"Wed July 16, 2008, Glen Ellyn Home....
I'm going to give myself until 1 month and 2 weeks, (Aug 30) to get into the best shape in my entire life..... 205 lbs of pure chizzledness, Aug 30th is the last of the Blind Draws at 4 Lakes... I'm going to give myself 1 month and 2 weeks of going all out. And I know that'll be working at Few Ex... and get that weekly paycheck.... to get books and misc. food...
That's it... It starts today !!!! focus on the Fun of getting back in shape, it all starts today !!!!!"
Wow !!!! that's 4 yrs ago............. Haaaaa !!!!!! Haaaaaaaa !!!!!! My Ego just made me "Depressed" for a quick moment !!!!!! Haaaa !!!! I'm laughing in your face You Ego !!! Glad I read, "Spirit Junkie" by Gabrielle Bernstein, she told me what will happen with my ego and my true self !!!! Wow !!!! to really experience this in the Real Universe !!!! Wow !!!! When I started counting the yrs, I was like Holy Shit !!!! That's over 4 yrs !!!! that I've been saying that shit to myself !!!!! and for a few seconds I was depressed or feeling sad for myself !!!!! Wow !!!! Gabrielle told me that my ego would try it's darndest to keep me down, keep me in the dumps, creating the illusion that I'm separate from Infinite Universe who created all !!!!!! the best thing to do is to Laugh In It's Fucking FACE !!!!!! HAAAAAAAAA !!!!!!! I know better !!!! even though I just began with Martha Becks book, she did mention of few nuggets about our ego's..... and I'm soooo grateful that I have read "Spirit Junkie", where Gabby let's you know what's going on, and what are the Ego's tactics, stategies on keeping you from your True Infinite Divine Self !!!!! reading this doc I wrote to myself in 2008 !!!! was a very good hit !!!! it was definitely a solid hit to the jaw, a clean, hit to the jaw !!!!! Whewwwww.... Wow !!!! Gabby totally said, that once you're on the path on having Miracles become natural.... that your ego will fight back like no other !!!!! to keep you where the ego's want you to be.... I Absolutely Needed This !!!!
I was actually depressed for about a good 5-10 seconds,... then I remembered what Gabrielle said, that once your ego knows that your on the Infinite Universe Miraculous become Normal Path, your ego will bring the Whole Battalion of Warfare and Weaponry !!!! Haaaaaaaaa !!!! Best thing is to laugh to it's FACE !!!!!
I Am One with the Infinite Divine Universe Who Created ALL !!!!!!!! My Body Is The Universe!!!!!!
I AM EVERYTHING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I Can Be, Do, Have, Create, Transform, Metamorphosize ANYTHING in the Entire UNIVERSE !!!!!!!!!!
I'm ready, I Never Been Sooo Ready in my entire life !!!!!! the time is Now !!!! Time Is Now !!!!!! Perfect Timing !!!! Perfect Timing !!!! Haaaaa, that Ego definitely doesn't give up.... I just had some ego thoughts, "Well, how long have you've been saying this ???" You said, the same exact thing, with the same exact wording, with the same exact enthusiasm and go go juice !!" and look at you now.... still can't afford to pay the $150 fee for your BA Certificate (Degree Audit) !!!
Whewwwwww.. that Ego, boyyyy, sure doesn't go away quietly !!!!!! Wow !!!! Gabrielle and Martha was absolutely right !!!!! Keep on Laughin Baby !!!! Only I know whats the Truth !!!!!! My Truth !!!!
My Game Plan:
- Xsport Naperville/Downers Grove(group excercises) the whole group schedule, basketball, swimming.
- Jakked Gym Montgomery, IL (this place is screaming in the top of their lungs with Masculine Divine Warrior Energy !!!!!
- Dahn Yoga Westmont, IL (Divine Yoga)
- Living Stone Church Aurora, IL (I need More !!! MORE !!!! No Whole Bar Pure Power of God. Praising, Worship, Celebration, More Intensity, More Fire, More Power !!!!!!!!
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