My MP's Right Here Right Now !!!!!! (Morning Pages from "Artist Way"))

Sooo glad I'm here !!!!  Sooo Grateful to have such an Amazing and Out-of-this-Universe Magical Adventure !!!!   Yes, I just felt like writing, it's a rainy day, and I had such a phenomenal amazing nights rest !!!  Ahhhh, I love my life !!!!    Ok, I'm in the Day 2 of my Metamorphosis !!!   Yesterday I was trying to figure out what happened to 3 Days !!! Somehow I lost 3 days, I'm not worried about it, maybe it's an error on the Calendar Printing Deal...it's Ok and it's Perfect !!!    from my Calender, counting each day from 482 to 1, but I started from 1 to about 100 somethin, realizing that it would be best to know how many days you have left and then to scratch it off then to count them one by one to 482, like the "I Used to Fat" series from MTV, a while ago, they used like a 3 ft x 2ft poster of 120 Days Left, 119 Days Left, 118 Days Left, etc. etc. right smack in the middle of the wall in their room... Very Effective, so I'm implementing that, into my regime.  Also this time is the Mental Preparation Time, So, Yes, I'm cherishing my last of the coffees and foods that I will soon release from my Metamorphosis, of only Water, Fish, Salad, I will officially start on Monday.  So I have this weekend to really get my Mind in preparation for what is about to come.  I'm Going In !!!!!  I'm Going In, Inside the Cocoon !!!  for my Metamorphosis !!!!   for the last couple months I've been seeking, seeking for more Intense, Focused, Infinite Divine Transforming Fire !!!!!    like a Welding Torch !!!!  Exactly Like This !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Yeahhhhhhhh !!!!!  YESSSSSSS !!!!!!!

Back in the day, while growing up, I don't know if I mentioned this in one of my other posts here, but, I was brought up in a Spirit Filled Pentecostal Spanish Church, church Sunday Day, Sunday Night, and Wed Midweek, Thurs Royal Rangers sort of like "Boy Scouts" but, God Based... I remember Sunday Nights, we wouldn't get home till about 1-2am !!!!!   Yeahhhh !!!  service was like at 7-8pm, Praise, Worship, Dance, Speaking in Tongues, In the Spirit, Singing !!!   even though at that time I was mostly praying sleeping (pretending that I was praying but, in reality sleeping kneeling down in the altar or at the pew)  but, I remembered everything, having people in the Spirit, and later on my own, the beginning of my spiritual journey with Abundant Life Fellowship in Roseville, CA.  It was an "On Fire" Church !!!   OMYGosh !!!  I loved it !!!!  I was On-Fire Too !!!   it was a non-denominational Holy Ghost Spirit Filled Church, English language,  I loved the Pastor... it was there where I experienced the Absolute Raw Power of our Infinite Divine God / Universe !!!   I was helping out with the Youth Night, on Prayer Group where we would meet up at the church and just Praise, Worship, Sing, Dance for the Lord God Almighty !!!! On Tues !!!  Every day of the week, something was going on!!!!!   with Others !!!!  Wow !!!!  Speaking in Tongues, Being in the Spirit, Receiving the Infinite Power of God / Universe !!!!!!    Words cannot describe the Amazing  and Heavenly Feelings and Power you experience !!!  you know what ????   I Miss It !!!!  I Want It !!!!  I Want to Praise and Worship !!!!  I Want More !!! I Want More  !!!!  and so, part of my Metamorphosis is to be on the Receiving and Giving End of this Intense Infinite Divine Power Torch  !!!!  just like the pic above... just look at the Raw Absolute Power of that Torch !!!!!!   I will be implementing and seeking out churches who has that Extra Added Umpf !!!!!  I want to Yell, Praise, Worship, Dance, Sing, Bang on my Cowbell !!!!   As If It Was My Last Day On Earth !!!!!!    Speaking in Tongues !!!!   with Others !!!   just building up the Absolute Power of the Holy Ghost aka Spirit !!!!  So, after this post, I won't be writing here for a while, just an FYI, I'm Inside the Cocoon !!!   I told you all the places where I'll be, It's Time For Me !!!  My Metamorphosis !!!  Me, Myself, and I !!!!   Thank You !!! !Thank You !!!!!

