ETA to 1st DAY of Metamorphosis = 23 hrs and 42 min !!!!!!! May 1st Sun 12am

What an Incredible Week I had in Glen Ellyn/Wheaton, IL !!! Wow !!!  well, 6 1/2 days, I got there on Sat afternoon last Sat... and arrived here in Morton Grove/Niles this afternoon....

What I got out of this week, what I've learned, experienced, grow, expanded, was quite of bit of bonding with myself and with the Infinite Divine. That I know what's best for me,

• that I am the Master Genius for me and my life.
• I have 1000% Absolute Trust that the One who Created All will forever take great care for me.
• Even if you have Absolutely Zero aka Nothing in the material/physical.
• My Blind Faith has never been soooo Powerful and Strong Ever in my Entire Life !!!  
• Any situation, anything and everything is good, regardless of what that situation and thing is, the majority of the world might think of it's as not so good, but, in the end, It's ALL GOOD !!!  
• My blind faith is like a trillion suns !!!!  I KNOW Regardless of what happens, I know that I'll cross over, break through, surpass what the "appearance" of total pitch black of nothingness.
• What I mean by this is that, I absolutely didn't know what to do, I was on E with the gas, and I had about $4 to last me a week.  What do I do ??  Friends and Family = ??  I'm not like that, I know I have to go through with this on my own, my own journey., my own growth, my own adventure.. I know that was not an option for me.  Now this is what I mean by Blind Pitch Black Faith !!!  
• Where you have almost absolutely zero with $$ and with zero gas and you can't really go anywhere for a week ??  and  you don't know what to do, go ??  How will I eat ??  What will I do ?? Well, from my previous months and experience throughout my life, I know that I will be just fine, that yes, I might experience some not so comfy comforts features on the adventure, that is probably why I joined the Marine Corps Infantry, we think Hell is Heaven !!!!  We love being tough, being rugged, going through tough extreme times and experiences.  and the thrill and joy of going through it and crossing over the finish line !!!  That feeling feels sooooo Incredibly Amazing !!! I truly felt that last night, when $$ finally came into my account, so I could fill up the gas tank, get some motivated chow, treat myself to a hot coffee and some beef jerky...  Knowing that I had everything I needed all week !!!!
• What I noticed is that our Brain is Soooo Extremely Powerful and In Tune of what yourself wants and also what your body needs.  For example, I sooo wanted and needed a hot shower, shave, brush teeth and to floss, the whole shabang !!!  My mind searches ok, how can we do this ??  My brain remembers the hot showers that I took when I was on the college swim team, BAM, the locker room, so I go there to take my hot much needed and appreciative shower..
• Seems elementary but, I can feel that my brain and mind searchers every where you've been and every experience that you have experienced to find the solution.  
• This happened to many quite a few times, mostly food, coffee, places to crash, I also received instructions and instantaneous communication on what to do, why am I here in Glen Ellyn/Wheaton trapped !!! no gas and no $$  what is the silver lining for this predicament and situation?
• I wrote a blue print all day at McD's, got their .99cent large coffee and was there from 11am-11pm !!! yeah, no joke, I worked on my life blue print !!! I couldn't believe what I have written down and drawn out on one side of an 8 1/2 x 11 piece of blank white paper....  Wow !!  It was me and the Infinite Divine who was bonding and letting each other know what our plans were so we could help each other out, well, mostly the, or ALL of Infinite Divines Help for me !!!  It was Incredible !!  It is a Grandiose Life Plan, I didn't care if it took me 15, 25, 35 yrs to accomplish, my joy will be the JOURNEY !!!!!  not the end result and this is soooo key of living a joyous and happy life... 
• I did a lot of writing, started a book !!!  I was near the college, so I basically drove about a total about a 3/4 of a mile all week !!! I knew my gas gauge very very well, so I knew I was good.  Just not over 3 miles good, so basically I was trapped for a week.  
• and the last day, on Friday, I read the whole book of the Artist's Way, Wow !!!  I was absolutely Amazed and Inspired and Everything made sense now, why am I on this extreme path ?? Why all of this is happening to me ??  Why I want to change and transform my life sooo much ??  the book goes in pretty deep with your soul and your life experience... to take care of the deep roots and to find out how and what and how to heal and extract it out from my life... oh yeah, it's not just about, how to draw art !!!  it's How to Live Your Life !!!  So, as I know that I mentioned in the past, I'm going to implement the 12 week the Artist's Way course into my Metamorphosis. 
• See this is why I was "Trapped", the Infinite Divine not only wanted to rest my physical body for a week but, also to help me with what I want, to assist me in writing my life blue print, the book, my art, Everything, I truly felt that this was our bonding time, just me and the Infinite Divine... I have Soooo Much Absolute Trust Now !!!! I know for a fact that ALL is Good no matter what the appearance or package it's in and that I have Absolute Pitch Black Faith that my Well Being and my every day needs will be met, regardless of the predicament and the situation.

So, this week ending, has been the most Incredible Week Ever thus far in my life... It was All Trust and Blind Faith Workshops, Practical Application into Muscle Memory !!!  It was like a Personal Bootcamp with the Infinite Divine... ok, it was like the Infinite Divine was the Drill Instructor:   you have absolute zero !!! do you still trust me ???   You're hungry, your body needs food, and you don't have $$ to buy anything ??  do you still have blind faith ??  It was a series of extreme experiences and situations where I had to go through, break through to the finish line.  Do you know why you're going through this ??  So you and I can become One... 

Just writing this is making me a bit teary eyed, like right now.  This is why I'm going through this, I Fully and Completely Let Go of Everything Jan 1, 2011 !!!!!  I got the BA (but, don't have the $150 to get the degree audit, so I can get the Diploma!), couldn't find that "REAL Job", whatever that Real Job is ??  So, rent was already behind a couple months, couldn't pay ComEd and Peoples Gas, also not being able to make my monthly payments for my student loan.  I knew that I need to go through an Extreme Life Altering DNA Changing Experience, and the Metamorphosis was the end result of what I needed and wanted to go through, the Metamorphosis definitely has been evolving, growing and expanding ever since that idea seed was planted in my mind.  It started as a 40 day boot camp style regime, then to 3 months, it kept changing, growing, expanding and evolving !! To what it is now !!!  Which I'll be starting this coming Sunday !!  May 1st, 2011..  It's 2:11am at Dunkin Donuts in Niles/Morton Grove, IL near my Northshore Bally's... super cool spot !!!  My 1st time here and I love it !!  Free Internet and it's 24 hrs !!!  you also might want to buy a coffee, if you can!!  Today I can !!! I love my life... 

So this past week, really changed my life !!!  and I haven't even started my Metamorphosis YET !!!!!  How Incredibly Amazing is that !!!!  Wow !!!  all I have to say is ID baby, it's ALL ID, Infinite Divine !!!

