7 Hrs I'll Be 40 Yrs Young In This Current Day Lifetime !!!!!

I'm getting ready, I've been getting ready, more like mental preparation, to be fully enclosed inside the cocoon of my metamorphosis.  I haven't checked my voice-mail in 2 weeks !!!! I absolutely don't want to be contacted or be contacted, I don't want to see nor be seen, it's 9:23am right this minute on the 24th of November, the eve of my 40th Birthday !!!   I just want to be Absolutely Alone !!!!!  a lot of misc. is happening,  mind,  body & spirit !!!  Almost had 2 physical fights this morning !!!  (one at the shelter site, a guy said something about me putting in an older blooper type video, that we shouldn't have this shit on.) I turned around and said, what's happening !!  Loudly and with Masculine Power, he was all saying that we should see something that's in the "Real World" he had his 3"x4" portable am/fm radio turned on to the maximum volume, I asked him to turn it down, he refused, I turned around,  grabbed the chair and slammed it down on the floor,  I told him that we cannot receive any tv signals, then people started to calm "Me" Down"  I'm not going to shit from anyone or anybody !!!  then on my way down to the college, a guy in a Mercedes passed me on the right viciously (revving up his motor and speeding me at a high rate of speed) he had to stop at the new red light he was about to turn right and me straight, so he thought !!!  after he turned I turned after him and was on his tale for a lil bit until he turned into a business where he couldn't get out, there he went back of the business and I cornered him,  we waited for about a min I turned away and left, I drove down a lil bit and turned into a street did a U turn and waited for him to pass by, he noticed me and pulled into the street, we were like a in stand off, he blocked the road, and proceeded to take some pictures from his iphone or camera phone,  there was a flash,  I had the door open and I said, "Stop Following Me" !!!  I was all smiling and laughing at him,  and heard the word" Jag-off" from him !!!  I waved him on, go, go !!!  I gave about a good 20 seconds before I left,  I know he just booked !!!  possibly ran the red light !!!  I also knew that he was actually very scared !!!  Me, with my crazy beard, with my beanie hat,  I was eyeballing him at the red light and he glanced at me and I still continued to stare him down....

Dude !!!  The Don't Fuck With Me Switch !!!!  Has been turned on !!!!!   the Happy-Go-Lucky has been overtaken by a Divine Baddass !!!  That takes no shit from no one !!!!!   instantaneous button, once the button has been pressed or crossed my line, I will do something about as if my life depended on it.  And I will go Extreme On Yo Ass !!!!!  I was about grabbed that guy's portable radio (mr. Real World) and slam it on the ground !!!  I didn't, I let it pass on, then when it was time for him to go, we said some parting words !!!!  he mentioned that he liked my "Haircut" !!!!!   and I said, keep on going you Moron Idiot !!!!  I loved it !!!!   it's Mutha Fucka On !!!!!  Now !!!!   And this is only the beginning !!!!!!   The starting of my life !!!!

I Soooo Feel the Anticipation for Everything !!!!!!    So, this is it, I will be going and sealing off my cocoon !!!!   I knew it was going to happen after Thanksgiving Day, feeling obligated to hang out with mom, I am sooo glad I got to see my brother's beautiful family, I knew that I had to be there, and once it was over,  I'm done, done !!!   I deactivated my Facebook Accounts it's On MFa !!!!!  i'll be 40 in about 13 hrs and 52 min !!!!!  today I will write down all of the voice messages down and call back to the ones who are calling and not leaving any msgs, I think I may have some creditors trying to call and track me down....  Taking Zero Shit From Anyone !!!!!  I'm just going to let them know what the situation is !!!!   and take care of business.  Here we go, or Here I Go !!!!!  no it's WE !!!!  We're Both A Part of Each Other !!!!  Yeah, right now,

I Will Do What I Want To Do !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and 
 I Will Not Take Any Shit From Anyone  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  (already had 2 fights this morning!!!) well almost... anyways  !! Spice, Hot Sauce !!!!   Flavor of Life !!!!!  

 ok, need I say anything else ???  So, as of right now today, Sat the24th of Nov eve of my 40th Birthday !!!  the only communication and updates will be through my blog,  this one, the one that you're reading on !!!  and my YouTube Video Updates and my Video Blog !!!  just to give you an update on things !!!!  etc. etc. etc..... and to document my Journey !!!!  I'm sealing off the Cocoon !!!!   Wow !!!  I was listening some YouTube clips about Change, MJ Man in the Mirror and I See U from Leona Lewis and now a remix with 2 Pac & Michael Jackson Changes and Man in the Mirror.... Change !!! change !!!!   I'm Starting With the Man in the Mirror !!!!!  Changes !!!!   Change Starts Now !!!!!  ME  MYSELF & I !!!!   Just Me !!!!  Not only it's Time to Change it's Also Time To Be Hard !!!!!

HARD !!!!!   Time to GET HARD !!!!  BE HARD !!!!!    Hard Like a Cholo !!!!  Lean Like a Cholo !!!  

