What an Incredible Week I had in Glen Ellyn/Wheaton, IL !!! Wow !!! well, 6 1/2 days, I got there on Sat afternoon last Sat... and arrived here in Morton Grove/Niles this afternoon....
What I got out of this week, what I've learned, experienced, grow, expanded, was quite of bit of bonding with myself and with the Infinite Divine. That I know what's best for me,
- that I am the Master Genius for me and my life.
- I have 1000% Absolute Trust that the One who Created All will forever take great care for me.
- Even if you have Absolutely Zero aka Nothing in the material/physical.
- My Blind Faith has never been soooo Powerful and Strong Ever in my Entire Life !!!
- Any situation, anything and everything is good, regardless of what that situation and thing is, the majority of the world might think of it's as not so good, but, in the end, It's ALL GOOD !!!
- My blind faith is like a trillion suns !!!! I KNOW Regardless of what happens, I know that I'll cross over, break through, surpass what the "appearance" of total pitch black of nothingness.
- What I mean by this is that, I absolutely didn't know what to do, I was on E with the gas, and I had about $4 to last me a week. What do I do ?? Friends and Family = ?? I'm not like that, I know I have to go through with this on my own, my own journey., my own growth, my own adventure.. I know that was not an option for me. Now this is what I mean by Blind Pitch Black Faith !!!
- Where you have almost absolutely zero with $$ and with zero gas and you can't really go anywhere for a week ?? and you don't know what to do, go ?? How will I eat ?? What will I do ?? Well, from my previous months and experience throughout my life, I know that I will be just fine, that yes, I might experience some not so comfy comforts features on the adventure, that is probably why I joined the Marine Corps Infantry, we think Hell is Heaven !!!! We love being tough, being rugged, going through tough extreme times and experiences. and the thrill and joy of going through it and crossing over the finish line !!! That feeling feels sooooo Incredibly Amazing !!! I truly felt that last night, when $$ finally came into my account, so I could fill up the gas tank, get some motivated chow, treat myself to a hot coffee and some beef jerky... Knowing that I had everything I needed all week !!!!
- What I noticed is that our Brain is Soooo Extremely Powerful and In Tune of what yourself wants and also what your body needs. For example, I sooo wanted and needed a hot shower, shave, brush teeth and to floss, the whole shabang !!! My mind searches ok, how can we do this ?? My brain remembers the hot showers that I took when I was on the college swim team, BAM, the locker room, so I go there to take my hot much needed and appreciative shower..
- Seems elementary but, I can feel that my brain and mind searchers every where you've been and every experience that you have experienced to find the solution.
- This happened to many quite a few times, mostly food, coffee, places to crash, I also received instructions and instantaneous communication on what to do, why am I here in Glen Ellyn/Wheaton trapped !!! no gas and no $$ what is the silver lining for this predicament and situation?
- I wrote a blue print all day at McD's, got their .99cent large coffee and was there from 11am-11pm !!! yeah, no joke, I worked on my life blue print !!! I couldn't believe what I have written down and drawn out on one side of an 8 1/2 x 11 piece of blank white paper.... Wow !! It was me and the Infinite Divine who was bonding and letting each other know what our plans were so we could help each other out, well, mostly the, or ALL of Infinite Divines Help for me !!! It was Incredible !! It is a Grandiose Life Plan, I didn't care if it took me 15, 25, 35 yrs to accomplish, my joy will be the JOURNEY !!!!! not the end result and this is soooo key of living a joyous and happy life...
- I did a lot of writing, started a book !!! I was near the college, so I basically drove about a total about a 3/4 of a mile all week !!! I knew my gas gauge very very well, so I knew I was good. Just not over 3 miles good, so basically I was trapped for a week.
- and the last day, on Friday, I read the whole book of the Artist's Way, Wow !!! I was absolutely Amazed and Inspired and Everything made sense now, why am I on this extreme path ?? Why all of this is happening to me ?? Why I want to change and transform my life sooo much ?? the book goes in pretty deep with your soul and your life experience... to take care of the deep roots and to find out how and what and how to heal and extract it out from my life... oh yeah, it's not just about, how to draw art !!! it's How to Live Your Life !!! So, as I know that I mentioned in the past, I'm going to implement the 12 week the Artist's Way course into my Metamorphosis.
- See this is why I was "Trapped", the Infinite Divine not only wanted to rest my physical body for a week but, also to help me with what I want, to assist me in writing my life blue print, the book, my art, Everything, I truly felt that this was our bonding time, just me and the Infinite Divine... I have Soooo Much Absolute Trust Now !!!! I know for a fact that ALL is Good no matter what the appearance or package it's in and that I have Absolute Pitch Black Faith that my Well Being and my every day needs will be met, regardless of the predicament and the situation.