So, in about 21 hrs and 35 min or so, it'll be my beginning 1st Day of my Metamorphosis !!!  I'm sooo ready !!! Soo Soo Ready !!!  I never been sooo ready in my entire life, just me and the Infinite Divine for 111+ Days !!!  No Cell, No checking Email, No Sending Email and No Facebook whatsoever !!!  Only website I will go on will be this one, Journey2Metamorphosis my blog !!!  and the Artist's Way !!!  I want to create a useful tool to see and read the affirmations, exercises and tasks... 

Here we go !!! I'm Sooo Looking Forward to my Absolute Infinite Divine Transformation and Metamorphosis !!!!  I know that my whole life leading up to this moment of time, right this nano-second has been meant for this Metamorphosis !!!!   Everything !!!!! All the Good, All the experiences, All the situations, Every second experienced from your life leading up to this exact moment of time, RIGHT NOW has been for my Metamorphosis !!!  Thank You !!! Thank You.... Thank You...

Any last ending words before I work on my "the Artist's Way" exercises and tasks ??  Hmmmm ... just a sec... banio real quick...!!  // I'm back, with a double chocolate donut !!!  and a warm up on the coffee !!  well, this is pre-Metamorphosis so, I'm good !!!  it's All good !!! ok, where was I... Any last Divine Inspired Words ??  --  All I can say is that, if you're going through some extreme misc. issues, situation and predicament, and don't know what to do, go or say ??  Be calm, you're breathing, you're alive, find some things to appreciate and that you're grateful for, remember all the times in the past where you thought that it was the end of the world situation and you went through it, remember that ??  How you're still alive today ??  That you made it through !!!   I definitely had some Extreme Situations in the Past where I got through it... 

The most memorable extreme moment in the past, was the year 2000, where I was homeless, without a vehicle, the homeless shelter was beyond capacity and I didn't win the draw, about 5-6 other homeless individuals we're denied a warm place to sleep, mind you this was in the middle of winter in Chicago, about 20-30 degrees !!!  what to do, where to go, ??  Pitch Black Blind Faith Exercise here we go!!  At first I tried to go to sleep in one of those Bus Stop shelters !!!  30 min later, No F'n Way !!!  Couldn't do it..  Too cold, then at that point I didn't care !!! I didn't care where I go, I just wanted a warm place, even if it was a closet !!!  I was in Blind Faith situation... where the shelter was right next to the VA Hospital so, at that point, I just Let Go and Didn't Care what I needed to do or go, so there was a VA sub-station where they had an unlocked door for the entrance with a heater sort of like a small foyer with a heater, and the other set of doors leading into the sub-station Police office was locked, no one was there, Sweet !!!  I'll just crash out here !!!  Nice, Warm, Cozy, No I didn't have a bed, it was on the tile, but, it was warm, and that's all that I absolutely needed... about 2 hrs later, I really don't know how long, I was sleeping, I was woken up by the VA Police !!  and he basically said, Either I leave the property or I go to jail for trespassing.  I immediately said, "Go to jail !!"  He said, "Are you sure??"  I said, Yes, sir, and told the officer that the shelter had to deny about 6 other homeless guys, and there was no room, and I don't have any place to go... he said, "Ok, then... let's go"...  When I got to the VA "real" Station, I was photographed, just for their records, and was driven to the Lake County Jail.  Was booked, processed and waited, but, you know what? it was warm !!!!  I needed a warm place for the night, I noticed their was another homeless guy that I knew that was also denied a spot with the shelter, haa, you too hunh ???  Oh brother, I sooo remembered his feet !! It was beyond funktified!!!  I remember that the officers had to use about 2-3 cans of Lysol-Smell Good to try to mask the Intense Cloud of Absolute Funk !!  and he was in the cell with me, !!!!  I was heaving big time !!!  it was definitely a memorable moment, ahhh, then we finally we're sent into our cells, I kid you not !!!!  I had the Best Night in my Entire Life !!!!!!   I had the Best Sleep in my Entire Life !!!!  I was served I believe two hotdogs with two slices of bread, some juice and I was out cold !!!  I only had a padded mattress for me to lie down on and I was in Pure Heaven... !!!  the next morning, I under go some more processing and to get ready for court, I didn't care if it took me all day !!  or all night, Lake County Jail was good to go when you're homeless and in Chicago during the the middle of winter !!!  So, I was in the "Jail Booth" with about 20 other jail birds, waiting my turn, my turn came up, Judge was an older lady, I explained to her that the homeless shelter had to deny 6 homeless people for the shelter and didn't have anywhere or anyplace to go, she immediately said, "Case Dismissed" !!!  Good Luck and I hope you get your life back on track (something like that) all I remembered was Case Dismissed !!!  

I had to and wanted to go to jail to get warm place for the night...  and This Night, turned out to be Thee Best SLEEP I Ever Had In My Entire LIFE !!!!   and it was in a jail cell, A Warm Jail Cell, With !!! Not only 1 hot dog with a piece of sliced bread, but TWO Hotdogs with another piece of sliced bread !!!  with some juice ... I was knocked out almost instantly !!!  This experience taught me quite a bit about life and people.  You don't know what a person is going through, what actions he/she had to make, that night where I tried to sleep in a bus shelter, in 20 degree Chgo weather !!!  I HAD TO !!!  Do Something !!!!  and I Didn't CARE what I had to do, I wasn't going to rob a store !!!  just sleep in a warm spot !!!  and that spot just so happened to be a Police Sub-Station !!! We all have a time in our lives where life causes you to do what you got and have to do in order for your survival... My brain and mind said, ok, you need to live !!!  this is what you got to do in order for me to continue living, and I had to do what I had to do, I wanted to go to jail, so I could get a warm spot for the night.. that was all.. and it turned out to be The Best Night in My Entire Life !!!!  Amazing Hunh ???  Wow !!!  I still remembered as if it was yesterday !!!  

Oh, that was only just one example of the Extreme Adventures I had been through !!! Only One !!! There's at least about 500 others !!!!  Wow !!!!  I do live an Incredible, Supernatural, Magical, Miraculous Life !!!!  (my affirmation)  I truly do !!!  Wow !! Just writing about this, makes me realize how Adventurous my life has been !!!  Went to Afghanistan on my birthday for war !!!! 1st ones into Pakistan and Afghanistan !!!  Wow !!!  Was Voted the Most Improved Recruit from about 30 recruits who were my peers in bootcamp !!!  I had breakfast with the Colonel and the Sergent Major of the Marine Corps Recruit Depot in San Diego !!!  had my picture taken, signed the whole shabang !!!  

Been married 3 times !!! Oooops !!!  my baad, didn't mean for that one to leak out !!! hey, if you're still reading my blog !!! You definitely deserve some personal (not widely advertised experiences), see, I love love !!!  and I love life !!!!  I don't care what had happened in the past !!!  We are not the same person we were 30 days ago !!!  We are always constantly growing, expanding and evolving, wanting to experience it all !!!  Wanting to grow and to expand !!!  and that causes us to evolve, and if we're with someone, and either you or the other has different growth, expansion, evolving curves, and will likely be not the same growth curve, this is basically what had happened.  That we were on different wave lengths --different planes, that afterwards it was a Win-Win Learning, Growth, Expanding and Evolving Experience !!!  We both learned and ultimately grew from it !!!  and yes, there was some exciting joyous times and there were some deep rooted issues that had to be dealt with.  So, how can you ultimately judge anyone ???  wow, it's almost 4am !!  on a sat !!!  I think I'll stop when I'm absolutely ready to go to bed !!  or crash out in my van ola !!!  

