TAKE BACK YOUR POWER !!!!!!! NOW !!!!!!

I have recently closed a much needed and experienced chapter !!!!  and just now  I'm inspired to write a few words that really hit me hard.  I don't care what their name is, what title he/she has, how Divine/Enlightened/Spiritual they appear to be, Stand Up For Yourself !!!!!   Ahhhhhhh, this is a touchy subject and I know it definitely hit me hard.... and this is a real experience with real people and I'm going to tell my take on the experience.... here we go....I Sooo learned a lot from this experience it definitely altered my way on looking at Spiritual Based gatherings.  Ok, 1st Annual "_______"  Fest in the Midwest Late June 2012.

The what and place is unimportant.  the "Main" Guy who created this event, ok, good, no names here, let's just say, I definitely noticed some type of weird vibe when he would interact with his "team", there was a few times where I mentally said, "Wow".... he said that and like that to him/her ????  (Wow)..... little did I know I was going to be possibly be treated the same way and even worse.  Ok, Since I just recently quit my not-serving-me-well job money was definitely tight... let's just say, there was no way for me to come up with $280 for a 3 day weekend of Bliss, Divine Inspired Music, Yoga, Meditation, Spiritual Everything, and Workshops.... and I was told by a very good spiritual friend if I wanted to "Work Exchange".... for me to come up a day early to help set up.... oh yeah, I was Soooo Psyched !!!!!  1st Day I got there about 10am sh, it was about a 2 hr or so drive, so I haven't even had time to go to the restroom and I met some of the crew.  I was sort of put into the fire.... ok, I'm trying my best to shorten up this long story here and to give you the relevant facts and experiences... ok, I was busting my ass all day without any breaks and have yet to eat breakfast untill 3-4pm.  I lived quite a bit of life already, and to bust ass all day without breaks and food is my fault !!!  for "Work Exchange" yes I know, but, I quickly realized if I wanted some water or some food Me Myself and I better Stop the Fuck I'm Doing Stand Up and Say, Hey !!!  I haven't eaten all day !!! I need a break and I need food now !!!  I said that, Mentally !!!!!  Haaaa, Yep, hey, I admit it, even I am still growing, changing and evolving, and this was a huge one for me !!!!   I did say, I haven't eaten all day and I need a break, somewhat politely but, definitive, I know I'm here on my own free will, to exchange work for admission of the 3 day Fest.... note that this is a Spiritual and Divine Based Festival so you would think that you would be treated a little bit better right ??  I was being yanked left and right to do this and that, picnic tables that had to moved in a certain way, when he pulled me aside and told me look at that over there--I want that same thing like that over here, I'm not going to vent out my complaints here, all I know that was multiple times where I wanted to say, "You know what, I'm not feeling this right now, Thank You, I have to go now"...  which looking back I should have said that and left... but, my "friend"  which I'm sort of helping him out and making him look good I didn't.  Bottom Line from this experience, I was belittled and treated like an absolute retarded monkey !!!!  and I also witnessed the same behavior to his staff !!!!  Wow !!!  I did have some time on Fri to enjoy the music and activities but, deep down the Main Guy fucked it all up !!!!  The Vibe was like, I don't want to be seen because, I know he'll yanked to go do something.  Don't get me wrong I was not being lazy !!!  I was sooo busting my ass and I knew that I would be called to go and do something everytime he saw me !!! I was done !!!  luckily I had to go to a wedding on Sat and was planning on coming back right after the wedding but, the guy ruined the whole vibe for me, and didn't want to come back, so, I came back late Sunday !!! like 1-2am got my camping shit, tried to contact my friend, let him know, I can't do the break down...left a msg and left !!!  I'm not telling you this so you could feel sorry for me not at fucking all !!!  No Way Jose !!!  I learned soooo much from this experience !!!!   I don't care who the fuck you and others call yourself, I Will Never Be Treated Like That Every Again !!!!!!!!   I don't care who you are or what your name is !!!!!!  or what my "Friend" who invited me thinks, says, or does,  !!!!!  I Am ONE with the Infinite Divine Almighty and I Will Not Be Treated Like That-- EVER AGAIN !!!!!! 

Next time, if I can't afford to go !!!  My Ass ain't goin !!!!!!!  hit the gym baby !!!!  Next time I don't care if I was reffered by my friend or not, If I am treated like that ever again, I'm going to STOP right in the middle of it's tracks and Say, " Ahhhhh, you know what ???  I'm not feelin this, I have to go now"..... Infinite Divine Told Me I need to go now !!!! Namaste Sri !!!!