So, this week ending, has been the most Incredible Week Ever thus far in my life... It was All Trust and Blind Faith Workshops, Practical Application into Muscle Memory !!! It was like a Personal Bootcamp with the Infinite Divine... ok, it was like the Infinite Divine was the Drill Instructor: you have absolute zero !!! do you still trust me ??? You're hungry, your body needs food, and you don't have $$ to buy anything ?? do you still have blind faith ?? It was a series of extreme experiences and situations where I had to go through, break through to the finish line. Do you know why you're going through this ?? So you and I can become One...
Just writing this is making me a bit teary eyed, like right now. This is why I'm going through this, I Fully and Completely Let Go of Everything Jan 1, 2011 !!!!! I got the BA (but, don't have the $150 to get the degree audit, so I can get the Diploma!), couldn't find that "REAL Job", whatever that Real Job is ?? So, rent was already behind a couple months, couldn't pay ComEd and Peoples Gas, also not being able to make my monthly payments for my student loan. I knew that I need to go through an Extreme Life Altering DNA Changing Experience, and the Metamorphosis was the end result of what I needed and wanted to go through, the Metamorphosis definitely has been evolving, growing and expanding ever since that idea seed was planted in my mind. It started as a 40 day boot camp style regime, then to 3 months, it kept changing, growing, expanding and evolving !! To what it is now !!! Which I'll be starting this coming Sunday !! May 1st, 2011.. It's 2:11am at Dunkin Donuts in Niles/Morton Grove, IL near my Northshore Bally's... super cool spot !!! My 1st time here and I love it !! Free Internet and it's 24 hrs !!! you also might want to buy a coffee, if you can!! Today I can !!! I love my life...
So this past week, really changed my life !!! and I haven't even started my Metamorphosis YET !!!!! How Incredibly Amazing is that !!!! Wow !!! all I have to say is ID baby, it's ALL ID, Infinite Divine !!!
So, in about 21 hrs and 35 min or so, it'll be my beginning 1st Day of my Metamorphosis !!! I'm sooo ready !!! Soo Soo Ready !!! I never been sooo ready in my entire life, just me and the Infinite Divine for 111+ Days !!! No Cell, No checking Email, No Sending Email and No Facebook whatsoever !!! Only website I will go on will be this one, Journey2Metamorphosis my blog !!! and the Artist's Way !!! I want to create a useful tool to see and read the affirmations, exercises and tasks...
Here we go !!! I'm Sooo Looking Forward to my Absolute Infinite Divine Transformation and Metamorphosis !!!! I know that my whole life leading up to this moment of time, right this nano-second has been meant for this Metamorphosis !!!! Everything !!!!! All the Good, All the experiences, All the situations, Every second experienced from your life leading up to this exact moment of time, RIGHT NOW has been for my Metamorphosis !!! Thank You !!! Thank You.... Thank You...
Any last ending words before I work on my "the Artist's Way" exercises and tasks ?? Hmmmm ... just a sec... banio real quick...!! // I'm back, with a double chocolate donut !!! and a warm up on the coffee !! well, this is pre-Metamorphosis so, I'm good !!! it's All good !!! ok, where was I... Any last Divine Inspired Words ?? -- All I can say is that, if you're going through some extreme misc. issues, situation and predicament, and don't know what to do, go or say ?? Be calm, you're breathing, you're alive, find some things to appreciate and that you're grateful for, remember all the times in the past where you thought that it was the end of the world situation and you went through it, remember that ?? How you're still alive today ?? That you made it through !!! I definitely had some Extreme Situations in the Past where I got through it...
The most memorable extreme moment in the past, was the year 2000, where I was homeless, without a vehicle, the homeless shelter was beyond capacity and I didn't win the draw, about 5-6 other homeless individuals we're denied a warm place to sleep, mind you this was in the middle of winter in Chicago, about 20-30 degrees !!! what to do, where to go, ?? Pitch Black Blind Faith Exercise here we go!! At first I tried to go to sleep in one of those Bus Stop shelters !!! 30 min later, No F'n Way !!! Couldn't do it.. Too cold, then at that point I didn't care !!! I didn't care where I go, I just wanted a warm place, even if it was a closet !!! I was in Blind Faith situation... where the shelter was right next to the VA Hospital so, at that point, I just Let Go and Didn't Care what I needed to do or go, so there was a VA sub-station where they had an unlocked door for the entrance with a heater sort of like a small foyer with a heater, and the other set of doors leading into the sub-station Police office was locked, no one was there, Sweet !!! I'll just crash out here !!! Nice, Warm, Cozy, No I didn't have a bed, it was on the tile, but, it was warm, and that's all that I absolutely needed... about 2 hrs later, I really don't know how long, I was sleeping, I was woken up by the VA Police !! and he basically said, Either I leave the property or I go to jail for trespassing. I immediately said, "Go to jail !!" He said, "Are you sure??" I said, Yes, sir, and told the officer that the shelter had to deny about 6 other homeless guys, and there was no room, and I don't have any place to go... he said, "Ok, then... let's go"... When I got to the VA "real" Station, I was photographed, just for their records, and was driven to the Lake County Jail. Was booked, processed and waited, but, you know what? it was warm !!!! I needed a warm place for the night, I noticed their was another homeless guy that I knew that was also denied a spot with the shelter, haa, you too hunh ??? Oh brother, I sooo remembered his feet !! It was beyond funktified!!! I remember that the officers had to use about 2-3 cans of Lysol-Smell Good to try to mask the Intense Cloud of Absolute Funk !! and he was in the cell with me, !!!! I was heaving big time !!! it was definitely a memorable moment, ahhh, then we finally we're sent into our cells, I kid you not !!!! I had the Best Night in my Entire Life !!!!!! I had the Best Sleep in my Entire Life !!!! I was served I believe two hotdogs with two slices of bread, some juice and I was out cold !!! I only had a padded mattress for me to lie down on and I was in Pure Heaven... !!! the next morning, I under go some more processing and to get ready for court, I didn't care if it took me all day !! or all night, Lake County Jail was good to go when you're homeless and in Chicago during the the middle of winter !!! So, I was in the "Jail Booth" with about 20 other jail birds, waiting my turn, my turn came up, Judge was an older lady, I explained to her that the homeless shelter had to deny 6 homeless people for the shelter and didn't have anywhere or anyplace to go, she immediately said, "Case Dismissed" !!! Good Luck and I hope you get your life back on track (something like that) all I remembered was Case Dismissed !!!