I feel like I should Re-Invent Myself  !!!!  Into a Super Beyond Badass  !!!! a True Divine Badass !!!!   One Who Knows That He IS EVERYTHING !!!!!  I'm going to get some Badass Gear !!!  and tomorrow Prep For Take Off !!!!!!   Going to Re-Invent Myself !!!!!  Re-Invent Yourself !!!!  Re-Invent MYSELF !!!!   Going to Start Making Changes !!!!  Me !!! the Man in the Mirror !!!  Me !!!  Must Change !!!!  Going to Have Some Hard Hitting Goal !!! 1st one is to Go To Xsport & Jakked Gym !!!!  Daily !!!!!   Starting on my Birthday !!!!!!   Hard Cholo Style !!!!!  Going to be inside the cocoon Infinite Divine Style !!!!!!  tonight I'm going to stay at the shelter site tonight and starting tomorrow, I'll be On My Own and Fully Sealed Inside my cocoon with the Divine !!!!  and My Divine !!!!   I know my mom knows that I'm not going to be around for a while.... probably only to carpool to see my nephew play basketball !!!!

  and that would be about it as far as seeing me, or me seeing others outside my cocoon.... ha haaa  haaa, not going to do it !!!!   me going to the shelter site tonight, I thought I would, but, my answer is NO !!!!  I have the power now !!!! To Do Whatever Whenever The Fuck I Want !!!!  I"M KING NOW !!!!!!    Who's Goin Run This Town Tonight !!!!!  ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!   I'm Turning KING Tonight  !!!!!   I will do whatever the fuck I want to do  !!!!!   Without Hesitation !!!!!!   Done with the old Self  !!! and the Old Life !!!!!!  So, plan is to Go Supreme King God Cholo Style  !!!!!   Looks like I'm about done here !!!  You get the picture now !!!!  Tonight 12 midnight, I'm Going to Turn Into a Full-Fledged KING !!!!!!!!   It's Sooo On !!!!!   So right now, I want to get me some bandana's and to go to Savers my new shop !!!!   Wayyyy nicer than the Goodwill shop !!!   I like space, neat, in order, like a real dept. store  !!!  also going to get some 4 X 's for my new work out gear !!!!  ok... time to go now !!!!  

Run This Town Remix ft. Slim Thug, Ludacris, Drake *NEW 2010 MASHUP* Jay...

  You know I'm All About the Remixes !!!!!  

Run This Town-Jay-Z Ft. Kanye West & Rihanna-Lyrics

  Read the Lyrics !!!!!!!  

"Run This Town" - Jay-Z and Rihanna (E.S. Posthumus Remix) [Jay-Z Super ...

  Progression !!!!!!    YEASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

Michael Jackson-Man in the mirror lyrics "I'm Going To Make a Change" !!!!! Oz

Avatar Remixes (playlist)

  I SEE U 2, I C U 2, Oz / Du

In 4 Days I'll Be 40 !!!!!!!

Well, Now what am I supposed to feel like ???   in 4 Days I'll Be 40 yrs Old !!!!  Wow  !!!!  Never thought about it really, time does go by fairly quick, I don't even care about my age, really !!!  it doesn't matter anymore !!!  Once you know that we live forever, age disappears !!!!   I know that I will forever learn,  grow, evolve, expand upward and outward.  Right now, I'm right in the middle of my transformation aka metamorphosis and right now, I know I'm becoming into another being.

I know what I need to do... Tomorrow is Thanksgiving !!!   I feel obligated to spend time with mom and go to see my brothers family, which I'm excited but, I know I don't want to drink any alcohol nor gorge myself with any of the "Good  Stuff" that society says.... Pumpkin Pie, etc..... I don't know I'm just going through some major shit right now, and my birthday to myself is 4 Years !!!!   I'm going to Serve ME !!!!  for 4 Years..... I know mom will not like it but, it's not up to her, I truly feel that the vibration that I emit and receive and vice versa with her doesn't coincide to whom I want to become  !!!!  just the little things that I'm catching and noticing... Yeah, I don't really want to go just yet, tomorrow, honestly I don't want to go to Bodhi Eat,  I don't know and then go to my brothers...I do miss him and his family very much.....  So, I'm thinking after tomorrow, the starting of my life starts..... I Will Serve ME  for 4 1/2 yrs !!!!!!!   I'm going to pretend that I'm in the service only seeing family only on holidays.... yeah, I know I must Go  !!!  and to be around that Vibration.... Vibration of my mother to me and vice versa with my vibration towards my mother.... it's a 2 Fold Double Whammy.... Yeah, I must go, so,  my Birthday Gift For Myself is to Serve Me for 4 1/2 yrs.... pretend that I'm in the service.   I deactivated my FB pages.... I knew my birthday was coming up and I wanted to play low key right now, don't want a barrage of Happy Birthday Wishes asking me where the hell am I, etc... etc.... I'm done, I'm done wasting time on FB, it is very addicting !!! 

