, 9/04/2012 Tues, My Last Night at the Pads Homeless Shelter Site, no more 7pm-7am, Wait, Smoke, Wait for your name, Wait in line for some Delicious Food !!!  Eat, Sleep, and Repeat !!!!  Honestly this HAS Been my Schedule for the Past couple months, Soo thus I was in Abundance and Over-Flowing !!!!  with Food, Deserts, Coffee, Milk, Muffens, Bagels, Doughnuts, Coffee Cake, Ice-Cream, ok, you get the picture !!!!   = 280 lbs !!!

And Starting tonight 12midnight, well, starting when I go to sleep at 8-9pm tonight, I’m in the Body Cocoon !!!  I’m going to implement my Boy Osmin !!!   if you don’t know who he is !!!  You Must YouTube Him !!!!!!! NOW !!!!   YouTube “Operation Osmin” !!!!!  Fiss, Sala, Wata !!!!!  and watch some of his episodes !!! OMG and OMD !!!!  he’s the Real Deal !!!!!    ok, so, since tonight’s going to be at St. Barnabas Church, it’s going to be an Early Card Call !!!  around 6sh, I’ll be there a bit early, and just soak everything up, maybe hang out with the crew !!!!  I’m thinking about getting a pack of smokes and some Cherry Cokes and just have a Smoking Cheery Coke Party !!!!!!  My last Hoorahhhh !!!!  Since there’s more than enough people who smoke and haven’t had an Ice Cold Can Coke in a while, I think I’ll do that,  we’ll see, I don’t want to be smoking at all !!! How about if I just think of Good Things for Everyone and just to be Me !!!   yesterday, people actually came up to me and to say that “You’re Feeling Happy Today” ???  or Peppy ???  or something good, and these are my co-homeless-buddies saying this !!!!  So I have the non-homeless and homeless community coming up to me asking why I’m soo happy ??? That’s Something to take note of !!!!   Wow !!!  and I know My Time Is About To End with the Homeless Shelters DuPage Pads Just Like My Time at the Lodge at Four Lakes !!!!!! Wow !!!  I knew it was coming !!!!  Thy Job Is Done !!!!  I have planted Many Seeds and Now It’s Time For Them To Take Root !!!!!  and Let the Universe Get a Hold of Them !!!!!    There are many friendships I had created during this time, Victor !!! I call him Victorious Victor !!!!!   He’s Awesome !!! he’s a Very Big Angel !!!!!    Sooo Cool, Loving and Friendly !!!!  and funny !!!   and many others !!! I know it’s time for me to go !!!!!  and I know that this will be my last day for a long while !!!!   I think I’ll do that !!!  get a pack of smokes and a case of Cherry Coke and have us a Smoking Cherry Coke Party !!!! How and Why is that !!!!????   Both Communities !!!  Ones who have “Homes” to sleep in and the Ones Who Don’t… What is a Home Anyway ????   If you’re a Work o’holic you only probably just Shit,  Shower & Shave !!!!  and that’s about it !!!!   Our world and environment is sooo vast with much variety.  See, with me, the Whole Universe is My Home !!!!  I’m Everywhere !!!!    I Am Everything !!!!!   and this has been a good learning, growing, evolving experience !!!!   I will give blessings to my brother Robert, I know he here’s me but, he ignores me, I know he had a tough and rough life journey, he has some type of growth on his face, I mean, these are No Moles, I mean I’m exaggerating a lil bit but, very lil bit, it sort of looks like a clinched up over lapping hand is growing out of his face.  I try my best to be friendly and to say Hi Robert, but, he doesn’t respond, I don’t know what, I just have a smile for him… every time I see him, I don’t know if he’s on “Defensive” Mode 100% of the time now because of the “past” experience ??   I don’t know, maybe he gave up on humanity since, humanity was soo harsh to him ???   All of these thoughts are going on in my head, and it’s not my job, to care for the world or to cure everyone !!!  All I know is that the only thing I needed to do is to just be me, be friendly, say hi and give him a genuine smile for him and don’t expect anything in return……   Just Give Without Any Expectancy !!!  Just Give !!!  Just Give !!!  Just Give, Just Give, Just Give, Just Give, Just Give, Just Give, that Genuine Hi and Smile, and don’t expect anything in return, you are slowly chizzling and cracking the Hard Granite Shell….  I know I’m affecting him even though he doesn’t show it…. I don’t know the Full Story….