It's not worth it at fucking all !!!!!   We All Have the Same Power that Creates Universes !!!!  and to be treated like shit, beyond shit, even shit has some good protein and nutrients !!!  This experience truly has changed my back, that no matter what or who is involved stand up for yourself, have some serious Back Bone !!!!  Sri, His Holiness, all the titles and names, We Are All The Same -We Are All Equals !!!!!!!   even Jesus, Muhammed, Josepth Smith, Dali Lama, Mother Theresa, We Are All EQUAL !!!!!!!!!!   and we better not let anyone treat us how we don't want to be treated and to STAND THE FUCK UP STRONG AND TALL AND SPEAK !!!!  COMMAND MATTER !!!!!  You are Infinite Divine !!!!!!!  King, Queen of the Universe Royalty !!!!!!!  ACT and COMMAND IT !!!!!!!!!!

oh yeah, the Main Guy definitely did a number on me which is what I Absolutely Needed to remind me of my POWER !!!!!!!   I will never let anyone else make me feel like a re tarted monkey ever again.....

ok, got to get going now..... take home words...... .. We Are All Equals- We Have Direct Lineage to the Universe Royalty !!!!!!   ACT and COMMAND IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!  We Are KINGS & QUEENS of the UNIVERSE !!!!!!!!   Straiten up your back, head held up high with power and commanding, speak in loud firm voice, you are the KING / QUEEN !!!!!  the only One the Matters is YOU !!!!!!  no ifs ands or buts !!!!!  ok ???  soak this shit in already, I got to go !!!  Peace .... DWU

Testing Testing 1, 2, 3 !!!!! Oscar Z style

For Some Reason I just Love This !!!!!!    Uno Dos Treeees !!!!!!!!   your's truly...

Native American Indian Spirit of Meditation// Keep Them Comin !!!! Love It !!!!

Native American Meditation-The Northern Lights " I Absolutely Love This!!!! "

I Absolutely Love This !!!!!!    Thank You.....

Grateful to have this Chapter Closed and a New One Open !!!!

Hello !!!  Wow !!! A Lot has happened since I last wrote here !!!!   even as I write this I'm in the process of deleting my FB aka Facebook profile !!! I'm releasing the old self and I must start again brand spanking new !!!  just an FYI, I will be foregoing a very Extreme form of Metamorphosis, a few ideas that I have is 1.  Not speaking for a year.  2. be in total seclusion with the Ifninite Divine Almighty going wherever the Solar Winds Take Me.  3.  Becoming Divinitus Warrious Universalis = Divine Warrior Universalis  in the physical flesh.

My Environment, friends, family got me where I am today and I know I'm soooo much more !!!!  I'm Soooo Ready to be the true authentic real me !!!  The time is now.... Time is Now !!!!  To do all the things that I've always wanted and longing to do and to BECOME !!!!!  Time is Now !!!!   Going to be in the cocoon for a while..... Sweet Look what I got in my email:  "

Hi Oscar,
 
We have received a request to permanently delete your account. Your account has been 

deactivated from the site and will be permanently deleted within 14 days. 
 
If you did not request to permanently delete your account, please login to Facebook to 

cancel this request:

14 Days Counting Down !!!!  I Choose what I see, hear, and say.... and Honestly 

Everytime I check FB seems like I get ambushed with something that I do not wish to see. 

and yes, it's time to start doing some releasing !!!! 