Life is Good, Learning is Good, Not caring what others think or say is good, Not Giving a damn what anybody thinks or says or the possibility of what they might say or think is good... See we have to start living "Our Lives" for "US" !!!!  For Me !!!!  I'm going to post a pic that really says it all....I tried, it's not my pic... it's rejecting it.... I'll try to get it somehow... // it's 5:12am Sat... at DD, well just google:  " This is your life pic"


here's the link ::  This is Your Life Pic

5:32am now, feeling pretty good... Met 2 super cool guys, one of them needed a charger for his iphone, I had one, and so just talking about life and travels.... //

MUST LOVE LIFE on the ABSOLUTE Leading Cliff EDGE EDGE !!!!

Well, last night I did waited patiently till 12am Thurs so I would be able to withdraw the expected $240 that would be in the account, so I could go get some gas and was planning on going to the Oneness Blessing Function at Unity in Chicago !!!  yes, just minutes before the 12midnight arrived I was writing in my morning pages doc, and I kid you not this is what I wrote, better yet, let me copy and paste it real quick:

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All I want to say is Thank You Infinite Divine Source !!!  Thank you Soooo Very Much !!!  Thank You for the Monday nights Feast !!  I definitely needed that !!!  Thank You !!! thank you for being with me, guiding me, leading me, conversing with me, having instantaneous conversations, knowledge, knowing, information, about what I want and need to know what to do… Thank You !!!  I have written my blueprint and I’m ready to start !!!  The starting of my Incredible Extreme Adventurous Journey into my Metamorphosis !!!  Watch the $$ doesn’t come in, you know, it’ll all be good !!!  I”ll be fine if it doesn’t come through tonight !!!  it’s all good, All Is Good, Whatever Happens Is Good and Perfect !!  I know this, I know this at the Absolute Level !!! Thank You !!!  5 min till !!!  who’s watching the clock !! /?  Watch the batt dies !!!  That’ll be funny !! All good baby !!! all good !!! I’m getting a bit nervous now !!!  11:57pm !!! I am going to wait till 12:05am… oh dang, that’s right ??  whose 4/28/11 ???  central standard time ??  or Western ??  or eastern ????  Ahhhhh !!!!!  Well, I’m about to find out in a few more min !!!  regardless of what happens, it’s all good !!  I’ll just go back to my night spot in Glen Ellyn, and call it a night ya know, and try again when I wake up ??? 

All good, it’s All Good//

12:03am, well, I don’t know how I missed it before but, there is a small caption that said, Funds will be available one day after the post date !!!  So, it looks like I’m here for another day !!!  Brother, I’m done with all of this !!!  Seriously !!  So I won’t be able to make it out there to the Oneness at Unity…. // it’s alright, it’s all good, just like I said, it’s all good my friend, it totally is"  


This is what I wrote just moment's before  and after I found out and read that caption that the Funds will be available 1 day after the post date !!!  hahaaaaahaa !!!!!  You know what is WAS All Good, I saved 3/4 of last nights coffee and I reheated it up in the college cafeteria micro, so I had a very hot coffee, which I needed, it wasn't freezing freezing last night but, it was cold enough to want something hot and warm, and so I went to the library, writing in morning pages and started to read "the Artist's Way" and got to the page where it absolutely said, that no matter what, write at LEAST 3 Pages, Non-Negotiable, Regardless of how you are feeling, yeah, soo, I went back to my morning pages to make sure that I wrote my 3 whole pages, which I love to do now !!!   I can write all day, and I have been this morning and wanted to read the whole entire book of the Artist's Way and I did !!!  and I have a few more hours left here in the library, I just wanted to let you know what had happened last night and today...


See, I already knew that regardless if I received the money or not received the money, I would be well taken care of, and there is something else going on behind the scenes which is non of my business !! Well, I only had 16 cents to my pocket, I do have .54 cents in my bank account, and so basically I nursed my morning coffee as long as I could all day today and went down the college library coffee shop with my 16cents and with my empty McD's large coffee cup and I asked the barista If there is any way I can get a refill ??  she said, Not in that cup!! and then I smiled and said, I only have 16 cents on me, I'm totally broke right now.. and she said, Go Ahead, and so I got an instantaneous msg from Infinite Divine telling me to donate that 16 cents into their "Donations Jar" and I did and she noticed that and Thanked Me !!!  and I said, Thank You Sooooo Very Much !!!  and got my Hot Coffee, cream and with some raw sugar !!!  See, I know for a fact and I have 1000% Absolute Trust that I'll be alright !!!  I'll be just Beyond Perfect !!!  it's 9:08pm right now, and in about 3 hrs I should be able to withdraw the $240 tonight by 12mindnight... you know what ???  Even if I'm not able to withdraw any money ???  I know for an Absolute Fact I'll Be Alright !!!  Just like how I got a hot coffee when I needed one, to comfort me and to have proof that my well being will always be well.


Plus !!!  I got to read the whole entire book of "the Artist's Way" !!!!!  YEAH !!!!!  signing out, oh yeah, I'm going to start another blog just for "the Artist's Way", I am going to implement the 12 week course into my 111 Day Metamorphosis Curriculum !!!!  is this the Infinite Divine Master Artist at work ??  It Absolutely Is !!!!!   So, check out that, I'm going to write down Exercises and the Tasks and the Daily Affermations/Prayers/etc.... there for every week.  I'm sooo glad I'm here, I'm sooo glad you're there reading this !!!  Don't know who just yet, but, I know someone who truly needed to read my Blind Faith Life on the Absolute Leading Edge Cliff Edge of Pure Adventure !!!  I see u 2... Oz

Sun May 1st , 2011 is the "Last and Final" Official Start Date but, I might get an Early Start !!!!

Ahhhhh, where to begin on my Incredible and Ever So Adventuresome Life Journey of mine !!! ???

I don't know if I mentioned that I'll be receiving my monthly stipend of $240 on 4/28/11 Thurs which is tonight at 12am !!!   Right now, I've been the Glen Ellyn area sort of trapped because I have zero $$ and I have zero gas !!!  Therefore I'm trapped !!!!  Luckily I know how far the gas gauge stick can go before I really not drive, I'm just driving to the college and to my "night spot" and that's about it, about a block or 2 every day !!  Writing, writing on my book, resting, relaxing before the Metamorphosis start date... buuuuut, since I'm going to be withdrawing some $$, I can get some gas and I can be on my way to Morton Grove to my other "night spot" there !! and get my 2 cases of tuna and then get warmed up at Bally's Northshore !!  I sooo love that gym !!!  Love it !!! Absolutely Love it !!!  I kinda like a lil bit.... ,  then I'll be going to the Oneness Blessing Q & A at Unity Church on Thome, Wow, you're getting all the details today !!!  So, that'll be it for Thurs and then Friday I'm going to start up the Metamorphosis !!!!  Go to my DY  Dahn Yoga !!!!  and then Bally's until close !!!  Yep, I sooo cannot wait !!