I will miss everyone there !!!!   I truly will !!!!  I actually love seeing, spending time and smelling them !!!!   most of them are good !!! you know the ones who are “Notso Good” Smelling by the Bag they have, and if you see their bag on a pad, you go to another available pad far away as you can !!!  it all depends on when your card gets called, we have a lottery system, basically you get picked from a bag with everyone else’s card, so like around give or take 50-60 cards !!!  So, anything could happen, and we usually have an Audience sort of like the Romans Did !!!!  inside the Collisium !!! if the people didn’t like that certain person being called,  we do a “Boooooooooooo  !!! “  all in unison !!!  Very Funny !!!!   and the same goes for the people that you like, “Yaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy”………..  and then the ones you ask the Facilitator to Re-Shake the Bag !!!!   and you take notes on who’s “Bag” is Whos, especially the ones who’s feet/socks/shoes tend to be on the Gag-Reflux Side !!!!   so you don’t accidently sleep right next to him…. Adventure Baby !!! Living Life On the Absolute Edge !!!!  Living the Pure Essence of Life !!!!!!!    I have a few nick names, Bunyan !!! nooo not for the “Bunyans” on feet, Paul Bunyan !!!!  one with the BEARD !!! Hello !!!  oh yeah, before I go, I know I have to write some words on what happened with me at the VAC Veterans Assistance Center well, it was waiting for me in the Waiting Room !!!!  Wow !!!!  Ok, going to reheat my coffee now… and check the internet… now…. it’s 4:16pm now…// ok, just copied and pasted just now... I was FB'ing with my new FB Profile !!!!   Divinitus Universalis, choosing who I want to be around, see, hear, and read !!!  about !!!  So, slowly but surely !!  I'm getting accepted from my Spiritual Family Friends  !!!!    where I wan't have to "Filter" to what I say to the world of FB !!!!!!  See, I in the past, I have, growing up family FB Friends, The FB Friends You Used to Party With and Reminds You of Your Embarrassing Drunkin Moments, the Family Family your "Conception Related Blood-Blood" family, who, knows you but really doesn't know you, See I'm Going All Out With My Spiritual Family !!!!  My Mind, Body, Spirit Family !!!!   and I'm the Boss Now !!! I'm Going to Choose What My Mind, Body and Spirit is Exposed Too !!! and Yesss, the past Oscar Z most of the FB Friends was not serving me at all !!!!   I have decided that as of tonight 9/05/2012 I WILL NOT Consume Any Alchohol or Smoke Any Type of Cigarette !!!!  I must do it for me !!!  I Must Change For Me !!!!!  I'm Done With the Whole Alcohol Scene !!!!!   Done-Done !!!   and with the Smoking Scene !!!   yes, dem homeless people sure knows how to smoke !!!!!  seems like only one stay behind inside when they call smoke break !!!!   Hey, it's all good !!!!  I admit !!!  I do smoke cigarettes !!!  Well, I quit buying about a few weeks ago !!!  See, I want to choose what I want to see !!! Bottom Line I Want to See Healthy Conscious People like the people I saw this morning at 7am running and working out at Xsport !!!! I want to See That !!!!   Now is the time to Choose and to Be The Boss !!!!  Remember that old school show "Who's The Boss??" oh my, I soooooooo had a crush on Samantha !!!!!!!   Holy Moly I did !!!!!!!  When I found out that we were the same age !!!  I was like YESSS !!!!  I was super in love !!!!   haaa, that's Awesome, Life is Amazing !!!  Love is Universal !!!!  Appreciation and Gratitude is the Real True Me !!!!   I love it all !!!!   ok, where were we ???/   Mmmmmm. ????  oh yeah, Who's The Boss ?????  The True You or Your Ego You !!!?????   True You says, that You're Blended and is a Part of Our Infinite Creator !!!!!!   I have decided that the time is Now !!!!!   to finally put everything in place and put together !!!!  I've been wanting to change, transform my life and to metamorphosize my whole being for a while now..... and one the key ingredients that I learned was that "Nothing Happens Overnight"..... it's not a Magic Potion to drink or to do someones else's recommended process....haaaa, we all have been guilty of "thaaat" one !!!!   me too !!! and you know what's It's All Good !!!!   It's ALL Very GOOD !!!!!   You're a Better Person just reading the Title !!!!!!   and the Table of Contents !!!!!    The Only Process That Will Make That Final Transformation / Metamorphosis is to "Know Thyself" 1st and 2nd To Do What You Know That YOU KNOW What's Best For You !!!!!!!!