Today I had a test today,  I know that I could've done a lot better.... I knew I did poorly... reason ????   Well, plain and simple, ME !!!  MY Actions and Behavior,

Yes, after tomorrow, I'm Serving Me !!!!   I'm done, I thought about just cancelling out with mom,  but I know I couldn't do that,  especially on Thanks Giving Day !!! so, tomorrow is the exception !!!!   I already know what's going to happen every time I go "visit" mom or crash out over her place.... I know I must need a very lengthy time out / off... .from family.... I'm Going On 40 !!!!  and I must learn to be my own man  !!!!  a Real Man !!!  who makes a decision and sticks to it, keeps it, with power and confidence.... I"m not saying I don't do that now, but, when family is involved you tend to go / lean in their direction, see I wasn't planning on going to my brothers, it was a last second thang, I wanted to go roller skating at 7pm - 10pm, I absolutely love going roller skating, I don't know, I do miss the kids !!!!  a lot !!!!   I just want to Change and Transform My Life  !!!!!!!   I'm done with my pathetic fat self, Change Must and Will Happen !!!!!!!    and it's all me !!!   Yeah, I'm Done - Done !!!!!!!   I don't know if I should just say Fuck It !!!  I must live my life  !!!!!   yeah, after tomorrow !!!!!  Aghgggghhhhhhh !!!!  So tomorrow I'm going to soak everything up and let it marinate !!!!!   so starting Friday !!!!  It's On Mutha Fucka !!!!!   Me Time  !!!!  I'm Serving Me for 4 1/2 yrs !!!!!!   so, let's soak and marinate tomorrow on Thanksgiving Day !!!!!  and then starting Friday !!!!!  I'm Serving Me !!!!!   I'm going to go and be away from friends and family for a long while, no FB,  No Emails,  No fucking cell, nada !!!!!  just me !!! and my education !!!!   I"m going to block and deactivate everything that no longer serves me  !!!!  going to rock n roll outa here  !!!  Infinite Love & Gratitude, !!!  Oz

I'm Tired of My Mental BS !!!!! I'm About to Go Paleo On Yo Ass !!!!

Paleo aka Caveman !!!!!   Just muthafuckin Do It Already !!!!  Play Hoop !!!! work out at Jakked Gym !!!! take the group exercise at the gym !!!!   I'm done making excuses on why I'm not going to the gym !!!   I know I should keep it Real Old School !!!  Enough with the Distractions of Technology  !!!!  

Ok, this is what's going to happen starting tonight and tomorrow  !!!!!   No If's or fucking Butts !!!!!  I'm done with my mental BS !!!   This is What's Going To Happen !!!!


I feel right now !!!  That I must make a Definite Decision To Transform My Body !!!!!   NOW !!!!!!   JUST DO IT NOW !!!!!   Without Hesitation !!!!!   ;Yea, it's been about 6 weeks since my new school NPTI, National Personal Training Institute !!!!  and it is Awesome !!!  Awesome People !!!!  Amazing Classmates !!  I absolutely Love It !!!  and I know that I must do my part !!!!   it's more than working out for 1 hr a day !!! while in the past, like a year ago, my schedule was walking on the DuPage Forest Preserves from Morning till 10:30am and be at the gym all day !!!!!   done at 5-6pm !!!!  YESSS !!!  I must feel what I felt back then !!!   So, tonight this is the GP !!!   it's 7:23pm now, at around 11pm tonight, going to org up my misc. My Warrior Workout Gear !!!   I Have Everything That I need right now !!!  Zero Excuses !!!! tonight I'm just going to familiarize myself to the Naperville Xsport, find out what kinds of machines etc.... 

Yeah, I'm Done Done With the TALK & TYPE !!!   Right !!!  So that's it !!!!

I Have S:ome New Real Warrior Mutha-Fuckin Goals !!!  Shit I'm not in High School Anymore !!!  I need some REAL RAW  FLESH MUSCLE MEAT !!!!!!!   type of goals !! 

So, instead of "Keeping Track" whether or not I go do any "Physical Activity" for that day I'm going to GO To Xsport Naperville  / Downers Grove ,  IL  AND JAKKED GYM in Montgomery, IL !!!!!!!!   This is my #1. GOAL !!!!!!   Right NOW !!!!!  

ok, I'm going to make a Beast of a Goal !!!!!!   Everyday for 30 Days I will Go To BOTH Xsport  Fitness & Jakked Gym  !!!!  Every Day !!!!!!  I don't give a flying fuck anymore  !!!!  I MUST CHANGE !!!!  I WILL  CHANGE !!!!!     Only schedule I will go with most likely to see family up north and to go to Bodhi Spiritual in Chgo with mom, we usually carpool on Sundays !!!  we catch up, drink coffee, hang out a little bit, keeping tabs with out Spiritual Journey and Adventure  !!!!!   calling it a night !!!   was uploading a shit load of Bearded Motivation & Inspirational Pics / Quotes.....

DJ 4 Ever O-Skool !!! (playlist)

   "Changes" by 2 Pac  !!!!  Seems Soooo Fitting for Our Transformations  !!!!! 

my 6-4 mike jones,bun b, and snoop dogg

 

Got Some Gangsta Beats For You !!!  To Start, During, End Your Day !!!!!! 


for the Spiritual Gangsta Within !!!!!!

Ahhhhhhh Nothing Like Writing Some MP's with Some Hot Nescafe !!!