Today at the McD's I spent my last dollar bill to get some coffee and been refilling since 11am today and it's now 8:25pm !!  I was writing and planning out my metamorphosis, writing in my morning/afternoon pages and drawing out my Blueprint for the Rest of My Life !!!!  Wow !!!  I finished it and it fitted on one side of an 8 1/2 x 11 blank piece of paper, I wrote some personal words to myself about my whole life plan, aka blueprint for the rest of my life !!! I absolutely couldn't believe it !!!  that it felt soooo good !!! that this is finally it !!! when I first started the blueprint I wrote on top of the page, 5 yr plan, and then once after I was done with the blueprint, I didn't care if it took me 15, 20, 25 years !!!!  To accomplish what I had on that one side of the piece of paper !!!  This blueprint is for my whole entire life !!!!!!  Wow !!!!!  I was absolutely grateful that it was not me but, the Infinite Divine assisting me and guiding me to write it all out !!  so I can see it, touch it, read it, feel it, and visualize every step of the way !!!!  every box !!  every arrow... Thank you !!  Thank YOu soooo very much... // got the Dinner crowd at McD's now !!  a lot of kiddies !!  // And the blueprint for my whole entire life starts with My Metamorphosis !!!!

Before I start on the blueprint I first must complete my Metamorphosis 1st !!!!  I have to change, transform and to metamorphosize into the Ultimate Being that I want to become and be !! 1st !!! I have to be that being 1st !!!  In order for me to complete and accomplish the rest of the blueprint, and it won't be just me, myself and I it'll be a team effort of myself, my Divine Self, Infinite Divine Universe and all of it's Source Energy Marines, Battalion's of them !!!  Working 24/7 on my behalf, working behind the scenes, making sure that whatever I say, envision, plan for, focus on, expect,  Will Come To Pass....Will Come To Pass, It Doesn't Matter How Humongous your Vision or Blue Print is, It Will Come To Pass... with me, it could take 50 years for me to accomplish my blueprint, but, you know what ??  I don't care, I know that I'll be the most happiest man on Earth just believing, living and experiencing the Journey !!!!  the Adventure of it all !!!  Thaaat my friend is the Purpose for living our unique and incredible lives!!!  So, here I am, "Trapped" just waiting to be UNLEASHED !!!!!!  In about 3 more Hours !!!!  I SHALL BE RELEASED and Will Be UNLEASHED to LIVE MY LIFE and to transform my life into the Ultimate Divine Being that the Infinite Divine Universe Sees Me As !!!!  That is what I'll be after My Metamorphosis !!!!  It'll be sooooo Incredibly ON !! It's Sooo ON !!!   What I mean by "On" is just that feeling of Immense Anticipation of Humongous Transformation !!!  The changes physical, mental and spiritual will be Sooo Incredibly Massive in Just Days !!!!  After I have been released from my handcuffs and shackles, that's how I felt since Sat !!!  zero $$ and zero gas and what do you do, luckily I had some Divine Intervention with the food dept. yeah, I won't go into details but, I had to do what I had to do to survive, let'as just say, I'm definitely in Neale Donald Walshs shoes when he was in mine right now !!! See, this is where the Living on the Absolute Extreme Leading Edge of Life !!!  Pure Absolute Blind Faith and Pure Absolute Adventure, this is where you and the Infinite Divine become One !!!  I have 100000% Absolute Blind Faith Trust that no matter what happens, no matter what situation arises, I'll be absolutely fine !!!  I might not have the comfy cushy comforts 24/7 but, that is why I was transformed into a U.S. Marine to help prepare for my Extreme Adventure with the Infinite Divine, it's not for the weak, timid, unsure, faithless, hey, on Jan 1, 2011 I let go of everything !!!  I mean Everything !!  I let the Solar Winds of the Universe Take Me where I needed to go, to the people I needed to connect with, the experiences and learning lessons that I needed to go through and learn, I was willing to go through it all !!!  and yes, I just about went through it all, yeah, but, you know what ??  It's Been Soooo Unbelievably Worth It !!!

So, here I am just hours before I'm going to be released and I'm just salivating, waiting to be UNLEASHED !!!!  and It Will Be Soooo Incredibly On !!!  I know for the month of May of 2011, I guarantee that this upcoming month will be the most transformational life DNA changing month in my Entire Life !!!!  I feel it !!  I feel that every cell in my body feels it coming !!!  oh yeah, every cell in my body knows exactly what to do and where to go and they feel it coming as much as I do !!! Oh yeah, they know exactly of what's about to happen and they are absolutely ready !!!!!  9:14pm now and less than 3 hrs !!!  I feel like I'm about to set free from my Life Sentence in cuffs and shackles!!!  Yeah, getting a bit emotional right now ya know, I've been through a lot, been through it all, and the only one whoever had my back was the Infinite Divine !!!  Friends, family, they say they care, but, I know that I had to do this on my own, even though I did ask for a month to get back on my feet, I was handed a "counter offer" May $250 (pay later), that hit me soooo incredibly hard, of course I played it off as if it didn't affect me.... I don't know, if you had a son, birth blood son, and you knew that he was living out of his car, in the cold Chgo weather, freezing at nights, not able to buy food, trying his best to provide for himself and to be on his own, and he asked you for at least one month to get back on my feet and after the month, that he's willing to pay some kind of rent and buy his own food, etc.  until he's on his own two feet again ??  Would you give your son at least a month to help him get back on his feet ??

I was handed a piece of paper that stated, " May $250 (pay later), June $300, July $350, Aug $400, Sept $450, Oct $500".... the other months I definitely agree with and totally understand but, it was the 1st month of May that had a huge impact on me.  Wow...She wouldn't give me a month to get back on my two feet again, knowing that I'm living out of my van and not having money to eat.   I absolutely felt that I was only just a dollar bill, that she didn't care about me at freaking all...  I couldn't believe it, yeah, as soon as she left to do her Sat things, I bailed out, knowing that I won't be back for a very very very long time.  And I used all of the gas that I had in the tank to go to visit her from Morton Grove, and that is why I'm "trapped" out here in Glen Ellyn, IL because I don't have any gas nor any $$ .  And decided right then and there I Have to Take My Metamorphosis Sooooooo Freaking SERIOUS !!!!  LIFE & DEATH !!!!!!    I will never feel like that ever again, Never !!! Never Again !!!  It's crazy how this was Exactly What I Needed to Catapult Me into the Heavens !!!  That Button Was Pushed and Was Exactly What I Needed !!!!  Oh Shit yeah !!! I needed that !!  to get some Jet Engine Torch Flames Coming out of me !!!!  Haa haaa, See, and the Infinite Divine knows that this is going to be the result of having my Button being pushed like that !!!