 I was pretty shocked when I first logged into my blog account, it stated 2 thousand somethin people viewed my blog !!!  I know I was at least 100 views, I just write and save it !!!  Well, I know that I'm not the only one that wants to Change !!!!  Change My Whole Entire Life, Mind, Body, Spirit !!!!   My whole Everything !!!!   i know it's more  !!!!   it is sooo much more  !!!!   ok, I'm definitley want to write down my experience with my time at the Lodge in 4 Lakes in Lisle, IL...this is just my experience, my growth and my evolution to become more and greater than.  I know I planted many seeds and impacted many lives while I was at the Lodge.   I knew I had a greater purpose other than checking ID's and making sure no fights break out, be the fashion police, charging regulars cover charges !!!  ha !!!  oh Willie !!!!  yeah, he definitely helped me make the decision even sooner to "take a break" from the Lodge !!!   I know that my job has been completed !!!!  I just knew that I was an example on how to have fun ???  or to be the true you and to have a I don't give flying fuck attitude about the way you are and to be proud of it !!!!  I really don't know exactly what my actual purpose for being there was.  All I know was that I have been told 100's of times, how cool, friendly, outgoing, happy, funny I was.  and I had people asked me what is my secret of "Being Sooo Happy"... Wow !!!  I truly didn't know how much of impact I had with the Lodge until the last days.  I just knew my duty has been done....Done Done !!!!!   Another factor is with me !!!  I want to change, and you can't change with the same environments and people.  the Lodge is a Dance, Bar, Pub, place where the main element is alcohol !!!  Yep, if you want to get fucked up and have the time of your life you go to the Lodge !!!  My Deal I want to subtract the Alcohol element to the equation !!!!  yes, it was there in my face time after time, night after night !!! and yes,  I had succumb to my peers.... and yes, very much regretted it, but hey  !!! Lesson learned !!!  this place of employment no longer serves me....  and I told the manager I needed a much needed break... an undisclosed amount of time to travel and see family... Honestly, I don't know if I'll ever come back... I"m Soooo Done Done !!!!  hey, anything can happen, all I know for a fact it's not Lisle, IL !!!!

Ok, let's get back to the nitty gritty of My Human Metamorphosis Extreme Style.... already !!!  I'm soo grateful to have experience such contrast !!!  I took it graciously !!!  being around beings that are not in my best well being and health.  I want to surrounded with beings that are taking massive actions on improving their well-being and health, don't get me wrong they are great loving people, I'm just not in the same wave length anymore... I have released all the misc that no longer serves me... I thank them for the knowledge and experience that I have grown and evolved into.  With me Environment is the Main ingredient on why I haven't been changed.... Time is also another factor.... I was looking at my calendar this year and last year.... I've started with my Human Metamorphosis since March/April of 2011 !!!!!  Hey !!! Heyyy !!!!!  STOP !!!!   it's all good !!!  I know gained some massive weight too !!!  I know I'm at least 265 lbs now.... Wow !!!  Hey !!!! Heyyyy !!!! it's all good !!!! All Good !!!  Never Beat Yourself Up !!!!  it's all good  !!!!   All Good !!!  ...  I moved out of my roomattes condo Wed !!!  Wow !!!  While I was closing the door my Spirit and I said at the same time, " "this Chapter is officially closed !!!!  Unto the Next One !!!" ....

Ok, I made my mind, I will do what's best for me and the only person who knows what's best for me is ME !!!!!!  Ka Peesh ???  yeah, I thought about going to mom's and going to Bodhi Spiritual Center together, we usually go together, but for some reason, I don't want to see and say anything to anyone right now... it seems like my True Divine Soul is telling me, " Be Alone with Me already".... you don't need any outside spiritual center or people because you got the Source where All came from....  Feels' like Infinite Divine is forcing me to lay low and to focus on me and my becoming, a Divine Warrior of the Universe = Divinitus Warrious Unversalis.... into the cocoon I go.... there is sooo much going on right now that I know what's best for me !!!!  No One Else !!!!   Love u ma !!!  I'll be there in Spirit !!!    Wow !!!!  I'm glad I'm done with that last chapter !!!!  I knew I had to go through it for others to see and experience my light and being and I know now that My job has been completed....   Done !!!  I'm also releasing with the Alcohol based environments, the not serving me relationships, it's time for Infinite Divine Time !!!  oh snap !!! that's catchy !!!!  it's IDT = Infinite Divine Time !!!!!!  and no one else !!!   I'm sooo ready !!!

My closing thoughts and words from the last chapter, I truly believe that the last chapter began when I got the job at the Lodge... in late Aug of 2011, I've worked every Fri, Sat,  Sun since late June 2012, don't know the actual date don't care neither, all I knew was that my time is up, my job has been completed, unto the next one... and it finally closed last week when I closed my roommates door for the last time !!!  it feels sooo good releasing that whole environment !!!  I was beyond well done !!!  I was Super Burnt !!! I sooo wanted to change,  to grow and to evolve into the being that I truly want to become and you have "friends with good intentions offering you shots, beer, hard alcohol drinks, smokes, right smack in your face left and right !!!!   Yeah, it's awesome how the Universe just makes sure your done !!!  this one guy skinny scrawny guy w/ blond hair gelled up, right in my face, "Wanna Shot, Wanna Shot, Wanna Shot, Wanna Shot !!???"