I'm sooo glad I made a new FB page, for my new post metamorphosis, I Choose Who I want to be friends with, basically my old page, I just Deactivated it.  I haven't checked in like 2 weeks now, no need to !!!  Haaa, and when I did checked it, Sure Enough I was "Ambushed", (someone posted something which was not in my highest good) yeah, you know what I'm talking about, and now, I'm the Boss of what I see, hear and read !!!  ME !!!    Homey Don't Play Dat !!!!!!   I'm having a Infinite Divine Spirit Conscious Family !!!!  Where I can find out when the next Meditation and Divine Dance Events Are :::  and not the events that no longer serves me, Me, I just don't want to even see or read the words !!!   Each Word I Read !!! Matters !!! is going into my Amazing and Powerful Mind, and I Want Pure Positivity and Pure Absolute Love comments, posts and events.  yes, it feels good !!!!   Today I'm Going to Write Almost All Day !!!  just to give you and me the Beginnings of my Metamorphosis !!! just to document my frame of mind and what's going on and is happening !!!!    I'm sooo looking forward to it !!!!   Even though it has been a few weeks since I've last social drank with family, I going to Choose Sept, 6, 2012 as my Sobriety Date, the Beginning Date of my Metamorphosis !!!! This Includes Smoking Cigarettes, even though I thought of myself of only "Social Smoking" with others and others while drinking alcohol, I never considered myself a smoker, but, I'm also including releasing cigarettes as well.  So, this is the beginning of my metamorphosis, just to Plan, Envision, Visualize, What Is About to Happen..... This is Key for Me !!!! With Me -- Nothing Happens Overnight !!! NOTHING !!!!!!   it's a Gradual Slowly but Firmly Movement for Change, Transformation and Metamorphosis !!!!   So today, Sat and Sun, will be my Mind Preparation, hmmmm, you know what I think I might go to Oneness Blessing Tonight at 7pm at Bodhi Spiritual Center !!!!   I can listen to some Dr. Joe Dispenza or some meditation music while I'm on the way, I love traffic !!!!     I'll be driving from DuPage  County !!!   Yesss  !!! and then we'll see what happens afterwards..... oh yeah, I love meetup  !!! there is sooo much Conscious Base Things Going On !!!   I love it !!!!   Speaking of the Divine I'm Going to Oneness Blessing tonight at Bodhi Spiritual Center in Chgo and tomorrow Sat to TheosoFest in Wheaton, IL All Day and then to Bodhi Chgo or Living Stone Church in Aurora, IL... I think I'll be going to Living Stone, for Sun service.... .Both are Amazing !!!  I just want to Praise and Worship a lil bit more at Living Stone, not saying that you don't at Bodhi, I know what I need and I need more Praise, Worship, Speaking in Tongues and Altar Calls !!!!!!   Hey, It's ALL GOOD !!!!!!!!     and you know whats best for you !!!!    

Well, not only I'll be going to the Oneness Blessing I'll be going to Preston Klick's Gong Wash Meditation !!! It's On Tonight, Tomorrow and on Sunday !!!!    just what I needed before I start on the Physical Body Transformation this coming Monday !!!  this will be the Perfect Send Off Of Sealing Off the Cocoon !!!!  I'm sooo ready !!! Thank You !!!!!   Thank You !!!!!   I love my life !!!   It's On Baby !!  it's Sooo On !!!!   I'm Sooo Loooking forward for these 481 days now of my metamorphosis !!!   It's On Baby !!!!  Wow !!!  I do live an Incredible Life !!!!   Haaa !!!!     I don't even care if I get the VRAP from the VA or be a part of the Vipassana Meditation Retreat ???   Hey, I Have Everything I Need and Want Now  !!!!!   Thank You !!!!    Right now I'm listening to some old school remixes of breakdance, dance and hip hop !!!   so my head is bopping oh yess !!!   I choose !!!  I Absolutely Love It !!! Thank You !!!   Hmmmm Anything else ??? here ???   Let's Do This  !!!   My Absolute Truths :  I Will Do What "I" Want To Do For I Know What's Best For Me !!!!!!   No One Else !!!!!   Thank You - I Greatly Appreciate It- NO Thanks !!!!  Thank You But, NO !!!!!    Thank You !!! I love my Life Very Very Very Much !!!!   I'm Sooo Looking forward on becoming the True Absolute  Self !!!!!  Me !!!   Close your Eyes  !!!!     The True You !!! W/O Any Physical Body Eyesight Influence !!!!  I'm listening to "Devi Prayer- Hymn to the Divine Mother" on YouTube....... Ever Sooo Beautiful !!!!!!    Oneness Blessings usually play this during their Oneness Blessings / Meditation... Very Very Very Powerful !!!   thank u...

The time is now  !!!!   I know that I'm at the Perfect Place !!!   I'm in the perfect place at the perfect time !!!   and I know that the time is now- to become who I Am Absolute Truly Am !!!  I Love Life !!!  I Truly Do !!!   I Love Being Me !!!  I Love Everything About Me  !!!!! Thank u !!!  I Make Myself Laugh !!!!  I Love My Beard  !!!!   yeaaah Budddy !!!    you know that movie 'Must Love Dogs ???" well, I'm going to create a movie called, "Must Love Beards !!!!"   All Good !!!  Whoaaa !!!  I was looking at the Bodhi Schedule deal on the website and on Sept 12-14 there are going to have a Power Circle Revival !!!  Holy Moly in the South South Side !!!  Wow !!!!  YES   3 Days of Midweek Power !!!! Holy Moly It's On !!!!  I Can Pre-Feel It !!!!   Wow !!! Tonight Oneness Blessing 7pm-8pm then Gong Wash from Preston Klick 8pm to ??  then tomorrow Sat, Theosophical Society in Wheaton, IL it's TheosoFest !!!  Speakers, Meditation, Drum Circle, Then Sunday Morning Bodhi  Meditation and I believe Preston Klick is going to his Gong Wash Meditation !!!  then later in the evening Chi Ka Go !!!!  at Yoga Now !!  going to do some Divine Dancing and Mixin it up with Roman !!!   DJ Roman !!!!   ok, going to lay down for a lil before I go to Bodhi Spiritual Center in Chicago for the Oneness Blessing and afterwards a Gong Wash !!!!  Infinite Love and Gratitude 4 Eber !!!!   (Said it Vato Style)... Thank u... 4 Everything !!!   bye for now...