That is why !!!  I know for a Fact !!!  that from May 1, 2011 to Aug 19, 2011 it's totally mine, it's my life, my metamorphosis, my world, my Universe !!!  That I knew I Must Go Through the full entire 111 Days !!! of my Metamorphosis !!!  I must change NOW !!!!  Transform NOW !!!!!  The time is NOW !!!!  To Change My Life !!!  I'm done living like this, but, at the same time, I'm very grateful for everything !!!  that van is a Godsend !!!  saved my life !!!  Saved my limbs from getting frostbite !!!  Adventure !!  Journey !!  Life on the Extreme Leading Edge-Edge, Clif-Edge !!!  yeah, I let go fully and completely Jan 1, 2011 at the Bodhi Burning Bowl Ceremony.  I let go !!!  and now, almost 5 months later, I'm going to embark the most Life Changing DNA transforming and cell metamorphosizing experience in my Entire Life !!!!  My Metamorphosis to transform myself into the being that the Infinite Divine Source sees me as and to become one and intertwined with the Infinite Divine, to have instantaneous immediate communication, knowing, instructions, information, the Whole Sha-Bang !!!!!   To Do, Be and Become Whomever I Want and to Accomplish Anything I Want.... Wow !!!  That's Absolutely Amazing Isn't it ??  That life of Invincibility with Humbleness... To be the change that I would like to see in the world...  I'm ready, I Never Been Soooo Ready In My Entire Life !!!!! Thank You Source !!! Thank You Infinite Divine Great Creator,... Thank You...

Looks like we gotta long one here, hunh ??  Ahhhh, Almost 2 hrs to go ??  it's 9:52pm right this second !!  No you have a better understanding why it feels like I'm going to be Released and now you know why that I'm going to be "UNLEASHED" !!!!  oh yeah, watch out my friend, watch out !!  I'm going to be like a 100 T-Rex's all into 1 Body !!!!!  going to find a T-Rex pic real quick... brb...

The Current Down and Dirty with What has been going on !!!!

Oh yeah, making my Metamorphosis into a high action, high drama, suspence thriller !!!! 

I did mention that you must be 10000% ALL OUT with your metamorphosis, we're dealing with Your Life !!!!  My LIFE !!!  I Have to Make This Absolutely the Most Important Time in my Entire Life !!!  the time that I am transforming my life, to make a trip to here and there, I am not going to be guilted into doing something that I do not want to do, and I will not accept any invitations that is not relationgn to my Metamorphosis !!  Oh yeah, I'm going to pretend that I'm in Solitary Confinement where I'm All Alone, but, in this case I'll be All Alone with the Infinite Divine Creator !!!  Let's just say that a button of mine has been pushed, which needed to be pushed for me to take my Metamorphosis Absolutely Serious !!!!  Oh yeah, it's On Baby !!! It's Sooo On, I never been ready in my Entire Life !!!  That was part of the reason that I moved the dates back again !!!  Haa, Yess again baby !!!  gotta be flexible !!!  All is Good !! All is Good !!!  I just wanted to make sure I am going to experience every day of the 111 Days with the utmost Passion, Respect, Honor and with Extreme Enthusiasm !!!  So, I wanted to start over, and to be fully ready and able to do my scheduled of daily events without any distraction or having to go somewhere because of finances aka going to the plasma deal, spending time and $ that are not in relation to my metamorphosis. 

The $240 I will be receiving, each dollar has a name and place for the month of May !!!  Right now I'm feeling that as soon as I receive the $243 into my account that I will be UNLEASHED !!!!!!!!  Oh Snap !!! I'm going to be Soooooooo UNLEASHED !!!!!!!!!  oh yeah, !!!!  you're going to think T-Rex has been reincarnated !!!!!  No Freaking Sheet !!!!  oh yeah,....  I never been soooo ready in my Entire Life to transform every cell of my being, to become what the Infinite Divine sees in me.  Actual Actualization at the Infinite Divine Level !!!  oh yeah, oh yesss, Thank You... Thank You, Thank You for my life !!!  My life is going to be Soooo Incredibly Amazing !!!  Just me and the Infinite Divine !!! for 111 Days !!!  Wow !!!  That's Huge !!! Thank You !!  Thank You !! Thank you... Forever thank you's for infinity !! 

Side note, today is Tues, April 26th, 2011, I found out I'm expected to have the $$ in the account on 4/28/2011 which is Thursday !!!  Soooo, I'm definitely going to have a head start on my metamorphosis !!!  Most likely I'll wait till Thurs morning to get the cash, get gas (been driving on E all week !!!) get my tuna and go to Northshore Bally's !!!  To get crackin on that water !!!  Dang, I actually miss drinking them gallons of water per day and pissing every 30 min at night !!!  So that's it for now, Just waiting to be Unleashed on Thurs !!!!  Ahhhhhhhhhh Boy I cannot wait !!!!  OMG and D I cannot wait to be Unleashed !!!!!  I'm sooo Ready !!! Soo, sooo , sooo-sooo Ready for my Transformation and Ultimately My Total Human Metamorphosis.  Thank You... and so it is, Oz

NEW FINAL & LAST DATES !!!!!! May 1, 2011 to Aug 19, 2011 !!!! = 111 Days ***** My Metamorphosis

Here we go again right ???   haaaa, see this Metamorphosis thing has a mind of its own, I'm telling ya.  Yes, this Is and Will Be It !!!!!  111 Days !!!  I have decided that I'm going to go through the full 111 Days and not to waiver at anything or anyone whatsoever.  That this is the Most Important Life Altering/Transformational Experience I can ever go through all by myself with the Infinite Divine.

Something did happen when I made a trip that basically used up all of my gas and I definitely learned from that experience, let's just say that a button has been pushed, which needed to be pushed for me take my Metamorphosis Absolutely Serious, Life and Death Serious, of Most Important Thing in my Entire Life !!!!   And to not let the name of days guilt you into doing something that you don't want to do or go to, what I mean by that, for example any birthdays or holidays, etc.... Once you have set your dates, those are part of your covenant and promise not only to yourself but to your future life and with the Infinite Divine.

I'm going to copy and paste my actual Covenant right here, I'm also going to impliment "the Artist's Way" into my curriculumn and will be a part of my covenant as well, here it is:

Oscar Zepeda’s Metamorphosis

Covenant & Schedule

111 Days to Total Human Transformation

Sun May 1, 2011 – Fri August 19, 2011

Sat, April 23, 2011 Sat Preface:

This is the 5^th Day of the “Official Start Date” of my metamorphosis.  I truly feel that I should have the “Ultimate Final Start Date” should be this coming May 1^st, 2011.  I have experienced something that I Absolutely Needed that would Catapult Me into the Universe !!!!  and this time I’m going to take weekly pics, reports and video record myself !!!!   My Metamorphosis Will Be Divinely Documented By Oscar Zepeda.

Ultimate Final Start Date: 

Sunday, May 1^st, 2011 to Friday August, 19^th, 2011 will be 111 Days of my Metamorphosis.