Holy Shit Son !!!! Enough already !!!  that was the starting of me knowing that my time was only days left and so it was !!!!   Not to worry everyone I will have a FB page for the New & Improved Ever Growing and Evolving Upward and Outward.... it will be my new name Divinitus Warrious Universalis.... just to let you know...... ok, here we go, going to plan out my life, game plan, got my binder, calendar, my gyms schedules (group classes are key for me !!!)  and GP (Game Plan) for upcoming months and the remainder of the year, I'll tell you one thing it'll be about....... ME !!!!  You, better look out for you too and plan your life Around YOU !!!!!   Not anyone else ok ????   Take Your Power Back !!!!  I Am !!!! Until Next Time  !!!!  Glad you're here !!!!   Namaste !!!   Infinite Love and Gratitude, Oscar Z / D.W.U.  I like my new initials !!! sounds like a DUI from TX !!!! 

40 Days & 40 Nights ETA to Ultima Universalis and $10,000 Winner of the Xsport Fitness Challenge

Here I am, I'm ready, I haven't wrote here in a while, so this is a quick update on what's been going on and what will happen.  Feb 1, 2012 I decided to sign up for the Xsport Fitness Challenge I have a trainer one day a week.  I can honestly say that I haven't been my True Self in my process.  I noticed that I can have all the outer influences and advice in the world and I am now learning that I must change Everything !!!!!   Everything !!!!   To Know Thyself is Soooo Absolute Key !!!!  I know that I need to Change the Environment, with me environment is Sooooo Key with me with my process to change my whole being.  I'm ready to change, change, change, change, change, change, yes, I admit I have been slacking with the type of fuel I have been consuming.  Don't want to get into the nitty details, all I can say is that I had enough !!!!  Enough !!!!  Tonight will be the last night of my nicotine sticks, McD's Double Cheese burger & Chicken Sandwiches and the Burritto Suizo late at night after work... I'm done and I've had it !!!!!   I'm Done Done !!!!!   This is it !!!  haaaa, how long have I been saying this right ????  about a yr or two ??  you know what ??  it's alright and it's OK...... I Have to make the decision that I will win the competition in 40 days !!!!  I'm setting my artwork and sculptures aside to focus 1000% on me and this competition !!!!!  last day of weigh in is April 30, 2012 which gives me exactly 40 days starting at 12 midnight !!!!! I copied and posted the final weigh in:

Participant weighed in at on April 27th from 4 PM – 8 PM or April 30th from 4 PM – 8PM or April 28th from 9 AM – 12 PM or April 29th from 9 AM – 12 PM, have after-picture taken and submit the essay and supplement sales receipts on the day they weigh out. 

I'm feeling the anticipation of Extreme Infinite Divine Power that I will harness and to be a conduit of the One Who Created All.  This is Truly it !!!!!   Starting 12 midnight !!!!! March 21, 2012 to April 30, 2012 = 40 Days !!!!!!!    I'm going to living and sleeping in the gym !!!!!   oh it's alright !!!!  it starts 12 midnight tonight, it's 10:52am right now, typing this at the College of DuPage Study Center.  It's soooo On !!!!  I have decided that I will win the Fitness Challenge !!!! Everything has been put into place !!!!!   there is zero excuse !!!!! Zero !!!!  only have a PT job and I have a membership at Xsport have running shoes, b-ball shoes, a lil bit of Iron Cast Weights !!!!!!   I will win !!!!!   Thank You !!!! Thank You.... this is what I'm listing to right now !!!  Absolutely Love It !!!!  Heaven Music 

Here's a pic on what kind of fuel I've been eating, not proud of it, but, it's true and real, I'm sooo done with my old self !!!!!!  



 

&  there, when I go off course I definitely go all out !!!!!   Go All Out or Go Home !!!  this is an example of how far of course I was !!!!!  Hey, you know what ???    I cannot beat myself up for this, this is only one of the many times I have fallen off course.... it was very good and cheap !!!!  hey, it is what it is and what it was !!!  and I fully 100% own up to it !!!!  here's a pic of me !!!  with my artwork.....since I'm in a pic uploading mode right now....

well it's about that time to go !!!!! COD is going to closing up right now !!!!  I might continue at McD's the 24 hr open dining area one with WiFi !!!!  I'm ready.... I'm soooo ready !!!!! Thank You !!!!!!   & So It Is....