I had to and wanted to go to jail to get warm place for the night... and This Night, turned out to be Thee Best SLEEP I Ever Had In My Entire LIFE !!!! and it was in a jail cell, A Warm Jail Cell, With !!! Not only 1 hot dog with a piece of sliced bread, but TWO Hotdogs with another piece of sliced bread !!! with some juice ... I was knocked out almost instantly !!! This experience taught me quite a bit about life and people. You don't know what a person is going through, what actions he/she had to make, that night where I tried to sleep in a bus shelter, in 20 degree Chgo weather !!! I HAD TO !!! Do Something !!!! and I Didn't CARE what I had to do, I wasn't going to rob a store !!! just sleep in a warm spot !!! and that spot just so happened to be a Police Sub-Station !!! We all have a time in our lives where life causes you to do what you got and have to do in order for your survival... My brain and mind said, ok, you need to live !!! this is what you got to do in order for me to continue living, and I had to do what I had to do, I wanted to go to jail, so I could get a warm spot for the night.. that was all.. and it turned out to be The Best Night in My Entire Life !!!! Amazing Hunh ??? Wow !!! I still remembered as if it was yesterday !!!
Oh, that was only just one example of the Extreme Adventures I had been through !!! Only One !!! There's at least about 500 others !!!! Wow !!!! I do live an Incredible, Supernatural, Magical, Miraculous Life !!!! (my affirmation) I truly do !!! Wow !! Just writing about this, makes me realize how Adventurous my life has been !!! Went to Afghanistan on my birthday for war !!!! 1st ones into Pakistan and Afghanistan !!! Wow !!! Was Voted the Most Improved Recruit from about 30 recruits who were my peers in bootcamp !!! I had breakfast with the Colonel and the Sergent Major of the Marine Corps Recruit Depot in San Diego !!! had my picture taken, signed the whole shabang !!!
Been married 3 times !!! Oooops !!! my baad, didn't mean for that one to leak out !!! hey, if you're still reading my blog !!! You definitely deserve some personal (not widely advertised experiences), see, I love love !!! and I love life !!!! I don't care what had happened in the past !!! We are not the same person we were 30 days ago !!! We are always constantly growing, expanding and evolving, wanting to experience it all !!! Wanting to grow and to expand !!! and that causes us to evolve, and if we're with someone, and either you or the other has different growth, expansion, evolving curves, and will likely be not the same growth curve, this is basically what had happened. That we were on different wave lengths --different planes, that afterwards it was a Win-Win Learning, Growth, Expanding and Evolving Experience !!! We both learned and ultimately grew from it !!! and yes, there was some exciting joyous times and there were some deep rooted issues that had to be dealt with. So, how can you ultimately judge anyone ??? wow, it's almost 4am !! on a sat !!! I think I'll stop when I'm absolutely ready to go to bed !! or crash out in my van ola !!!
Life is Good, Learning is Good, Not caring what others think or say is good, Not Giving a damn what anybody thinks or says or the possibility of what they might say or think is good... See we have to start living "Our Lives" for "US" !!!! For Me !!!! I'm going to post a pic that really says it all....I tried, it's not my pic... it's rejecting it.... I'll try to get it somehow... // it's 5:12am Sat... at DD, well just google: " This is your life pic"
here's the link :: This is Your Life Pic
here's the link :: This is Your Life Pic
5:32am now, feeling pretty good... Met 2 super cool guys, one of them needed a charger for his iphone, I had one, and so just talking about life and travels.... //
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