Oh Yeahhhhh  !!!  with some warmth and comfyness !!!!!  Thank You Universe for Everything !!!!  Well, I just found out that my mom is officially a Teacher aka Professor at North Central College in Naperville, IL !!!  I'm Sooooo Happy !!!  I actually prayed a prayer for her during her interview outloud !!!  she had her interview at 2pm and I said,  "Right Here Right Now, Be with my mom, let her Divine Self Flow Through her perfectly !!!  Let her be her true self during the interview and to all the people that is involved with the interview process"  something like that, and you know what ????   She Got It !!!!   YESSSSS !!!!!!  Wow !!!!  I'm sooo happy !!!  for her and me too !!!!!!  Because we're sort of on the same Wave Length and Journey with our spirituality !!!! Wow !!!!   hey !!! it's 5:55am now !!! sweet !!! I'm soooo grateful for everything right now !!!  writing my MP's here on my blog !!!   this is cool !!! I did try to write it out on lined pieces of paper but, it just didn't feel write plus I know I can type it out a lot faster and we can read it !!!  My handwriting sometimes I can't reread my words !!!!  So, today is like my Friday with school, it's sooo cool that I have class Mon-Thurs 9:30am - 2:30pm  !!!!   I have decided just for the super chilly days,  30 degrees or below I will use my other "Homes" to get some rest in !!!  last night went great !!!  had only 1 serving of an amazing dinner !!!  it was like a Thanksgiving Dinner !!!   minus the bread, any type of soda's and pumpkin pie !!! can you believe that ????  I usually stuff my freaking face with 2nds and 3rds until I can't breathe and then go to bed !!! not this time !!   Just 1 serving, I had all the  whole foods carbs and proteins with milk and a delicious salad  !!!   it was Amazing  !!!  how I woke up this morning I would consider some major contrast, apparently someone likes releasing toxic natural gas which I couldn't handle,  I was dry heaving and had to get out of the area asap  !!!  it was 4am, and I knew that I couldn't go back to sleep, for was very well rested !!!  so I left early warmed up the car and went on my way.... at the college now, enjoying some peace and quiet with fresher and cleaner air !!!  with my hot Nescafe !!! 

I uploaded some intense video clips on YouTube !!!!!   I have a new system now !!! usually I would upload through my laptop with the WiFi connection at the college, but, apparently it didn't like anything over 11min or so, I found out that it uploaded a video at 17 min !!!! Not through my laptop but, through the college computers !!!   and it took a lot less time !! to upload unto YouTube !!! So, I cleared out my Bloggie and it's ready for more pics and video clips, I want to get some good Personal Training Fitness Exercise Clips !!!!  the one's where I want to remember the exercise and the name for future reference  !!!!  there is quite a bit of them !!!  and this one in-particular one with the SB Stability Ball !!!  the Big Ball that you see in the gyms !! yeah those !!! there's a whole different vocabulary here in the Personal Training Institute !!!!  I'm going to pursue a Sports Performance Training Certificate through College of Dupage in Glen Ellyn, IL !!!!!  it'll be a great continuance of my immediate training of becoming a Personal Trainer !!!!   I'm soooo happy and thrilled about my mom's new chapter !!! with North Central College / University  !!!  it is a private 4 yr University !!! I'm excited !!!   and I know it was Absolutely Magic from the 1st moment that she arrived in the office for her interview !!! to the words, "Welcome Aboard"  !!!   YESSS !!!   Today, Thurs, after my MP's here, Going to go in early to class  so I can get showered up and then afterwards prep and org my misc. car, I was about to go to Xsport, but, I didn't have everything organized and I knew I needed my shampoo and conditioner which I couldn't find and I knew I had to "Empty Out" the Space Capsule in order for me to find it !!!  Space Capsule is the name of my Saturn Car  !!!  and it's about 28 degrees outside and I just didn't feel like the time or place do it right now, so I just went to the college to do some writing of my MP's !!!!   I think I should make a separate Page for my MP's !!!  and not on the Front Page of my blog !!!  I'm going to set that up after today's MP's  !!!   here !! well, just in case you don't know what MP's are, they are my Morning Pages !!!   from Julia's Cameron Artist's Way Book, she advised to write 3 pages of whatever  and not to read them until later,  6 months to a year later, it's your communication with God basically, it's releasing to what's been happening, what you want, what your plans are to the Universe, and just be grateful and appreciative for everything !!!   I know I am !!! I Truly Am !!!!!  I was just watching a few episodes of Oscar Zepeda Channel on YouTube !!!!!   I do crack myself up !!!!  and it's very inspirational as well !!!!  So, Today is going to be the Best Day of My Entire Life  !!!!!    It's on like Donkey Kong  !!!!!   Plan for today, finish up here with my MP's, go to school,  get ready for class, after class take care of my bills, well, some of them for now.... I want to work out like a Sasquatch Mode Today  !!!!  I have everything I need right now  !!! got the gear etc....... I want to work out at Jakked Gym !!!   Today  !!! I'm feeling it !!!  I don't care anymore !!!!   where I sleep !!! or aka rest my head anymore !!!  it's getting to that point now !!! which I know that I should be at !!!  I think I do !!!  I just have to appreciate and org a little bit more, so I can do the basic bodily functions with out messing up, well, at least #1, #2,  on the other hand,  I know I'm going to have to release it somewhere else, gas station, don't know and don't care anymore !! I'm just going to Do Now  !!!!!  Do Now !!! Do, Key words is DO NOW !!!!!!!      without any hesitation !!!   without thinking  !!!!   Do Now Without Hesitation With 1000% Absolute Pure Confidence !!!!!   DO NOW !!!!  Do what I need to do, no matter what it may appears to look like or appear to be !!!!   I do catch myself Hesitating some actions like "Trying to Find My Shampoo and Conditioner" inside the car !!  I don't want to "Empty Out" where people can see all my misc. !!!  ya know, I know that I have to have a "IDGaF" Attitude !!!!!  and Just DO !!!! JUST DO  !!! JUST GO !!!!!  JUST GO & DO !!!!!  Time is Now !!!  Place is Here !!!!  Just Go & Do !!!!  Time is Now !!!!  Place is Here !!!!!   GO  !!!!!  DO !!!!!!  NOW !!!!!    Without Hesitation !!!!!!!!!!!!  WITHOUT    HESITATION !!!!!!!!!!!!!   You're Co-Owner of our Amazing Planet Earth !!!!!   You're CO-OWNER !!!!!!!!!    Whatever You See,  Hear, Taste, Feel, You're a Part Of !!!!!!!   Same molecules, Same Ingredients !!!!!!!     YESSS !!!!!   Also, You have the Same Power that Creates Worlds, Galaxies  and Universes !!!!!!    All Good !!! going to clear up and org up car today after class !!!!!    So, that's about it for now  !!! Until next time !!!!!  going on 8am now  !!!!!  Thank You for everything !!!!  I love my life !!!!!  I'm About To Go Sasquatch !!!!!!!!    ON YO ASS !!!!   Let's Have the Best Day Of Our Entire Lives !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   Infinite Love & Gratitude !!!!!   Oz / Du