 Well, I've been trying to upload some videos from my bloggie, let's just say I don't have 201 min to spare to upload them but, I do have one quickee bloggie vid here it is Testing Testing 1, 2, threeee

So, it's 1:11am now, the Day 1 of the 40 Days, going to the 5:30am Xsport !!!  oh it's on alright !!!!!!  let's do this, I'm ready !!!!  got some tunes for ya !!!!!! Gettin Ready Tunes !!!!


 will definitely keep you posted !!!!  I'm going ALL OUT !!! Like my life depended on it !!!!  this will be my regime in a nutshell, Yoga, Basketball, Working Out, Running, using my Iron Cast Weights, going to the Group Fitness/Cardio Classes, Meditation, Sauna, Pool, Swimming, and using the Jet Water Massager at Xsport or yeah the Jacuzzi !!!!!   that's it !!!  I'm ready, Only Water, Tuna, and Raw Veggies aka Salad got it from Osmin !!!!!   if you don't know who Osmin is: here's a clip from his show: Operation Osmin : Osmin

Fish, Salad and Water starts NOW !!!!!  1:35am Day 1 of the 40 Days !!!!!!   going home now to get some Zzzzz' and be off to the gym !!!!!  with my Fish, Salad and Water !!!!!   Thank You !!!!  it starts now !!!!   

11/11/11 !!!! Birth of Ultima Universalis !!!!!!! and Sooo Much More !!!!

This is it, my True Self !!!!   Ultima Universalis is born today, 11/11/11 at 11:11am.... I truly know that everything is set into place, everything !!!   I know So !!!  Everything that I've Always Truly Wanted  and Truly Wanted to Become will come into manifestation !!!!  

Ultima Universalis

Schedule

Boot Camp

From Nov 11^st 2011 to Nov 11^st 2012

I will embark the next phase of my Metamorphosis, this stage is called, Coming Into Being Ultima Universalis.  It’s All About Me Myself and I !!!!!   This is My Gift To Me !!!!!!  My Whole Year !!!!!!

·      I Am Ultima Universalis

·      Ultimate Universe Is Me

·      I Am Whatever I see, Hear, Feel, Taste & Imagine

·      I Have Infinite Divine Power within Every Cell of My Body

·      I Am King-

·      I Am the Boss of All Bosses-

·      I Am an Infinite Ultimate Warrior from the Universe

·      I Am the Ultimate-All Knowing-All Powerful, Infinite Divine Powerful.

·      I Have the same Power that Creates Planets, Galaxies & Universes

·      Whatever I Say & Think IS LAW !!!

·      What I Say and Think, IS !!!

·      All the Planets and Everything upon them is ME !!

·      I Am a Part to Everything & Everyone from the Past, Present and Future

I Am Ultima Universalis

This is Me, The True Absolute Me !!!!    I'm going to be the Absolute True Being that I've Always Knew that I Was and So It Is !!!!  11/11/11 to 11/11/12, not only today is a special day of Alignment, Birth of Ultima Universalis and it's Also Veterans Day !!!!!   which I Sooo Happened to be a U.S. Marine War Veteran !!!!  OooRah and Semper Fi !!!!!!!    Thank You Soooo Very Very Much !!!!!   I know it's All About Me and my Metamophosis into becoming Ultima Universalis !!! It's been a long time coming and a lot of starts and start agains with my Human Metamophosis, as you can see within this blog, I have started quite a few times already !!!!   and it's all good !!!!  All Very Good, it's never too late !!!!   I Know that the time is now !!!!   Now I will focus on my Body, Mind and Spirit !!!   and on my rebuilding the body days, I will create Absolute Amazing Artwork.  I will not partake in any type of romantic relationship [ definitely got the hint from the Infinite,  have a crush on someone, thought it was going to happen, not just yet or not now anyways, just appreciate for now)] , just me and the Infinite Divine metamophosizing into Ultima Universalis !!  Bally's, Dahn Yoga,  Xsport, Divine Power Yoga, Bodhi Spiritual Center, this will be my schedule from now till forever or until I know it's time to evolve and grow !!!!  The time is Now to Become Whom We've Always Wanted to Become, Whom You Know Deep Down that you are Soooo Much More than you currently are right now, this is how I feel and thus Ultima Universalis is born today on 11/11/11 !!!!!   this is sooo beautiful !!!  this is what I'm listening right now Deva Premail Beautiful !!!!

Absolutely Love It !!!  The time is now !!!!  Thank You !!!  Soooo Very Very Much !!!!!!  I'm definitely considering of changing my name into Ultima Universalis !!!! That would be Awesome !!!  I'm doing it for me and me only !!!!!   This is my body, my life, my world and my Universe !!!!!!   Thank You !!!!!    and So It Is !!!!!!