Rules for Metamorphosis:  Only Consume, All Meats, All Raw Veggies, Fruits and Water, Only Exception is when I am offered eg:  Coffee black, Healthy type Buffet type spread, might have other misc. than listed at (Synphoria) or while visiting family.  Everything else, I will politely deny.  Consume a can of tuna as soon as I wake up and 3 ½ hours thereafter until the 4^th can of tuna has been consumed, relished and cherished.

Planned Monthly Divine Must Go Events:  GPAD Every  1^st Sat = $10, Chi Ka Go 1^st Sun = $10, Synphoria Sat =$20, Wed Mid-Week Dance ($20 month)=$5 every Wed. Total Monthly Exp = $60

Weekly Schedule: DY(Dahn Yoga), B (Bally’s) & Monthly/Weekly Events

Sun:  No DY, B = 8:10am-Pilates Mat, 9:30am-Reaction Cycling, 11:30am-PilatesAllegro, 12:30pm-PilatesCircuit.  After this Rest, Relax and Read, Tailor,

Monday:  DY= 9:15am, B=4:30 Pilates Mat, 6pm Reaction Cycling, 7:30pm Cardio Dance

Fast Day Tuesday:  DY = 10:30am, B= 5:30pm PowerFlex, 6:30pm Pilates Circuit, 7:30pm Pilates

Allegro

Wednesday:  DY= 9:15am, B= 10:45pm Pilates Allegro, 12noon “  “, 4:30pm Pilates Ring/Roller, 6pm Reaction Cycling, Yoga Now 9pm Mid-Week Styley Dance.

Thursday:  DY= 10:30am, B= 5:30pm Pilates Circuit, 7pm Pilates Allegro.

Friday:  DY= 9:15am, B= 5pm Pilates/Ring/Roller, 6:30pm Kwando,  (will go to 3^rd 4^th Friday Oneness/Kirtan at Bodhi)

Sat:  DY = 9:15am, No Classes at Bally’s but will be working out at Bally’s !!!  

I will Absolutely Serious About my Metamorphosis, For the Month of May, I will not go to plasma !!! 

Budget: Monthly Budget: $240 - $71(tuna) = $169-60 (Divine events) = $109 (Gas), I will not make any “Frivolous Trips”  etc..  I will walk/run whenever and wherever possible !!!!   Eg:  to Dahn Yoga and Back to Bally’s Etc…  Only to Bally’s, Dahn Yoga Glenview, to library, etc…

Zero Cell Phone, Zero Checking Email/Emailing, Zero Facebook, going even on it, only my blog and that is it!!

This is it in nutshell and is only the Broadview Overall Covenant of my Metamorphosis !!!!  I will go through with this with FIRE, PASSION and with Extreme Enthusiasm !!!!!!!!  YEAHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!  and I won’t beat myself up if I stray once or twice from my Metamorphosis experience.  It’s all good, Rome wasn’t built over night..

This Covenant is my LIFE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    I will go through with this with Infinite Love and Gratitude !!!  Thank You…. And So It Is, thank you Sooooo Very very much !!!!!  thank you…

I definitely want to get some measurements and some figures like weight and % body fat. 

·         Create a New FaceBook Profile and Email !!!! 

·         Complete Start Over !!!!  Completely !!!!  Everything NEW !!!!

·         New Friends, New Family

The ARTIST’s WAY Contract

I, Oscar Zepeda, understand that I am undertaking an intensive, guided encounter with my own creativity.  I commit myself to the 111 Day duration of my personal metamorphosis.  I, Oscar Zepeda commit to weekly reading, daily morning pages, a weekly artist date, and the fulfillment of each week’s tasks.

I, Oscar Zepeda, further understand that this course will raise issues and emotions for me to deal with.  I, Oscar Zepeda, commit myself to excellent self-care—adequate sleep, diet, exercise, and pampering—for the duration of the 111 Days.

Oscar J. Zepeda

X ____________________________________

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Now this is Very Extreme and Extreme is Me !!!  No Cell (have been w/o a cell for about 2 months now!!), No checking email/No sending email and Not even going on Facebook at all !!!!  Only write on this blog that you're currently reading !!!  Since I know that this post is pretty lengthy I'm going to make another post, to have some real life no sugar coating talk.... brb... Oz

ONLY DAY 4 !!!!!! Whoa !!!!!!

The reason that I can truly think of, of why it seems sooo much longer than day 4 is probably because of my countless attempts to "Start" the Metamorphosis !!!  There was a "Trial Run", a "Fine Tuning Week",a "Mock Test Period", etc. etc. and etc. !!!!  I made the "Official Start Date" of April 18th, 2011, Mon, and today is Fri !!! Only 4 Days into the Metamorphosis !!!  I also made the Executive Decision of going through the full 111 Days !!!  Not 60 or 91 days !!!  The full deal... and I'm receiving Divine instructions on how to best Metamorphosize my life, my body, mind and Spirit... 

I also wanted to say, that "Rome Wasn't Built Overnight"... Today,  I did buy some Fig Newtons (whole package) (Aldi's version) and some Chocolate/Peanut Butter Wafers (box) I admit it !!!  I sooo wanted to buy the 1 lb bag of peanut M&M's but got these two instead !!  It was sooo delicious !!!  See, I know that I'm here for the long haul and these two items is only temporary and that I'll break through the next time I have a craving.  See, experience is the best teacher !!!  If you haven't gone through it, how will you ever know and learn??  I'm definitely not going to beat myself over it, that's for sure, I'm glad I got to taste and experience something sooo good and delicious !!!   And that All is Well, and it's Perfect Fine and Normal to take the scenic route with my strict lifestyle of water and tuna !!!  Even as I write, I'm having a large McD's coffee with cream and sugar !!!!  Hey, it's All Goood !!!!  I know that I'll be flushing everything with about 2-3 gallons of water !!!!  and tuna !!!  so it's All good, All Good .... Those are my words for today...  Happy Easter !!!  Oscar Z

News Freaking Flash !!!! You Must Prove To Yourself That You Mean Business !!!

I'm incredibly amazed by the Absolute Truth that I am receiving !!!  See this Personal Metamorphosis is a living, breathing, evolving entity, and I'm getting instructions and blocks of thought of what is essential to one's personal self transformation / metamorphosis.  I"m Absolutely Amazed at the instructions and absolute truth that I'm receiving.  One of those Absolute Truths about metamorphosizing someone's life is that, "You Must Prove To Yourself That You Mean Freaking Business !!!!  Every Cell in your entire body must know without a shadow of doubt that you mean absolute business.  Just hours ago, I told myself, I was going to give myself another month !!  and what happened to the 111 Days to Total Human Metamorphosis ???  Was about to sell myself and my future life short ???  For what ???  for a Security Job at nights ???  yeah, I was totally about to go that route, and then something within myself said, "In order for you to have a life long transformation and an actual Human Metamorphosis You Must Prove To Yourself That You Mean Absolute Business !!!!  and I got the chills of the Divine all over me !!! Whoaaa and Wow !!!!!   and to go through what you have initial had the intention for, 111 Days !!!  Not 30, not 61 days, but the full deal !!!  Wow !!! this is big, that was huge !!!  So, I did math, and the 111th day is August 6th, 2011 !!!  and I will continue with the regime that I'm being led and guided to do.  To best transform my whole entire being !!!!