Just a Lil UPDATE !!!!!!!

School is Great, I have decided to write down my MP's here either immediately here on the blog or I'm going to copy n paste my MP's (Morning Pages) aka Journal aka Diary !!!  I'm callin like it is !!!!   I can do that !!!!  I have been hand writing my MP's on regular school lined physical paper, and I'm realizing it's just get lost or bent out of shape without any documentation to it.... so I'm going to type up my MP's here on my blog !!!  Here we go !!!      "11/12/12  Mon  7:19am Mom's  1st day of my goals.  Going to keep track of my workouts and food and drink intake.  Wow !!!!  I  Had an incredible day yesterday with mom.  Weent to Bodhi had an amazing Service, this is it.  I'm keeping track of Everything, got my wkout and food and drink log book -- having my coffee now while I write down my MP's, I spent some time writing out my goals and plans on success on my 12 weeks of keeping my goals and to be disciplined in my actions and behavior.  I know I'll be getting motivated to do some more physical activity and be more aware with my food and drink intake.  It's On.  thank You.  I have 4 goals right now.        Keept track of Physical Activity     Keep track of Food & Drink intake     Keep Track of MP's (Morning Pages)     Brush, Floss, Rince Teeth + Gums After Every Meal  Thank You, for 12 weeks, these are my goals.  I know my goals will evolve just like everything else as of right now.  Today I have my NPTI class (National Personal Training Institute) today I want to upload the pics & vids unto a flashdrive and to upload videos to youtube.  (I'm actually doing that right now !!!  while I'm typing up my MP's here unto my blog !!!)  [Universe is On It !!!!  back to MP's,] -- Today my list includes          portable alarm clock     Flash drive     4X t-shirts Carhart from Farm in fleet.  Today I will keep track of my physcial activity.  food & Drink Intake, keep track of MP's  Morning Pages, and Brush+Floss+Rince Teeth & Gums after every meal.  Thank You !!!  I love My life.  I'm not used to writing out my Mp's, I usually tpye them on my laptop.  So, it appears that its taking longer, it's all good.  I do have time to do my Morning Pages.  It's all good, I love my life.  I can tell that this is exactly waht I needed and wanted.  Being more Aware, having more discipline, wanting to do more physical activity, and eat whole foods and water.  also to continue to write my MP's in the morn.  Everything will come into place.  today I will havethe Best Day of my Life.  do some fine tuning after class, get M.O. (money order) from P.O.-------- to be continued.........*******  gotta Rock n Roll Outa Here !!!

Fully Sealed Infinite Divine Cocoon Is About To Happen In 34 Hours !!!!!

Well, let's just say that our Incredible and Amazing Universe Loves Speed !!!!  when it's Time !!!!  and now it's Time !!!  but, when it comes for your overall growth, expansion, learning and self knowing, Universe will take it's Sweet Divine Time !!!!  I did check my bank account just out of curiosity and a nudge from my Divine Self, "Account Balance : $1.10  Deposit Pending: $1,543.00 Nov.5, 2012 Post Dated" !!!!  now, just a note, I've been Thriving and Surving with only $243 per month for the past, sheesh, it's been a while now, I've mastered it !!!  Let's see I "temp leave of absence" aka quit my job at the Lodge in Four Lakes, Lisle, IL since June 28, 2012, it's crazy how I know exactly when I told the manager that I needed a break....