 

Ok, writing back here again unto Word b/c sys has been crashing…. Ok, all good, See with me, I knew deep down from the Beginning that Becoming a Roommate with an Alcoholic Drama King was not going to be in my best interest !!!!!  took about a 3/4 of a year to fully make sure I don’t make that same mistake again, hey, I did learn, grew and evolved from that experience  Big Time !!!! and I Got To Know Thyself a Bit More !!! That I knew that my “Environment” is Sooooo Key For Me !!!!  So Key !!! that it could actual make me or break me !!! I experienced Both !!!!!   Haaa, well, mostly Making Sure I Know What I Don’t Want !!!!!!!  just rubbing my face into it !!!   Smothering my face in the true essence of Misc. Drama, Wasted Energy, Drinking Large amounts of alcohol, making not so good decisions, experiencing consequences for those not so good decisions !!!!   I Must Know ThySelf !!!!!!!    First !!!!!  and You Know How You Learn !!!!!  You Know How Many Miles Per Hour You Must Whack Yourself in the Head In Order For You Finally Learn and Know What Not Do and Learn What To Do !!!!!!    That not only Environment was Key !!! but the People In That Environment !!!!!  is Key With Me As Well !!!!!   Being Surrounded by people who Smoke and Drink Massive Amounts Alcohol tends to Suck Me In !!!!  Haaa, I already know what will happen !!!  because it happened sooo many times !!!!!   C’mon Oscar !!!!  let’s do shot !!  let’s do a shot !!!   Whatcha Drinkin ????  I’m not saying that these people are bad, they are the Most Coolest Down Do Earth Friendly, Outgoing, Happy, Loves Life type of people, it’s just that, I’m the one that needs to change not them…. I’m changing for me !!!  I love them and I do miss them, but, not the misc. B.S. and Drama that tend to go with alcohol !!!!  this would be the only time that I would sign up for the Drama Club !!!!  in High School Drama Club !!! Cool !!   Drama Club After H.S. in Real Life =  Not Cool !!!!!!!   ok, it’s 5:23pm and I know I have to leave here very soon !!!!  I know that if you’re reading this that you too are going through some changes…. Some Knowing ThySelf Experiences  !!!!  

Oh yeah, that was the 1^st Part… is to Fully 1000% Know ThySelf !!!!! and the 2^nd is to Do What You Know You Must Do Because You Know What’s Best For You !!!!  and you ultimately will know how Extreme to be with yourself !!!!   with Me !!!  I went PBBF Super Extreme !!!!!  Pitch Black Blind Faith Extreme Style !!!!   Spending All of My Money on Gas and then Driving Until I Ran Out of Gas !!!!!    Not Knowing How I was Going To Come out of this one again!!!!  I can honestly say, I Have Mastered the Art of Having Zero $$ and Zero Gas !!!!!  To a Divine T !!!!!  to a Science !!!!!    See, I know that with out a doubt I’ll be Well Taken Care of, I listen for instructions and directions what to do now !!!!    The 3^rd Aspect would be your connection to your God !!!!   To the Infinite Universe Who Created All !!!!  Honoring All Paths Here !!!!!  Jesus, Mohammed, Joseph Smith, Abraham, the Whole Sha-Bang !!!!    All the Paths Lead You To the Same Destination !!!!!!  EVERYONE OF THEM !!!!!!!!!!!!!   and with me the 3^rd Ingredient was to Tighten Up Your Connection with Your Infinite Divine !!!!   With me, radio, tv, cable tv, any form of media, news, newspaper, magazine, internet news, Facebook misc. I knew It Doesn’t Serve Me !!!! at all !!!!  and I noticed that my connection was cleared up, tremendously !!!!  it’s like a Roto-Rooter to your Connection with the Divine !!!   I would literally receive live in “Real-Time” Instructions and Directions on What To Do Now and What to do Next !!!!!!  

And thus, there you have it !!!!   I’m being told that it’s Time For Me To Go !!!!   That You Know How and Why I’m Sooo Happy and Loves Life Sooo Much !!! Wow !!! Can’t believe this is finally it !!!!   I know I won’t be writing here as often now, b/c I’ll be in the Gym workin on my Fitness !!!!! and my Mind, Body, Spirit !!!!   Wow !!!!   I could sense you’re getting this !!!  that this was the way for me !!! and Me Only !!!  I Know What’s Best For Me !!! and You know what’s Best For You !!!!!   No One Else !!!   So, this will be it for a while !!!!   

Maybe Oct, 1, 2012 I’ll give you an update with some pics !!!!    and some Revelations, Growing Pains !!!!   C’mon Baby  !!!!   I Never Been Soooo Ready In My Entire Life !!!! Thank You !!!!!  Infinite Divine and Thank You Universe !!!!  I love my Life !!!!  I Love My Life Sooooo Very Much !!!!!  

My last hooorah !!!!!    is right here and now !!!!  5:40pm !!!!  much love to you and the Universe !!!! 

Friend Request Me Already !!!  Infinite Love and Gratitude !!!!  Divinitus Warrious Universalis = Divine Warrior of the Universe !!!!!!  