One of those guided instructions was from the financial induced fast that I had experience yesterday!!  I only ate 2 cans of tuna on Monday and fasted on Tues and I went to work out at Bally's at about 12noon-sh, after I worked out with a bunch of cardio and weight machines, at about 9:00pm, I was done-done !!!  and then I went to the jacuzzi, sauna and pool, did these a couple times just to feel the body and to just relax.  I kid you not, I felt like I was high !!!  I felt like was in another dimension, another plane, another world !!!  Some guy complimented on my tatts and asked me if was drunk or took some drugs !!!  I was like wha ??  Yeah, I worked out till I was in another dimension, and I want to experience that again... So, I will implement a day of fasting, telling my body the heads up about my upcoming planned fast, and that I'm doing this for my life, my transformation, for my metamorphosis, for my future, future businesses, for my whole entire being, Body, Mind,  Spirit Everything !!! This happened just minutes ago and I'm very glad I'm able to capture this moment of awareness.  Infinite Love and Gratitude, Oscar Z

I'm Inspired to Write Some Divine Inspired Words Right Here & Now...

As I write this, I know that we are living in an age of change, transformation and evolution.  That with my own personal transformation and metamorphosis.  Deep down I know that I'm Soooo Much More than I am right now.  Just acknowledging that fact, the Universe is giving me a standing ovation.  That's the 1st personal acknowledgment that you must realize for yourself.  There is no time frame for this own personal awareness of your own personal Divine Power.  The 2nd portion is to act upon to your new found reality of yourself.  For myself, I want to do it all !!!!  The Whole Sha-Bang Baby !!!!   Best Selling Author, World-Renowned Speaker, Masterpiece Artist, Successful Entrepreneur.  It's not about the titles or the money, for me I want to inspire the masses for greatness.  That if I can change my life you can definitely change yours !! 

Perception, Belief, Attitude, Self-Talk Is EVERYTHING !!!!!!!!  oh, let's not forget about Environment, Friends and Family !!!  that's Soooo Critical as well, and you must definitely listen to you and you alone !!!  Yes, your friends and family is only looking out for your best interests and ultimately their own best interests.  About a few months ago I watched an episode of J-Lo, Behind the Music from VHI, I think they might still have that episode on their website, www.vh1.com.  She broke through of what her family wanted her to do and was ultimately had to do it her way.  Her mom wanted her to become a lawyer or an accountant for a big law firm, something like that, but, she wanted to pursue dancing and acting, which she eventually landed her first break on "In Living Color", that was my favorite show back in the day !!!   Fire Marshal Bill !!!!  Ahhh, ha, ha, ha, ha... !!  See, she knew that she had to pursue her own dream and passion in life, she definitely had a falling out with her own family, but, now, of course it's all good now !!! right ??  I'm just trying to illustrate the point that we know more than we give credit for ourselves.  So Listen To YOU !!!!!  YOU Knows Best for YOU !!!  Do What You Want to Do !!!  and Meet and Be Around Like Minded people, yes, your new future life will have new and improved friendships and relationships.

We All have an internal GPS, and that is guided by "How You Feel".  We've been taught that "Emotion" should never be in picture when making any type of decision, well, I'm telling you that this is our way of knowing if we're on the right track to what we ultimately want to have and to experience.

That was my nugget of inspiration, for more info about our Internal Guidance System, I would highly suggest Abraham-Hicks 
Thank You, from Oz

2 Days After the Big "Official" Start Date and It seems like 2 Years !!!! Wow !!!

I never knew that embarking on an Extreme Total Personal Transformation would get to know the Real True Me!!  Just Me, Myself and the Infinite Divine.  I have received a "Now Plan", what to do NOW !!!!  Pretty Amazing !!!  I also experienced a financial induced fasting for a day, that experience was very enlightening.  The night before, I told my body that I'm going to experience a fast, that I'm fasting for my transformation, my metamorphosis, my future, my businesses, my life, for the world and the Universe, to have an attitude of gratitude for the experience that I am now living.  The whole day, I wasn't hungry !!!  I did drink about 2-3 gallons of water though, I'm officially a H20-Aholic!!!  while I was working out at Bally's.  I felt strong and was amazed that my body kept up with what I wanted to do.  My key awareness was that I told my body what was going to happen and to not worry about not receiving any food/fuel for the day, it's only temporary and only for one day and I'm doing this for my transformation and for my life !!!!!  That I'm Very Serious About my Transformation.. and every cell of my body received a "Heads Up" not to worry, it's only temporary !!!  same with the chilliness at night, wow !!!  I wrote this in my "Morning Pages" (journal), No wonder it was chilly, it's Freaking Snowing !!!!  in Mid April !!!  only in Chgo !!! Baby !!!!  only in Chgo !!!  I knew that the current experiences is only temporary and that I'll experience all of the so called challenging times with a deep rooted/seeded attitude of gratitude and love.  To me it's All Good, All Good !!!! All Goood.  I received the "Now Plan" the day of the "Official Start Date"... haaa, Wow !!  and also I realized that I am capable of sooo much more !!!   So much more !!!!  Sooo much more !!!  Yeah, just me and the Infinite Divine having some personal time together.  That Anything is Truly Possible in this Incredible and Amazing Universe !!!  Anything...

I also decided to give myself another month !!!!  To really "Go All Out" !!!!!  with my Transformation and Metamorphosis !!!  I'll be on a very limited budget, which is good because it'll help me to work out even more.  And I'm also going to integrate some Dahn Yoga and regular yoga classes at Bally's, since I paid for the Bally's membership for the year already !!! and am a Lifetime Member with Dahn Yoga.   I sooo cannot believe that it's been only 2 days after the Official Start Date, that I'm receiving Divine action steps to do right after I am done with my Transformation/Metamorphosis Bootcamp...  So, I have 10 days till the end of this month of April, I'm going to go hard and strong, and May !!!  Watch Out !!!!  It's Sooooo On !!!!  Sooo On !!!!  I am definitely making some noticeable physical changes, getting closer to the end result.

So, this was a quick update, for my personal transformational bootcamp, until next time !!!   Oz

Official Start Date Monday, April 18th, 2011 !!!! My Last Instar = Cocoon Phase

I was reading about the Metamorphosis of a caterpillar and how it has 5 attempts to fully chrysalis (cocoon), the 4 prior attempts is basically shedding off their old skin for growth and expansion which is called instar and then the final attempt is where the cocoon will be formed. More Info on Butterfly Metamorphosis

 Wow !!! I'm just relating that to my own life, how I attempted to transform my whole life, been almost a year that I wanted to something totally extreme to change my whole entire life, I had previous start dates, all have been compromised, yes much growth and expansion and much "shedding" off old skin, old habits, old life, old environment, old friends, old lifestyle, anything that doesn't serve my New Divine Blended Bodies (Body, Mind, Spirit Connection).  I remember sometime last year during the summer, I was loving life, Gorgeous Day and I was eating a pint of misc. goodies  from the buffet at Whole Foods, it was Soooo Delicious !!!  Sauteed mushrooms, asparagus and other treats, oh yeah, some tomatoes, Mmmmmmm,  Dang !!!  I wanted to be outside while I ate this Incredible Feast !!!  I found a strip of grass at the end of the parking lot in Wheaton, just appreciating everything, seeing planet Earth for the very 1st time with my new blending being eyes (What I mean about blending being eyes, is that I'm seeing what the Infinite Divine Sees through my physical eyes.)