Yeah,  was working every weekend since I first started in Aug, 2011 to June 28, 2012,  Alcohol, Cigarettes, Alcohol related BS & Drama,  I knew my time was up, I planted many seeds there !!  Don't even go there !!!!  Haaa, Seeds in relation to Spirituality, Infinite Divine aka God....I Never Preached but, yet, I have beer and bags buddies ask me How and Why Am I Soooo Happy All the Time ????  and also complete strangers See and Feel My Presence !!!!   Those type of seeds !!!! 

I just know that starting Mon !!!! that I will go into Hyper Infinite Divine Power Speed  !!!!!   Faster than our Space Brothers in them top of the line UFO's !!!!  I'll be sporting the Lamborghini UFO that's about to come out very soon !!!!  I'm just documenting my slice of life moment of Divine Time with you...

It's going to be More Way On than Donkey Kong !!! BTW !!!!!!!  So, that was a heads up, the 7-10 days was only a buffer... it's coming on the 5th which is this coming Monday !!!  or 12am Monday !!!

it's about to be 3pm now, and I have a "Beard" Appointment Today at 4pm so I have to go now ...... This is it !!!   tonight going to have a Spanish Class with mom at her place and possibly go to Bodhi Spiritual Center in the Morning or go see my nephews play Football & Softball, I do miss them very much !!!!!  I Love Them !!!!  yeah, just mentioning their Spirits is making me want to go and see, hug, kiss and love them  !!!!   Yeah,  I'll do that !!!!  Thank You !!!  time to pack up and Gizzo  !!!!  Cocoon Will Be 100% Sealed November, 5, 2012 12am !!!!!   Infinite Love and Gratitude, Oscar  Z / Divinitus U

My Last Online MP (Morning Pages) !!!!

Slept very well last night, after my last nights post... the Part 2, for some reason was not able to upload the 2nd part of the video clip... I tried it again just now, no go...  All Good, It'll be up sometime.... Well, when I work up refreshed, I pretended that I was going to Xsport, to get a beautiful shower and to work out.  To start the day off Right  !!!!   and also, I did buy some cigarettes the "Healthy" cigarettes  !!!  the Indian Spirit ahhh American Spirit, the first inhale, I started heaving and had to spit..  tried again,  same thing.... and then I said, you know what ???  it's not worth it.... I was just about to "throw up" !!!   That how much resistance I had with the smokes.... I guess from yesterday from my 10 min of Warm Up with the Stairs.....where I was inhaling oxygen and exhaling carbon-monoxide Very Very Very Very Much !!!!!!   "Out of Breath" and Out of Shape type of breathing !!!!!  So, this MP's, Morning Pages, I have made the executive decision to write my last MP's (until further notice) this morning, while I wait till I'm able to go to Pads HQ in Wheaton, IL, so I can get some Gas Vouchers, I'm able to get some because I'm going to School Full Time Now !!!! and they can help me with gas now !!!!   that is why I'm here typing.... I have some time to do some MP's.... for you and I to read now & for later....

I'm excited  !!!!   The anticipation of what is about to come is Mind Blowing !!!!!  so now it's 5-8 days now !!!  was 7-10 days on Oct 31, 2012, to receive a wave of Divine Energy !!!  1st thing is to get the Buy 1 yr get 1 yr free !!! 2 years !!!!!  2 Whole Years !!!!!   5-8 days my life will drastically Change  !!!!!   Forever  !!!!!  For Freaking Ever !!!! Thank You !!!    I'm going to live and sleep Gym !!!!  Transformation !!!  My Metamorphosis !!!   this is my last writing here in my blog for at least a month or two, or maybe till 2013 !!!!!   Who Knows ???  I know when it's time.... All I know is that I must Life Life Now !!!! Not write about it, not look at pictures about it, but, to Live It !!!!!  God's Words To Me Last Night !!!!!   Time is Now To LIVE !!!!!!!    Beyond perfect timing !!!!  In school to Become a Personal Trainer For Me !!!!   going to get my membership at Jakked Gym and then later next week with a wave of energy coming my way, I'm going to get the buy 1 yr get 1 yr deal with Xsport, so there, I know where I'll be for the next 2 years !!!!!  and that's about for now.... Jakked and Xsport Until further notice, and also when my training and certification is done, I'm going to visit Rob Nunez at HB Tattoo in Huntington Beach, CA !!!!!!   to finish what he had started when I was in the Marine Corps !!!!  he's the only one that can finish and complete what he had started !!!!   I will also have a membership with LA Fitness so I can work out while I'm on the road !!!  On my road travels !!!!!  I did well last night !!!   had a nice warm blanket and I did felt my beard !!! and it was cold to the touch !! I'm not even going to seek nor look at the temperature !!!  it's all in the mind !!!   just let my body adjust to the colder weather now.... I knew I had to get some rest last night, my plan was to org up the car, but, I knew I wasn't going to be productive if I "Forced" myself to do it, and so I listened to my body and went next door to get my peaceful rest !!!  Feeling much better !!!  Today I have a big day !!!! 