Ok, writing back here again unto Word b/c sys has been crashing…. Ok, all good, See with me, I knew deep down from the Beginning that Becoming a Roommate with an Alcoholic Drama King was not going to be in my best interest !!!!!  took about a 3/4 of a year to fully make sure I don’t make that same mistake again, hey, I did learn, grew and evolved from that experience  Big Time !!!! and I Got To Know Thyself a Bit More !!! That I knew that my “Environment” is Sooooo Key For Me !!!!  So Key !!! that it could actual make me or break me !!! I experienced Both !!!!!   Haaa, well, mostly Making Sure I Know What I Don’t Want !!!!!!!  just rubbing my face into it !!!   Smothering my face in the true essence of Misc. Drama, Wasted Energy, Drinking Large amounts of alcohol, making not so good decisions, experiencing consequences for those not so good decisions !!!!   I Must Know ThySelf !!!!!!!    First !!!!!  and You Know How You Learn !!!!!  You Know How Many Miles Per Hour You Must Whack Yourself in the Head In Order For You Finally Learn and Know What Not Do and Learn What To Do !!!!!!    That not only Environment was Key !!! but the People In That Environment !!!!!  is Key With Me As Well !!!!!   Being Surrounded by people who Smoke and Drink Massive Amounts Alcohol tends to Suck Me In !!!!  Haaa, I already know what will happen !!!  because it happened sooo many times !!!!!   C’mon Oscar !!!!  let’s do shot !!  let’s do a shot !!!   Whatcha Drinkin ????  I’m not saying that these people are bad, they are the Most Coolest Down Do Earth Friendly, Outgoing, Happy, Loves Life type of people, it’s just that, I’m the one that needs to change not them…. I’m changing for me !!!  I love them and I do miss them, but, not the misc. B.S. and Drama that tend to go with alcohol !!!!  this would be the only time that I would sign up for the Drama Club !!!!  in High School Drama Club !!! Cool !!   Drama Club After H.S. in Real Life =  Not Cool !!!!!!!   ok, it’s 5:23pm and I know I have to leave here very soon !!!!  I know that if you’re reading this that you too are going through some changes…. Some Knowing ThySelf Experiences  !!!!  

Oh yeah, that was the 1^st Part… is to Fully 1000% Know ThySelf !!!!! and the 2^nd is to Do What You Know You Must Do Because You Know What’s Best For You !!!!  and you ultimately will know how Extreme to be with yourself !!!!   with Me !!!  I went PBBF Super Extreme !!!!!  Pitch Black Blind Faith Extreme Style !!!!   Spending All of My Money on Gas and then Driving Until I Ran Out of Gas !!!!!    Not Knowing How I was Going To Come out of this one again!!!!  I can honestly say, I Have Mastered the Art of Having Zero $$ and Zero Gas !!!!!  To a Divine T !!!!!  to a Science !!!!!    See, I know that with out a doubt I’ll be Well Taken Care of, I listen for instructions and directions what to do now !!!!    The 3^rd Aspect would be your connection to your God !!!!   To the Infinite Universe Who Created All !!!!  Honoring All Paths Here !!!!!  Jesus, Mohammed, Joseph Smith, Abraham, the Whole Sha-Bang !!!!    All the Paths Lead You To the Same Destination !!!!!!  EVERYONE OF THEM !!!!!!!!!!!!!   and with me the 3^rd Ingredient was to Tighten Up Your Connection with Your Infinite Divine !!!!   With me, radio, tv, cable tv, any form of media, news, newspaper, magazine, internet news, Facebook misc. I knew It Doesn’t Serve Me !!!! at all !!!!  and I noticed that my connection was cleared up, tremendously !!!!  it’s like a Roto-Rooter to your Connection with the Divine !!!   I would literally receive live in “Real-Time” Instructions and Directions on What To Do Now and What to do Next !!!!!!  

And thus, there you have it !!!!   I’m being told that it’s Time For Me To Go !!!!   That You Know How and Why I’m Sooo Happy and Loves Life Sooo Much !!! Wow !!! Can’t believe this is finally it !!!!   I know I won’t be writing here as often now, b/c I’ll be in the Gym workin on my Fitness !!!!! and my Mind, Body, Spirit !!!!   Wow !!!!   I could sense you’re getting this !!!  that this was the way for me !!! and Me Only !!!  I Know What’s Best For Me !!! and You know what’s Best For You !!!!!   No One Else !!!   So, this will be it for a while !!!!   

Maybe Oct, 1, 2012 I’ll give you an update with some pics !!!!    and some Revelations, Growing Pains !!!!   C’mon Baby  !!!!   I Never Been Soooo Ready In My Entire Life !!!! Thank You !!!!!  Infinite Divine and Thank You Universe !!!!  I love my Life !!!!  I Love My Life Sooooo Very Much !!!!!  

My last hooorah !!!!!    is right here and now !!!!  5:40pm !!!!  much love to you and the Universe !!!! 

Friend Request Me Already !!!  Infinite Love and Gratitude !!!!  Divinitus Warrious Universalis = Divine Warrior of the Universe !!!!!!