These two somewhat young guys, early 20's they were walking and came over to me, we both said, Hi !!  and they came over to talk, I was friendly and they were friendly, and asked me if I believed in God, I said, Of Course !!!!  Excitedly and Loudly !!! They complimented on my extreme enthusiasm, I think they were trying to "Save Me" which I used to be in their same shoes when I was their age, so I know the drill, Romans 10: something, "The Saving of Someones Life, into the Kingdom of Heaven"...  so I just played along, and told them that I'm definitely One with the Infinite, and they both asked me if they could pray for me, I said, "Of Course !!"  so they both laid hands on me praying, praying in tongues, and later one of the guys told me that he had a vision while he was praying, that I was about to emerge from the cocoon to become a butterfly!!  This happened about maybe 1-2 yrs ago !!!

Incredible, almost about year ago, I went to a Chakra Healing Yoga Event and they showed a video clip on how the caterpillar will go through a transformation and will be going through a metamorphosis and eventually become a beautiful butterfly.  Wow !!!  I was Amazingly Shocked on how I am actually seeing the process and how it relates to my life.  I knew this would eventually come, the actual official start date of my own metamorphosis.  From all of the "Instars" the shedding of the skin for growth and expansion I am now going to enter the last instar that will form a complete cocoon totally surrounding my mind, body and spirit.  How am I going to do this human cocoon thang ??

 In the 1st initial post, another attempt,  I mentioned that I basically gave up everything, my place, all of my furnishings, all of my prized possessions, and so now it's only me and the Infinite Divine, leading me and guiding me, and I have fully and completely "let go" of the reigns and let the Wind of the Universe take me wherever I need to go.  It is a somewhat daunting experience especially from the "logic" side of the brain...  What??, you got rid of Everything !!!  How will you live, how will you survive, what will you do, what will people think, what will you do for work, How will you eat, All these logic side of the brain questions..... In order to experience the true transformational experience of your Human Metamorphosis, you must create a cocoon all by yourself, just you!!! (no one else, there isn't another caterpillar in the other caterpillar's cocoon asking the one who is about have the metamorphosis, asking him/her all these logically based questions.)     A cocoon that surrounds 100% completely around your Mind, Body and Spirit.  And that friends and family will not understand why you're going into seclusion, you try to explain, but, I know.  Some will get it some won't. 

 Your environment and the people you associate with and spend time with is Absolutely Key, Vital, Critical, Life or Death Serious !!!  I tried to do both, go through my metamorphosis and spend time with friends and family,  but, I found out they do have influence, you waste and drain your energy trying to explain, "What is it that you're trying to do now ??"  again, and they influence and cause distractions.  So I told mom, that I'll be in seclusion for a while at least 111 days, but, I'm thinking maybe 6 months.. we'll see, I will only use human contact as my way of communication, no cell (I let my cell phone lapse 3 weeks ago), this next one will be tricky,  internet use, Hmmmm, I'm still thinking heavily about this one, yeah, I don't think the caterpillar has a micro opening for his antenna in the cocoon, ok, done, zero internet usage, for at least 111 Days, and maybe once a month for 15 min thereafter.  Whoa !!! that's big !!!  Or maybe once a week write about my experience here on this blog ??   I think that would be best, because I want to write as it's currently happening, right in the think of it.  Ok, see, you also have to be extremely flexible and have elasticity, with your own metamorphosis.  I will consume Only Water, All Meats and Raw Veggies and limited fruits.  And zero tv, dvd's, movies, cable or sports games, news, newspapers, mags. I don't even do that now, so it's no biggie !!! 

  I know what I have to do, for I am One with the Infinite Divine that Created the Entire Universe !!!  Haaaa, that's my partner of Adventure that will forever back me up.  I might shed some cozy comforts, I guess that's why I joined the Marine Corps, we can survive through Anything and Live and Sleep Anywhere !!!!  and still kick some major ass !!!  This Extreme Style of  Human Metamorphosis is definitely not for the Faint of Heart who has been pampered or sheltered/bubbled.

My schedule will be as follows,

Mon:9:15am Dahn Holistic Yoga, 11:am Bally Total Fitnes and Bally's Yoga and other classes till 10:30pm

Tues: 9:15am Dahn Holistic Yoga, 11am "                 "    to  7:00, 8pm Synthesis Tues Emily & Preston

Wed: 9:15am Dahn Holistic Yoga, 11am - Bally' to 5:30pm, 6:15pm Dahn Yoga, 7:20pm Power Nap, 9:00pm Wed Nite Divine Dancing at Yoga Now till 11pm/12am

Thurs: 10:30am Dahn Holistic Yoga, Bally's till 10:30pm.

Fri:  9:15am Dahn Yoga, Bally's to 5:30pm, (Depends on Which Fri of the Month) this will be varied if other events 7pm Oneness Blessing right after at 9pm Bahkti Caravan Kirtan Band , or other special "Divine Dancing" events.

Sat:  9:15am Dahn Holistic Yoga, Bally's  to 7pm, and to other special monthly events, Give Peace A Dance and Synphoria , or Deeksha for Oneness Blessing Givers...

Sunday:  Anything that I want !!! Re-juv, relax, read, nap, power nap, sleep, wind down, write in blog !!!! Eat a few extra portions to rebuild the muscles, do some tailoring with my work out wear, chill at a lake, walk a trail in a new Forest Preserve,  be around like minded on the same path Divine Beings and Appreciate Everything !!!  Visit with Family....

This is my Extreme Human Metamorphosis Phase Schedule !!! This will last for at least 111 Days or beyond !!!    I sooo thinking it to be at least 6 months, but we'll see, I was inspired by the 6 months time frame from the show "Heavy" on A and E, go to A & E and check out some Full Episodes on Heavy, to make a Life Long Change you must live it for at least 6 months !!  So, thus why I'm thinking possibly 6 months... we'll see, one thing is for certain that my life will be forever be transformed into the the Divine Blending Being that the Infinite Divine Universe Wants Me to Become !!  Wow !!!  Amazing hunh ??  I'm definitely going to give maybe weekly or bi-monthly blog updates... and pics of transformation...

The Official Start Date is this coming Monday, April 18th, 2011, I'm going to have My Intention Kick Off at tonight's Synphoria and possible Sunday's Full Moon Fire Jam, I might have to walk there !!!!  It's all good baby !!!!  All Good !!  AG-AD-ED (All Good-All Day-Every Day)...  Until next time and next update... signing off: Oscar Zepeda

Butterfly: The Mysteries of Transformation