1st go to Pads HQ to get some gas ola, then Org up Car at a Forest Preserve, Go to Jakked Gym to get the monthly membership, then go to NPTI to help move the treadmills & elipticals and write after go to Bodhi Spiritual Center to help out with Taz with Oneness and with Club Divine and to help close down afterwards  !!! Going to be an Amazing Day & Night Today & Tonight !!!!   I Love My Life !!!!!!!    This is it... after this post I'm off to see and be One with the Wizard !!!  Facebooks has been Deactivated and I will not be online for a while, only time will be school related and to do my papers / projects....

ok, it's about that time for me to go, I can be in the parking lot at 7:45am it's 7:25am now.... So, this are my last official MP's here online on my blog... from now on, I'm going to write my MP's in my journal !!!  Maybe write them down later, but, for now, I Must Live Life Now  !!!!  I'm Inside the cocoon now and I must Seal It Now !!!!  just me and Infinite Divine !!!!  Infinite Love & Gratitude !!!!   7:30am now, going to pack up and go now....Thank You for being a part of my Incredible, Amazing, Supernatural, Magical Adventure & Journey !!!!  to the Extreme !!! bye for now.... Forever Much Love, Oscar Z / Divinitus U

Entering & Sealing Off The Cocoon Now !!!! After 62 Days !!!!!

NOVEMBER 1st, 2012 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!     Today !!! Now !!!!!    I had the Best Day Today !!!!!  I'm on my own now with Infinite Divine  !!!!!   it's Official, I'm finally Going Inside the Infinite Divine Cocoon !!!!  took about a good 62 Days of Preparation !!!!!   You know what ???  I'm Ready  !!!!  I'm Soooo Ready !!

See we look as "Failure"  not "Preparation" !!!   I could've easily said that I failed once again with my Metamorphosis, With my Lifestyle Diet, With My Fitness Regime, the whole shabang !!!!   but, I didn't....  Officially My Metamorphosis Started on Sept. 6th, 2012 !!!!!   almost 2 months !!!!   I remember I took a class on Leadership and on Change  !!!!!  That there was a Special Formula to implement change in a work force and / or business/corporation.... that in order to implement lasting change in a workforce, 1st you must give notice, when, what, and what time, etc.... then there is a Test where the Employees test out the new changes and there is a period of time where there will be no penalty if you do not do the change.... sort of like an Amnesty period......  Well, that was it !!!!   It's All Me Now !!!!  So, yesterday was my last night with DuPage Pads and now it's my last night here in my office at College of DuPage, tomorrow Friday, I'm going to be going to Jakked Gym, to get my monthly membership On !!!!!  it's Soooo MF ON !!!!

I'm going to be gone for a while !!!!   with the exception with Club Divine with my main man Brother Taz !!!!  This is my Birthday Month..... well, I just had that inclining of going to Pads tonight.... then I said, Nope!!!  Not Tonight, Not for a long while !!! I have a lot of organization to do tonight with the car....and to get ready for my Live At the Gym Lifestyle  !!!!  I feel like I’m going to Deactivate Both of my Facebooks, Oscar Zepeda & Divinitus Universalis…. I want Zero Distractions !!!!   I’m going to do that tonight !!!!  Deactivate them Both !!!!  So, it’ll be just this Blog for now !!!   where I can upload pics and video clips of me and my transformation !!!!!  ---- it’s Official !!!  both of my FB’s are officially Deactivated !!!  it’s On Now !!!  wow !!!  I really feel it now  !!!  I’m the Boss !!!!  I’m the King !!!  I’m the Master !!!  of my own life !!!!!  My Mind, Body, Spirit, Infinite Divine    !!!!!   Wow !!! it’s finally happening…… all that time of Free-Whatev Time 62 Days of On & Off, Splurging !!!  Massive Splurging  !!!!    For me, my mind and brain must have ample time for it to change, and to finally Accept the Future Changes !!!   it’s been 62 Days since my Metamorphosis !!!   I’m sooo looking forward on the 1^st installment of the VA Benefits for my Personal Training School !!!   Wow !!! Looking back at this, this is my Own Personal Gift From Infinite Divine !!!!!  There is Zero Doubt that this was hand crafted from the Master Creator !!!!  Gift For Me !!!!   the only school that focuses on Personal Training Certification Hands On, Classroom environment, practical application, Client/Trainer Format  !!!!   This is considered to be the Best of the Best in Personal Training Certification….. This Personal Training Is Meant For Me !!!! and Me Only !!!!    For My Metamorphosis !!!  it’s been one month since the first day of class  !!!   I’m definitely looking forward to everything !!!   it’s going soo quick !!!  One Month !!!  Just in time too !! because I had to wait a full month for me to get paid from the VA well, more like in 6 days or so, I’m going to give it 10 days just like what the recording said, after I “Verified” my education benefits !!!  1^st thing, is to go to Naperville Xsport to get my Buy 1 Get One Free Deal and get my Jakked On !!!!  well, tomorrow I’m going to get the monthly deal for Jakked Gym !!!!  I’ll be there almost all weekend  !!!  I sooo cannot wait !!!!   Tomorrow Friday, after I help out with the NPTI Move/improvements (help move back the treadmills and elipticals) I’ll be going to help out Taz with the Oneness Blessing and with the Club Divine and help close down afterwards, plan for Saturday ???  Jakked !!! & Study oh yeah the extra credit !!   I found out how I did with the 2^nd test, 72% !!!!!   this next test is going to be an Outstanding Grade !!!  So, it’s 9:18pm now, and I’m about to get some Spiritual Native Indian Smokes (the smokes that doesn’t have the chemicals etc…. ) and go to the car wash deal and org up my Space Capsule !!!!!   it is a Very Tight Fit !!! Especially with passengers !!!!   I could barely fit in it !!!  about 3 days ago, I gave 2 Full grown men inside the Space Capsule !!!!    just like what Marvin says, It Has Soul !!!!   Marvin one of my Homelies…. That I sometimes give rides to…. And the Space Capsule actually saved his night, I let Marvin crash out inside the Capsule when he got Lotto’d Out !!! 
Ok, it’s about that time now !!! I don’t know when I’ll be back here to post my words or upload my video blogs, well, just in case, do a YouTube Search “TheOscarZepeda”  and you’ll find my YouTube Station !!!   it’s Time Now  !!!!  the time is Now !!!!  Time is Now to Fulfill my Dreams, Goals, Aspirations, and to be Transformed Into the Divine Warrior that I and Infinite Divine wants me to become  !!!!!   The time is now, So, I’m thinking of just focusing on Me, My Mind, Body, Spirit, Infinite Divine !!! that is it !!! also my Personal Training Education is 1^st Priority !!!!   Work Out My Whole Heart & Soul Out !!!  so now its 6-9 days till I receive my 1^st oh yeah, Saturday, 4pm, with my stylest aka coloring stylest, we’re going to do more beard love !!!   I have a new inspired beard design !!!  it’s going to be absolutely Sick !!!! not only my Beard, Top Hair, but, my Body !!!  OMG !!!  I felt it today !!!  it’s Going to Be Out-of-this-Universe !!!!!!   Wow  !!! it’s Soooo On !!!!  how about this let me write till 10pm even !!!  I’m sooo digging my new extra Life Hours Now, it’s 9:41pm now, if I was at the Pads site, I would’ve been Super Stuffed, and about or already laying down to sleep  !!!  Thank You !!!  That is how I gained roughly about 70 lbs !!!  this year !!!!   Stuff My Fucking Face with Everything and Going to Sleep, Stuff my face again a few hours later, eating the lunches, Repeat !!!!   Repeat  !!!   Yeah, that lifestyle is Officially Over and Done and Gone  !!!  I was browsing a lil bit on the Jakked Hardcore Gym website and FB Pics and YouTube Video Clips and  getting motivated and inspired !!!  
Until next time, it’s 10pm now !!!  let’s Do This !!!  I’m ready for my Transformation !!!  My Metamorphosis !!! I’m Inside Now !!! It’s just me and Infinite Divine !!!!!   Thank You !!! Infinite Love and Gratitude!!!  Oscar Z/ DivinitusU

Since this will be my last Online Hoorah till further Notice, I have decided to continue writing until 11pm !!!!  I had some Divine Inspired Words that came to me when I went to the restroom..... "God Wants Us To LIVE LIFE" not sit around typing about it, searching for it online, looking at pictures about others lives, what kind of costume they wore on Halloween !!!  So after tonight, I'll be prepping for my Gym Working Out 24/7 Lifestyle !!!  I was looking online for a Car Portable refrigerator, I was shocked to find out that they are such things  !!!  I saw and cooler type one at Walmart but, I want to get a larger and to see what my options are... I don't think I'll be getting one anytime soon... maybe for the summer time !!! I can just hide my misc. outside  !!!  and feed the raccoons, naa, J/K .... for now I'm just going to work with what I have right now !!! No Major purchases !!! just what ever I have right now !!!!  I'm thinking of downsizing big time !!!!  tonight  !!!!  clothing etc..... yeah, all of my "Hoodies" are Tight !!! I have zero loose clothing !!!  Reason Why ????   because my belly is protruding quite a bit.... Hey, I know, have to make peace of where I'm at !!!!   No More  !!! I don't want to be offered anything that is not for my highest good !!!!  at the Pads sites,  Holy Moly, being constantly offered, offered, asked, if I want some desert, cake, cookies, ice cream, etc....... etc.... etc..... The days of getting absolutely stuffed and going to sleep right after are Done & Gone !!!!   I'm going to be away for a month, I'll probably visit for a Meal Only at the Synagogue in Lombard, or the 3rd Saturday at the Warming Site in Villa Park  !!!!  The Time is Now For Me To Actual Begin My Metamorphosis !!!!!  

P.S. Check Out My Final Farewell Words on my station "theoscarzepeda" on YouTube... Part 1 & Part 2, it won't be titled, just the last 2 that I uploaded.... Infinite Love & Gratitude, The Time is Now For Me To Enter & Seal Off Infinite Divine's Cocoon !!!!   Until Further Notice !!!!   So, I will not post or upload any pics, words, or video clips Until Further Notice, could be in 2013 !!!!!   and both of my Facebook's are "Deactivated" Until Further Notice... Thank You Infinite Source Energy, Master Infinite Divine Creator !!!! I Love You Sooo Very Much !!!!!  Thank You for your Personal Gift of my Personal Training Education & Certification, where I know that the Personal Training was meant For Me !!!!   For My Transformation and For My Metamorphosis !!!!  Thank You, Forever and Infinite Thank You !!!!  And So It Is..... Oz / Du